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-Ali's POV-

"Mrs. Hastings? What are you doing here? I don't deserve your help.. I hurt your daughter," I say timidly while locking eyes with her. I still can't read her expression.. its very non-emotional.

"Alison, everyone makes mistakes and we all deserve help. Wait till we get to the interview room before explaining anything further," and with that I follow her down the hall and through several doors; this place is a giant maze and I'm the mouse searching for the cheese...

I take a deep breath while positioned in the chair sitting across from Veronica. Closing my eyes, I picture Emily lying helpless on the hospital bed and can feel my heart starting to race as anxiety takes control. I cant help but break down crying in front of her, shes never seen me like this. No one has. I'm Alison Dilaurentis for crying out loud. But Aria, Spencer, Hanna and Emily, I hurt them all in ways I can never take back. If not physically then definitely emotionally. Aria must be so happy she ran off with Fitz earlier that evening rather than riding home with me. She's going to hate me for putting her brother through that though. How could I blame her? I hate me.

We sit here for what feels like hours recounting the details from that night, turns out she's a lot more understanding than I expected. I'm surprised to hear her say that she forgives me and that I will probably only get sentenced with community service since I'm a minor.
Days pass, and since shes not doing too well, I haven't been allowed to visit Emily. The others have agreed to come over this afternoon, together. We are all suffering and we need each other... I just hope they can forgive me, I don't expect it though.. but I am hopeful.
The doorbell rings and I can hear Jason open the door and send the girls up to my room. This is not how I expected to spend the beginning of my summer right before senior year.

-No POV-

The girls walk up the stairs and knock on Ali's bedroom door before slowly opening the door to reveal the girl sitting on her bed. Her eyes dark with circles, cheeks stained with tears and body covered in blankets. A sight they never expected to see from Alison. She was always filled with so much laughter and sinical jokes, who would have thought that she was capable of such raw emotion. Aria was the first to break the silence,

"Alison?"

She rubbed her eyes and then looked her in the eyes, "I'm so sorry... I'm such an idiot, if I had just listened to her.. she wouldn't be there attached to machines and your brother's wrist wouldn't be broken," she rambles and then turns to face Spencer, " and your leg.. Spence, field hockey... I messed up your career," finally facing Hanna she fully breaks down crying, " Hanna, your ok?"

Hanna only replies with a slight shrug, the doctors had informed her that she just has a minor concussion and to watch for symptoms. Aria lets her tears flow freely as she makes her way over to the blonde. She wraps her petite arms around the sobbing mess.

"Shh.. If Emily was here she would want you to stop beating yourself up like this, also, Mike isn't mad, hes actually telling all his buddies how he survived some super massive 12 car pile up," Aria tries too soothe her with a slight chuckle, without really knowing what to say.

Alison pulls away and looks up at her a bit confused and tries to laugh then glances at the other two girls who haven't moved an inch from her door, other than to close it.

"Exactly! If... if she was here.. but she's not," Alison crumbles into the small girls body and completely lets all her emotions flow freely. Hanna and Spencer exchange looks then silently agree to go and join in on the hug. They sat there all holding one another for several minutes, no one dared to break away until Ali was ready.

Unfortunately, Hanna missed that memo as she pulls away scrunching her nose, "Ew, seriously guys... take a shower. That was a lot of body odor in one place."

Spencer was about to give her a slap on the shoulder when Alison looked up with a slight smile on her face and let out a small chuckle. Something none of them had done much of since that night. Just then Jason abruptly opened the door while holding the house phone in his hand.

"Ali, the hospital just called, and Emily has started breathing on her own now, shes still unconscious to do with what ever the medical thingy is, she explained it to me but I'm still confused... anyway, this means you can go see her, if you give me an hour i can drive you 4 there." Jason told the girls while still trying to mentally figure out the medical term lost from his mind. Him and Ali have been very close since their parents walked out of their lives earlier that year, Jason has turned to drugs while Ali has turned to alcohol.

The girls all nodded at Ali's older brother and without a moment to spare Alison sprung out of the bed and began making herself look like 'Alison Dilaurentis'. The other girls went into the bathroom behind her and touched up their now smudged makeup. The drive to the hospital was very quiet, but not awkward like expected, Alison was fidgeting in her seat anxiously waiting to see Emily's beautiful face again. Hanna was busy texting Caleb to tell him the news, he wasn't in the car with them, but has been worried sick about everyone. He actually beat them to the hospital and was waiting in the hall to greet Hanna with a hug. Emily was like a little sister to him, even though they were the same age; Caleb took on a role of over protective big brother. He was not going to forgive Alison that easily. As she runs past him down the hallway all he can is glare and shake his head. He secretly hopes that Emily will shut her out for what she has done and caused.

-Ali POV-

Everyone is in my way as I run down the hallways and up the stairs (elevator was taking too long), Jason called ahead to ask what room she was in. Best brother award goes too.. him.

There she is. Pale faced with tubes attached under her nose which I presume are used to give her more oxygen. There's a stool placed by the side of her bed but all i can think about is lying next to her and kissing everything better. I don't want too hurt her more than I already have though, would she even want me lay beside her? Oh what the hell, I don't care. Move over Emily,

"I love you so much, babe... I can't find enough words to say how sorry I am and how I should have listened to you. You're always right, always, you were scared in the car and I could tell, but I still didn't do anything about it. I guess I just lost track of how much I had to drink. I do that a lot this past year, I am sorry for that, I'm trying, but everything is just too hard. I can't lose you, I need you here with me. You complete me, Emily, you are my world..." I cant help but completely break down crying, again, as I place a kiss on her cheek. I don't know how long I laid there for before falling asleep but all too soon I'm woken up by the most gentle kiss on my forehead.

"You're pretty cute, but was it necessary to wake me up from my afternoon nap?"

My eyes fly open and I turn to face Emily. Her eyes, they're so beautiful.. I've missed them so much this past week, "Emily, your awake.. but how?" I say while squeezing her tighter and nuzzling my head onto her chest.

"The nurse came in this morning saying they unhooked some machine to allow me to naturally wake up this morning on my own. I asked them to call you, did they?"

"Yeah, well Jason answered the phone but said you were still unconscious but that I can come and see you," Jason must have really misunderstood the nurse on the phone today. My Emmy is awake and here, shes even talking to me and not yelling.

Emily lets out a slight chuckle while stroking my head and my fingers start to dance around her stomach atop the sheets, "He never really was the best at medical scenarios, the nurse probably meant that I was just sleeping at that moment." She smiles and me and lets out a heavy sigh which catches me off guard. I don't want this moment to end, so I lift my head up and move so my head is inches away from hers. Lightly breathing on her lips I can feel her catch her breath as i connect our lips for the first time since that night. At first she doesn't kiss back too much, but eventually she allows my tongue to enter her mouth as it playfully moves about. I just can't help the way she makes me feel. Suddenly I feel her pull away and lean her head down onto mine and squeeze my body tightly.

"Ali, I'm still so mad at you, I don't even know where to begin, but I just love you so much and I'm glad you're safe," she glances up to see the others make their way into the room now, I can hear their footsteps behind me as they shut the door on their way in.

"Are we interrupting something?" Hanna says with a smirk as she walks in.

"No," I send a chuckle her way, and then look into Emily's beautiful brown eyes, "I need to gain her trust back. I hurt her in so many ways, and I take full responsibility for everything. I'm going to work hard every single day for the rest of my life to ensure that this woman is well looked after. I can't stand too see her in this much pain ever again, especially when I am the root of the cause...All of you guys actually, I'm going to work hard to gain everyone's trust back. I don't deserve friends as great as all you," a tear strolls down my cheek and I feel her warm touch lightly brush it away.

-No POV-

Emily is left speechless and in awe of the blondes words. On one hand she was so sincere in her apologies but on the other hand... this was a very serious situation that Em has been left in. For the rest of the night after the girls had all said their goodbyes and parted ways. She was left alone with her thoughts on what to do. She has wanted to be with Ali for as long as she can remember, but is that what a relationship with the 'Queen Bee' was going to be like? Distrust and drunken nights with someone getting hurt to be followed by a sober Ali apologizing profusely? Em had nightmares all throughout the night waking up every hour either sweating or crying. This was all too much for her to handle; all she wanted to do was get into the pool and swim away all her angry thoughts and clear her mind. But she wouldn't be able to do that for a few weeks while everything healed up.

A/N -

So here we see Emily in a bit of a mental toss up between just being with her girlfriend and forgiving right away or not. What would you do in that situation? I feel like I'd be uber pissed off and have sworn quite a few times at that person by now ... haha but I'm not Emily. I put a few extra comic relief moments in here to help with the emotions.. bear with me .. please :O I start work up again tomorrow after the holiidays, so wont have as much free time.. but reviews will remind me that i have this going on as well. i have the attention span of a 2 year old, forget about things easily.

(insert winky face here) .. see you next time ! Hope you like it... please review.. theres not gonna be a set day I post the new chapters.. just like when they're written and if I have a few reviews on the previous.

Ps- my current fav stories on here are by 'emisonheaven' .. you should probably check 'em out!