Disclamier: I don't own YYH
Misunderstanding Part Two: Please Forgive Me
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Please, please forgive me but I won't be home again
Maybe someday you'll look out, and barely conscious you'll say to no one;
"Isn't something missing?"
Kurama, Shizuru, Kuwabara,Yukina,Yusuke, Keiko, Genkai, and Botan. They were all at the temple having some sort of get together. In the middle of it, Kurama announced hat he and Shizuru were getting engaged. Kuwabara gave Kurama a big bear hug and then whispered something in his ear that made Kurama sweat-drop. Yusuke made a joke about the honeymoon which gave Kurama and Shizuru red faces, and Yusuke a hand mark across his cheek. While this was going on, his eyes drifted over to the blue haired deity sitting on the floor. She was talking with Keiko and Yukina like she always did. She was smiling and laughing. It was like she didn't even notice he was gone. Like she didn't care at all.
You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant? Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
"How stupid do you think I am?" Mukuro was boring holes into his head. "Really, Hiei, how much must you insult me? You have shown no interest in me and now suddenly, during mating season, you come to me? You really are a bastard."
Yes, he had chosen a bad time to come to her, but he really did want her.
"I will not take you as my mate. You will never have me as yours."
He said nothing and turned around. "I see." He walked out of her chambers and slowly down the hall. His instincts were becoming harder to control, If he even sniffed a female, let alone saw one, he would get the urge to mate. This season for some reason was a lot stronger than he previous ones. Usually, he was able to control it, but this time he was breaking. If he didn't find a willing female soon, he could lose control and force himself on someone. The idea of that disgusted him.
That's when he smelled it; Another female. This one was in heat. He rounded the corner and saw her talking to another female. Dirty thoughts entered his mind. Maybe he should take them both, or force them to mate with each other. When he felt his pants become tight he knew he was in trouble. He had to get out of there. He figured Human World was a safe bet, because when mating season would come around there it was easier. When he got to the Human World his instincts had become impossible.
He was shaking and sweating. He had to mate now. But who would let him? That's when he sensed the Grim Reaper woman's energy. He cringed at the thought of mating her, but he had no other choice.
At least she would listen to him.
Twenty minutes went by with him just watching her sleep. She was breathing so gently and slowly, and hardly moved in her sleep. A strange calm took him over as he watched her. His needs were slowly melting away. That is, until she turned on her back. Her blankets came just below her waist, and her nightgown was a white thin little thing. In the moonlight her nipples showed through the fabric. He growled and licked his lips. His pants became tighter and his energy rose. She stirred in her sleep, probably sensing his energy. She opened her eyes and for a moment they locked with his.
She yelped and fell out of the bed on the floor. "Hiei?" Her feminine voice made him hornier.
"Open the window." That is all that would come out of his mouth. She did and he entered the room. When her scent filled his nose, he had to muster all the control he had left not to attack her. He heard her ask a question. "Do you know what time it is? He said with a cruel tone.
"Um, eleven pm?" He chuckled inwardly. Stupid woman as always.
"No...It's mating season." His body had started walking toward her. He didn't remember what was said after that but he could sense her fear.
"What about Mukuro?" He heard her ask.
"She rejected me."
"Oh. But why me? Can't you find somebody else?"
"Yeah, I'll just go out and rape a random female. My instincts can't be controlled. If I approached anybody else they would refuse and I would have to force myself on them." More things were said but his need drowned them out.
"You can control it, Hiei."
"You think so?" He had transformed without knowing and pinned her to the wall. He nipped at her neck and his hand moved up her waist to her left breast. He heard her gasp and pulled away slightly. He hated forcing her. That's when he felt her hands stroke his head.
"It's alright, Hiei. I'm yours."
Those words made him lose the little control he had left. He opened his mouth and bit into her shoulder. Her blood filled his mouth and he moaned. It was likes sweet nectar that ran down his throat.
In the middle of it he realized what he had done. Since he had marked her she was now his forever. For some reason he didn't care at the moment. That's when he felt her bite him. He smiled after she stopped and ran his mouth down to her nightgown. He pulled it down exposing her breasts and ran his tongue over her nipple. She moaned and moved her left hand below his waist. She undid his belt and slipped her hand in. He groaned finally feeling the pleasure his body had ached for.
What he did remember of that night was the passion they had both showed each other. It was like they both needed each other and had been waiting an eternity for it. They had gone for hours and ended up passing on on the floor. He woke up when she fell on him. She screamed and threw a fit about them being naked. The way she blushed and freaked out with her hands over her face made him laugh. Really laugh. It was the first time in a long time.
"Woman, you saw me naked all night long? How is this different?"
"I don't remember last night. She said shyly peeking out of her hands. She didn't remember.
All that passion she showed him was just his needs rubbing off on her.
"I see." He stood up and put on his pants with inhuman speed. After that they came to an understanding about their situation. They were mated forever. Connected forever.
And that connection would never be broken unless one of them died.
The first few weeks were a little tricky. The first few times they had sex were nervous and less passionate. However that changed through time. They quickly learned to throw their inhibitions out the door, or rather her inhibitions since Hiei had none, and experiment with each other.
He loved ravaging her body and making her writhe. Sometimes she would pleasure him, touching him in ways he never thought anybody would. He never thought anybody would want to touch him like that. Everyone was always disgusted by him. But not her. She freely ran her hands all over him and let him run his hands on her.
When they weren't having sex he would watch her from afar with his Jagan. He stayed in Human World just to watch her. She would leave in the morning in her spirit form and fly off to Spirit World to ferry souls. He would wait for her to come back, not doing anything else but just sitting and waiting.
When she would finally come back he would watch her unlock the door and enter her apartment.
He found it interesting that she would land two blocks away and walk back to her apartment.
He learned to love watching her cook her meals and watch her favorite nightly cop drama.
Just watching her everyday made him realize how special she was to him.
It had been six months already and they hadn't even had a single conversation. All they did was have sex a couple times a week. Sometimes she would smile and enjoy him, and other times she would sigh and let him enjoy her. This bothered Hiei greatly. Was all they had just sex? Did she want more from him, or was she sick of him already? It had been a whole week and they had said nothing to each other. Not even a simple 'Hello.' He showed up as usual an she sighed. He his his frown at that. She didn't want him that night, but that was okay. He would make her happy. That night he was more gentle with her. She sighed and moaned happily more times than she had ever done with him before.
He was holding her in his arms watching her sleep. She was cuddled up to his chest breathing gently. He ran his fingers through her hair slowly and breathed her in deep. He knew what he had to do, the only problem how was he going to do it? All he had ever done with her in the past was show up and have sex. How would she react? If he simply confessed his feelings for her out of nowhere she might reject him. And of course, what if she didn't feel the same as him? He frowned and snuggled up close to her. He would deal with it in the morning.
He entered her bedroom early this night because sex was not on his mind. He sat on her bed and let her scent calm him. He also sniffed what she was cooking in the kitchen. After a few minutes he walked to where she was.
"I haven't eaten yet, so you'll have to wait." So she thought he wanted sex. Of course. What else would she think? "Do you want some?" She asked. He stopped. She was offering him dinner?
"Alright." He said that not in his usual cold tone but gentle and polite. He wanted it that way.
"Alright. Go sit and I'll bring it out to you." He sat on the couch thinking about how and when he would confess to her. He was lost in his thoughts when she brought out two full plates full of noodles with red stuff on them. He sniffed it and she giggled slightly.
"Don't worry, it's really good." He looked up at her and made eye contact with her for only a second before he quickly looked away. Damn this shyness around her!
She handed him some common human eating utensils and they began eating in silence.
"Hiei, what are we?" He stopped in mid slurp and shifted in his seat.
"We're mates." He heard his cold voice say. What else could he say?
"And what is that?" He raised an eyebrow at her. Didn't he already tell her that?
"Hiei, we're mates, but what does that mean? That we're just supposed to have sex a couple times a week?" He stood up and went to the window. His arms crossed and he frowned. That is not what mates meant.
"If I don't get more from this relationship, then I think we should end it." So she did want more. He hid his smile with a cold response.
"We can't. Only death can break it."
"I know. But just because that it's there, it doesn't mean that we just have meaningless sex forever. There are other ways to end it." Little did she know what he was thinking.
"Like what?" He asked.
"Like you never coming over again." Hiei stiffened when she said that. Her tone was calm and there was no hint of sadness in it. It was almost like she was asking him to leave.
"Does that mean you never want to see me again?" He kept his voice emotionless to hide his fear.
"Is that what you want?" Great. Another chance. But he still wasn't sure. Did she want him or not? So he asked the question he needed the answer to; "What would you do if I said yes?"
He was facing her now and she smiled. "You really don't want to be here do you? You're here because you feel obligated. Because you marked me you feel obligated to stay with me." So that's what she thought of him. "Well, Hiei, I have good news for you; I don't need your obligation and I don't need you."
She didn't want him. She didn't need him at all. "I see." He turned away from her and started for the door. She rejected him just like Mukuro. They both thought he didn't care because he had no idea how to show them. So, in the end, they both ended up hating him.
"Is that all you have to say?" He didn't hear the crack in her voice.
"You said it yourself. I'm only here because I feel obligated. I see nothing else to say." His voice was cold as always and he made it that way.
"Okay, then." That's when a plate crashed into the wall in front of him. He gasped and jumped back. Her face was red with rage and she was holding the other plate.
"THEN GET OUT OF HERE!" She threw the other plate at him and he dissapeared out her window. She hated him. That's how it always was. No one loves the Forbidden Child. No one.
Even though I'm the sacrifice, you won't try for me no, no
Though I'd die to know you love me I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?
"You have unmitigated gall. You go off and mark someone else and disappear for five years, and now you come back? What do you want?" She was boring holes in him again. He could tell she was trying to read him but this time he was blocking her out. He didn't want her to see his shame.
"I came to say goodbye." She slightly lightened her glare.
"What does that mean?" She never got her answer because he was gone.
Please, please forgive me but I won't be home again
I know what you do to yourself, I breathe deep and cry out
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
He made it to the forest in the Human World that he would watch her from with his Jagan. He got to his favorite tree on his favorite branch. Without knowing he slid down the trunk onto the branch and put his head in his hands. Tears fell from his eyes and made little red gems in his lap. He picked them up and threw them in fury. What was the point anymore? Nobody wanted him. Nobody needed him. What he originally thought was true; There was nothing worth waiting for in life.
He uncovered his weeping Jagan and looked for her again. There she was, sleeping peacefully. Breathing slowly like she was the night he came to her. It seemed she had forgotten him.
Even though I'm the sacrifice, you won't try for me no, no
Though I'd die to know you love me I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed I'll bleed, knowing you don't care
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there
Isn't something missing
Isn't something...
His tears stopped as he unsheathed his sword. He did so as he watched her. He had always wanted to know how this would feel.
Even though I'm the sacrifice, you won't try for me no, no
Though I'd die to know you love me I'm all alone
As his vision faded he continued to watch her sleep. Beacause they hadn't seen each other in years, their connection had weakened. She couldn't even sense what he was doing. She quietly slept as the mark on her shoulder faded away.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
~End
