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I'm sorry for so many line breaks, and any awkward phrases.
The focus couples are revealed in this chapter, so I'm sorry if you don't like them.
Disclaimer: I do not own House of Anubis.
I am going to start you off, about two years ago, and we'll see how it goes from there.
2 years ago…
"Alright, you guys have fifteen minutes. Turn to someone next to you and begin working." Mr. Sweet said, sitting down at his desk.
At our chemistry table, I sit in the middle of Nina and Alfie. Fabian sits next to Nina, and Jerome is next to Alfie.
I turn to look at Alfie, but he was already talking to Jerome. I shrugged, before turning to Nina. Nina was already started on the worksheet with Fabian, so I just smiled and worked by myself.
Haha. I remember that day. Of course, then I didn't realize that would be happening more often. Now I know no matter what my friends are going to pick someone other than me. I almost always work by myself.
"Alright, Miss. Millington. We'll start with you." Mrs. Andrew's said.
Then she said something in French that I had no idea what it meant whatsoever. For a second, I thought she asked me what my name was, but I wasn't sure so I said "I have no idea what you just asked me."
"Ah,well, Amber, have you been studying?"
"Yes,a little bit." I answered truthfully. I wasn't studying the "fifteen minutes minimum" every night, but I did look at it a lot.
"A little bit? It's either a yes or a no." then she turned to Alfie, and asked him the same question.
"Mon nom est Alfie Lewis" he answered.
So it did mean your name. I get the easiest question and I still mess it up. I'm such a disappointment. I started scratching myself in one place, leaving me with this burn looking thing. If anyone asked me what that was, that's what I would say; "a burn", and no one would suspect a thing. The bell rang, and I sighed. It was time for lunch, and no one noticed I did not eat a bite, even though I was starving.
I guess I told Nina a few months ago. She knows about everything; my self harming, self hatred, anxiety, and now my anorexia. But I don't think my anorexia will turn really bad because I have to eat something at dinner and at least a glass of milk at breakfast or I get the worst headache.
She tries to help me, but I don't think she fully understands. Then I told Fabian. I'm not sure what his reaction was, since he just sat down and looked straight ahead. He doesn't act any different, so I don't think he cares. Nina says he does, but I'm 99.9% sure she's just trying to make me feel better.
Joy found out a bit too. If she ever reads this, she'll find out the full extent.
Oh yeah, then there's the whole 'Fabina' thing. I hate how I barged in on them. I feel like whenever they tried to have alone time, I came in and messed it all up. I can't help but think their break up was my fault. Of course, Nina tries to tell me it wasn't my fault, but I know it was. It just makes me hate myself even more.
They're back together now, stronger and more in love than ever, but I can never get over my past for some reason.
As much as I hate to admit it, Fabian is the perfect boyfriend. I don't like him like that, but still. He's nice, sweet, and caring. I've seen the way he looks at Nina. He's totally, head-over-heels, in love with Nina, and I am sure she feels the same exact way about him.
I don't have a boyfriend. After Alfie broke up with me, I realized no one would ever truly like me. It sucks, too, because I've taken up a new interest in someone.
Then, there's Eddie and Patricia. Sure, they bicker, but they probably love each other as much as Fabina does. And yeah, maybe they broke up last summer, but they got back together. They also are oblivious to all my 'problems'.
In the beginning of all this, I told Mara I was depressed. She just brushed it off and said I wasn't. Yes, because she can tell how I really feel.
Willow is literally the only person I feel actually somewhat likes me. Too bad I keep pushing her away. Then she started to date Alfie. Just like Willow, he has no clue about anything. He would probably get disgusted.
I'm disgusted with myself, so why wouldn't he be too?
Jerome doesn't have a clue, either. I have taken a bit of a liking in him, sadly. It's funny, because I never would've thought I would ever like him. But I know that he won't like me like that, ever, so I should just give up.
But for some reason, I just can't. It's like I'm stuck on him.
I can see the Jerome that is smart, funny, and caring, while everyone else can only see the mischief in him. Everyone else sees the bad guy that has the father in jail, but not me. I can see farther than his reputation.
I wish I could do the same for myself.
Have you guys seen the preview for 'The Touchstone of Ra'? It looks so exciting, but our babies are graduating! And, unfortunately for me, there's what looks like Mabian. I do not ship them together.
K, so enough of this rant. See you next time (:
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
