"I mean I'd like to hear your voice! Even if we disagree…You used to be different"
Rose intrigued me from the moment I first laid eyes on her. She was different to the other girls I knew, she was beautiful but she had an aura about her. She was intense. Rose had inner strength and strong opinions that she wasn't afraid to voice. And I? I was like a moth to her flame.
I loved absolutely everything about Rose, her fire, her smile, her forthrightness and most of all her honesty. In those early days, I loved looking into her eyes and hearing the sophistication of her thoughts. I knew without any doubt in my mind that this remarkable woman was the ones with whom I wanted to share the rest of my life.
But now, everything that made Rose so unique is gone. Somewhere along the way in our marriage, Rose changed, and now I barely recognise this meed stranger I am married to. I've tried reaching out to her, tried asking her, what's wrong? But she does not answer me. Why did she change? Why won't she let me in? She has become an empty vessel…a husk of her former self and my pleas fall on deaf ears.
I want to scream in protest and tear down this unbearable wall of silence that has grown between us! Even arguing would have to be better than these awkward silences! I wish I knew what to do so that things could return to the way they were at the beginning.
Rose, when I married you I never thought you would change. I never expected you to become just another carbon copy corporate wife. I never wanted you to be anything other than yourself. Why can't you see after all this time that I love you…for you?
For god's sake Rose please…talk to me! I've lost you. I see you every day, but you are as distant to me as the horizon. Why have you shut me out? I still love you, and I love our daughter, but I cannot keep holding onto memories forever. I need you to come back to me.
