Take Tomorrow

The last week has been the most depressing of my life. I have been a total zombie living on autopilot. It has been harder than I thought not being able to see Edward everyday even if we did barley talk. He hasn't called me all week to see how I am. Every time I think he has just fallen out of love I get a huge pain shooting up my body and I collapse to the floor.

When I got to Alice's house last Wednesday night she gladly took me in with open arms no questions asked, well except the one where she was wondering why in gods name I never told her we were having problems, she had a feeling we were not doing well but she did not want to ask unless I brought it up. The reason I never told her was because I really didn't even know what are problem was, or more like his problem. And really who wants there best friend, one that has the white picket fence, perfect husband and two point five kids to find out you are having trouble in your marriage.

Edward sure hasn't said anything to his family and because of that Sunday dinner was the only time it seemed like we were normal. It seemed like the only thing he put all his effort into anymore was school, it was always his escape.

I have been moping around the house all week. I have been in total writers block so I had to get my deadline pushed back. Alice kicked me out of the house today and locked the door. She said I needed to go get my husband back or stop moping and move on. I think she just doesn't like seeing me like this, that and she wanted some alone time with Jasper while the girls where at play group.

I decided to go check out the new music store that just came to Seattle. I thought maybe some new music would help me get some inspiration to write.

The door chimed when I opened it, the man at the front desk looked up and asked if I needed any help, I told him I was just going to take a look around, he than proceeded to tell me that if I wanted to listen to a certain cd before buying it I could take it and scan it in the computer in the back of the store. I thanked him and walked over to my personal favorite the rock section.

I was scanning through the cd's when someone next to me tried to grab my attention. "Excuse me I saw you standing over here by yourself and I thought you might like some company." I looked up to see a guy about my age, he was really cute, just about as good looking as Edward but in a different way. He was really tall about 6'3 and he was really tan. He had short brown hair and brown eyes. If I wasn't married I probably would have taken him up on his offer to join me.

"Ummm that's really nice of you but I don't think it would be a very good idea." I gave him an apologetic smile than went back to looking through the cd's.

"Oh why is that, are you married or something because I have been watching you and I didn't see a ring on your finger." I looked down at my left hand.

"Actually I am I just forgot to put on my ring this morning." Truth was I didn't have one. The ones we got in Vegas gave me hives so I had to stop wearing it. Edward said he was going to get me a new one as soon as he graduated med school.

"Well I have to admit I was trying to pick you up. I should have figured that a beautiful women would already be taken." He rubbed the back of his neck, I'm sure out of embarrassment. "Are you sure you don't need the company, it's just you looked kind of lonely……….It wouldn't hurt if we hung out as friends would it." I thought about it for a second. I really didn't think it would hurt but I new I had to be careful. "We could go to lunch or something, no date, you know you pay for yours all pay for mine." I wasn't sure what he was trying to do by having me go hang out with him but he seemed genuine enough and it wasn't like I wasn't starving for any sort of male affection.

"Sure I guess that would be ok, I haven't had lunch yet and I am kind of hungry."

"Great, my names Jacob by the way." He held out his had for me to shake.

"Bella." I shook his hand.

We decided to walk to the diner that was just down the street from the music store. Jake didn't have a car and I really didn't want to ride in a car with a man I just met. When we got to the diner the waitress sat us in a booth in the back. I order breakfast for lunch and Jacob order the same with a turkey sandwich on the side. I wasn't shocked at how much he order because I was use to it with Emmett.

"So what's your husband's name?"

"Edward Cullen."

"Oh so you're a Cullen." He looked amused.

"What, do you know him." I asked

"No but I know his father, he is the best doctor in Forks." I shook my head. He was the best doctor and he was the main reason Edward wanted to go into medicine. Edward looked up to his father. When he was a little boy and his dad explained to him that he saves peoples lives for his job Edward was amazed and right than and there he decided he wanted to be a doctor but ever sense he started med school he didn't seem to happy with it, I often wondered if he wanted to change his career choice. It never got brought up so I would just push it to the back of my mind.

I was having a lot of fun with Jacob. He made me laugh the whole time witch I needed, I hadn't had a smile on my face for so long that my jaw began to hurt. Talking with Jake reminded me how much I missed having conversations with Edward.

When I first started hanging out with Jake I felt really bad, almost like I was cheating on Edward but than after awhile I was ok with it as long as it was nothing more than two friends talking. I wasn't sure what Alice was going to say about it, I was just hoping she would be to busy with the girls to even ask what I did today.

When I thought of Alice and the girls I realized I had totally lost track of time.

"Oh my god I am so sorry Jake I didn't realize it was so late, I have to go pick up my god daughters." I tried to wave the waitress over so I could pay for my food.

"Don't worry about it I'll get it." I gave him a questioning look. "I promise it wasn't a date."

I handed Jake a ten out of my wallet, there was no way I was going to let him pay. "Take it please I am not letting you pay."

"Alright but only if you take this." He handed me his business card. "If you ever need someone to talk to, strictly friends." I wasn't sure I would call him but I took the card anyways.

"Thank you." He could tell I meant more than just him giving me his card.

He pulled me into a hug, I tried to pull away at first but he wouldn't let me and so I embraced it. I did not want to cheat on Edward but I needed this. "Your welcome."

After I left the diner I went to pick up Emily and Elizabeth from there play group. I promised Alice I would take them to the grocery store to pick up stuff for dinner before we went home. The girls decided they wanted to make pizza for dinner so we went around the store and got everyone's favorite toppings. The girls wanted ham and pineapple and I new that Jasper would want the same. Alice would want plain cheese and I wanted sausage and mushroom.

After we got all the ingredients for the pizzas we picked up some ice cream for desert and went home. I knocked on the door before entering to alert Jasper and Alice we were home.

"DADDY." The girls both yelled running to jump on Jasper sleeping on the couch.

"You must have worn him out." I joked with Alice while she helped me put the grocery's away.

"You know it, he doesn't' get a day off very often." She smiled looking over at Jasper playing with the girls. I couldn't help but be jealous of them. I always wanted kids with Edward but he was to concerned about getting his career on track first.

"So what did you do today before you picked up the girls?" I really was hoping she wouldn't ask that because I knew I wouldn't be able to lie to her.

"Ummm I went to that new music store down town and than to lunch." I turned my head so she wouldn't ask me more about it.

"Well did you have a nice time." I smiled at her.

"Actually I did." She seemed happy about that and left it alone. "Well I am going to get cleaned up before I start dinner." I started to walk back to the bedroom I was staying in but was stopped be Alice.

"Bella you dropped this." I turned around to see Alice with Jake's card in her hands. I went to grab it from her but she pulled her hands away.

"Bella why do you have a card for a car dealership and why does it say 'If you need a friend call me' on the back?"

I grabbed the card from Alice. "It's nothing, I met this really nice guy at the music store and he gave me his card that's all." I tried to sound convincing that that was all there was but she didn't buy it.

"You went to lunch with him." She accused.

"Alice it was just lunch and I paid for my own. I told him I was married. But Alice I really needed someone to talk to."

"Why couldn't you just talk to me."

"Alice I have talk to you, but it felt nice to have someone else." I tried to stress the someone part so she would understand that it was more of the male bonding that I needed.

"Bella are you cheating on Edward?"

"NO." I yelled but a part of me thought I was. "Alice I just don't know what to do, it has been so long sense I had any sort of attention from a guy. And Jake was nice, really nice and he made me laugh." I slid down to the floor putting my head in my hands.

Alice sat down next to me. "Bella I don't believe in cheating, I think you need to break it off with Edward if that is what it is coming to. I want you do be happy no matter who your with but Edward is also my friend and he does not deserve to be cheated on no matter what." She was right and I made up my mind about not calling Jake and just trying to work on my marriage.

"I know I wasn't going to call him." I took the card from Alice and through it in the trash.

I went to my room so I could change into my sweats before starting dinner. Alice was right about me and Jake. Maybe I did need to just divorce Edward. I was sure are relationship was over, I didn't think the time apart has done us any good like I thought it would, if anything it has probably just pulled us farther apart than we already were. I had always said I would do everything in my power to fix my marriage but maybe it wasn't worth it anymore. I still loved Edward and I knew I always would. It's like everyone says 'you never forget your first love' especially if you were married to them.

That night I decided to have Jasper take Alice out for dinner. I felt really bad that I had been living of them for the past week so I thought the least I could do was baby sit.

Me and the girls had a blast making pizza's. We made a huge mess with the flour, of course. We ate in front of the television witch was a huge no no in there family. They promised they wouldn't tell on me if I let them so I did. What is an aunt for if it's not to spoil her nieces.

They fell asleep after watching Cars and I cleaned up the huge mess of flour in the kitchen and made sure there was no traces of food in the family room.

Give me all your fear, Throw it all away. Think about the good things, no matter what they say, we'll take tomorrow baby, yeah, one day at a time.

I jumped to the sound of my phone ringing in the other room. I ran as fast as I could, partly because I didn't want to wake the girls and the other part was because of who was calling.

"Hi." I said in a very calm tone, although I was screaming on the inside that he had finally called.

"Hey."

"I'm really glad you called."

"Yeah me to, I'm sorry it took me so long, I was kind of being a little stubborn after you left." At least me leaving had triggered some affect on him. "So…." he said not knowing what to say, had it actually gotten to the point where we couldn't even talk on the phone. "How have you been."

"You no the answer to that Edward, I have felt like crap because I have know clue as to what has happened to us."

"Bella I am really sorry, I know that it is all my fault I just………"

"What Edward you just what, please tell me what is it already." I cried into the phone, I had tried to keep all my tears at bay but talking to him know I couldn't help it.

"I just have had a lot of things on my mind lately and I am sorry for that, I really didn't want it to come to this, will you please just come home so we can talk about it."

"Edward it's going to take a lot more than talking to fix this." He sighed. "I think you need to work through your problems before I come home."

"I don't think I can without you, please." He sounded worse than I did. I wished he could just tell me what he is so bugged about that it is tarring us apart.

"I can't I'm sorry I have to go Alice and Jasper just got home."

"Bella. Wait." But before he could say anything else I hung up the phone. I wasn't sure what was going to be said during that phone call, I hoped it was him calling to tell me why he has been so distracted but it wasn't.

I ran to the kitchen trash to get the one thing that I promised my self I was not going to use.

Jacob's card.

I knew I probably shouldn't call him but I really enjoyed talking to him. I didn't want Alice to know I got it back out of the trash so I piled some stuff on the top so she wouldn't by chance look in and see that it was gone. I looked at the clock, it was only nine and I new Jasper wasn't bringing Alice home until ten.

I had an hour. I picked up my phone and dialed his personal cell number that he had written on the back.

"Hello this is Jake."

"Hey Jake it's Bella, I'm not sure why I'm calling I just thought I would say hi, I thought maybe we could talk or something, ummmm I probably called to late I'm sorry I should just go." I hung up the phone with out another word from Jake. I sounded like a complete fool babbling like that, I really did not even know what I was going to say when he picked up the phone. I was more embarrassed that I, a married women was calling another man to talk.

Give me all your fear, Throw it all away. Think about the good things, no matter what they say, we'll take tomorrow baby, yeah, one day at a time.

"Hello." I picked up after the first ring.

"Why did you hang up?"

"I wasn't sure If I should have called you." It was the truth.

"Why not because your married, I told you already that we are only friends."

"I know but I don't know if that is even a good idea."

"Bella when I saw you today at the music store you looked so sad and I knew I wanted to do everything in my power to fix that, I want to be here for you, as your friend. I know you and Edward are having problems, for that I am sorry but please don't hesitate to call if you need anything and I mean anything." He stressed the anything part and I was worried he meant physically anything, I definitely did not want to cheat on Edward, I already knew I was going to far.

"Thanks Jake but I really did call just to talk." I hoped he understood.

We sat and talked for the next half hour. Just like this morning it was really nice to talk to him. He was over at his friend Quills house, he put it on speaker phone and I mostly just listed to them argue back and forth. They were both really funny and I found myself laughing more than I did earlier when I was with Jake.

I hung up with him before Alice got home. I programmed his number into my phone under Jane, I didn't want Alice to come across it and I knew I could make up some excuse about Jane being my publishers assistant.

Jake invited me over to his place the next day. I declined at first knowing that I shouldn't but he promised that he was just going to show me his car that he had been working on. I didn't have anything I had to do tomorrow so I excepted after he begged for a good couple of minutes.

After awhile of tossing and turning I was able to go to sleep, the last thoughts on my mind being of Edward.

A/N: I hope you all like the chapter, please don't stop reading if you think this will be an Jacob Bella story, I have always loved Jacob but could never put the two together. Please Reveiw.