Indecision

I need you as a friend, dear one,

I thought I loved you, but now I see,

I love you only as a sister.

And as my body stands beside you, hand in hand,

My heart yearns for another.

You may think that you have my love,

And all of my heart,

Bit there is a secret corner,

This place deep within my heart,

Where you, dear one, cannot go.

It belongs to a pair of soft violet eyes,

Which have remained in my heart form the beginning.

Bit she needs no one,

Her strength I admire.

But is there really a heart within her skin?

Who could love another?

Behind those walls,

That I see every day,

Lie her heart,

And her powers,

The risk I have to take.

How I long to find out,

But she will never open up,

Not for me, not for anyone.

I smile at her from across the room,

All I get is a glare,

Within her eyes,

I see naught but walls,

Who then, will help her?

No one else, for they can only see the walls,

Will she allow me?

But what I fear little one,

Is your grief, your potential hate,

To me and to her,

If I start.

This indecision,

Tearing at me from the inside,

Is the demon in my soul.