FROZEN HEART CHAPTER 2
BY DIGIMON CAISLEƁN

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"Ring, ring. Ring, ring"
I groaned lightly to myself as I turned over. I hate been waken up from a peaceful slumber. The phone kept ringing . It should of stopped by now I thought to myself. Remembering that my father had gone to work early I knew that I was the one who had to answer the phone. It might be important...

I pulled myself out of bed and made my way to the kitchen. I cleared my throat and picked up the phone.
"Hello" I said trying to sound awake.
"Matt?" I heard a shaky voice reply uncertanly.
"Yes, who is this?" I asked curiously.
"Matt, this is Sora" she said quickly.
"Sora, what's the matter? You sound worried about something."
"Oh Matt, you haven't heard."
"Heard what? Sora, what's going on?" I asked eagerly.
There was a short pause, that seemed to last ten minutes. When as a matter of fact it only was a couple of seconds.
"It's Tai."
I remained silent waiting for her to finish.
"He's dead Matt" she said in a trembling voice.
My mind went blank. It wouldn't let those words sink in. It couldn't let those words sink in. I felt the colour drain from my face as my legs began to feel like jelly. I grabbed onto a chair for support just before my legs gave way. I sat myself down and tried to stop myself from totally braking down.
"Matt, Matt?" I heard Sora's voice again.
I shook my head slightly and took a deep breath.
"I'm still here" I somehow managed to say.
Sora began to sobbing on the phone.
"I'm so sorry, Matt" she sobbed.
"How did it happen?" I found myself asking.
"He committed suicide last night on the bridge."

I gasp raising my free hand to my mouth. The memory of last night comes flooding into my mind. Tai. The bridge. His confession. My rejection. It all came back too fast. Everything was swarming around in my head. I just left him. It's all my fault. I should of seen it coming. I'm such a baka. All of a sudden tears started flooding out of my eyes. Usually I would be the type of person to put up a fight or blink back the tears but at that moment I just didn't have the energy or the willpower.
"Matt, Matt are you still there?" Sora called to me sounding alarmed.
"I'm here" my voice cracked out.
"I'm coming over. See you in ten."
"Ok" I mumbled.

Within ten minutes the doorbell rang. I got up from my little spot on the cold kitchen floor and opened the door. As soon as I saw Sora's pain stricken face. I collapsed into her arms crying hysterically. She started crying and somehow managed to get me into the kitchen and onto a chair. I put my elbow on the kitchen table and rested my forehead in between my cold fingers. I started to shake. Sora got me a glass of water but I couldn't hold it. My hand felt like putty. It wouldn't grip the glass. Sora knelt in front of me and stroked my hair out of my eyes.
"Shhh" she whispered.
"Why Sora? Why did Tai have to die?" I whailed.
"I don't know" she let out in a course whisper.
"Ah, it's all my fault!" I shouted while getting up and pacing up and down the room.
"Matt, what are you talking about? It's not your fault. Please sit down" Sora pleaded.

I turned around and looked Sora straight in the eye. The look seemed to frighten her a bit. She was unsure of what I was going to say.
"He told me he loves me last night and I rejected him. He was so upset. He was crying" I said slowly.
Sora gasped and then scrambled up to her feet. She walked over to me and hugged me.
"It's not your fault. I mean come on what were you suppose to do? Lie to him? Tai's your friend and you told him the truth. There was nothing you could of done to stop him. He wanted it this way" Sora said trying to sooth me.
Even though her words were calming it was short-lived.
"I feel weak. I need to lie down" I said dazily.
"Ok, here let me help you."
Sora helped me into my room and laid me down on my bed. I closed my eyes briefly. Sora went out to ring my dad. When she came back in I propped myself up onto my pillow.
"Does everyone know?" I asked.
"They should all know by now yes."
I sighed heavily and leaned back.
"Do you want me to get TK?" She piped up.
My eyes flung.
"Yes...Please" I said eagerly.
She smiled weakly at me and went to phone me.

Within a half an hour TK was there. Sora left to visit Kari who needed support. TK didn't fight back his tears. He just let them come. All I wanted was for him to hug me and tell me that everything was ok. It was as if he read my mind. He hugged me tightly letting more tears fall out of his eyes and seep into my shirt. I needed to talk to someone about what happened. I spilled the whole thing out to TK. He listened intensively. Never once interrupting me. He hugged me again.
"Matt, don't for one second think that any of this is your fault."
I nodded.
"Promise" he said sounding worried.
"I promise" I said reassuring him.

The funeral was horrible. There wasn't a dry eye in the place. Mrs. Kamiya was hysterical. Kari was a ghostly white. Like she didn't really exist. Mr. Kamiya was slightly shaking while a few tears escaped down his cheeks. All our friends were there bawling their eyes out. I wanted that day to end. It just felt so horrible. We finally made it to the cemetery. It was eerie, knowing that this is where Tai is going to be forever. As they lowered Tai into the ground Kari collapsed screaming. Her parents grabbed her.
"No, no this isn't happening" she screamed. "You're suppose to protect me forever" she sobbed.
I felt weak again and burst into tears. Joe caught me before I fell and put my head between my legs. The rest of the day was a blur. It just felt like a nightmare. I kept waiting for when I would wake up and still to this day I wait.

I drop my pen and yawn looking over my sheet.
'I do feel better actually' I think to myself. 'The therapist was right. If you write down whatever's on your mind it does help to clear your mind.'
I look at the stone in front of me where I sit cross legged. I read the words on the stone again.
"With loving memory to Tai Kamiya. Beloved son, brother and friend. Rest in peace."
I smile at the little picture of Tai. Something I haven't done in ages.
"See you tomorrow Tai" I say while getting up and moving away.
I look around. It's a hot day, the sky is a sea blue, with not one cloud. I breath in the fresh air and for the first time I have a happy thought.

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I dedicate this fic to my dog Brandy who died of old age. I love and miss you so much. You will always have a special place in my heart and I thank you for your friendship. It's not always easy been an only child! You gave me great company and I will always treasure our memories.