It was still dark when L woke up, but the first thing that he noticed was that Light's weight had vanished from his torso. "Light?" He whispered, almost panicky at his disappearance.
"Did I wake you?" He heard from the blackness. It was almost humorous, how many times had L asked that question to Light? The positions seemed switched.
"No, now come here. Wasn't it you who said we needed sleep?" L felt Light climb back onto the large bed.
"Yes, I just…couldn't sleep."
"Did you have a bad dream?" L asked softly, reaching out for Light. It wasn't entirely uncommon for Light to wake up suddenly, plagued nightmares, usually about him being Kira. It was another reason that L felt sorry for what he said earlier. And also for why he felt the need to protect the eighteen year old.
Light found L's face first, and pressed their lips together. L pushed him down on the bed, and climbed on top of him. He knew that Light wasn't alright once his kisses became more frantic. Light wasn't one to change his mind.
L started to move his hands down between the boy's thighs, but Light shook his head under their frantic kissing. So Light didn't want sex? That sucked for L who was already getting hard, but whatever Light wanted…
"Always a tease…" L murmured under the kiss.
"I'm sorry," Light muttered back, pulling away from L, and climbing off of the bed.
"That doesn't mean leave," L said, wanting desperately for Light to return to him, if only to lie next to him. The only thing that answered him was silence.
All he could hear was the sound of rustling clothes as Light pulled on boxers that had been discarded earlier. "Can you throw me mine?" L asked him, waiting for some sort of response. His reply came in the form of boxers landing on his head from nowhere, and he quickly slipped them on.
"Light, please come back here. You are being childish." L wasn't in the mood anymore to be patient. The night only had a few hours left, and this wasn't how he wanted to be spending them.
"I'm sorry…" The voice sounded hoarse. L froze, was Light….crying?
"Light…darling, come here…" Had he offended him again?
He heard Light slowly come back to the bed, and into his arms. L held him tight, and kissed the tears running down his cheeks, and pulled him into the vast amount of pillows at the head of the bed.
"I know that you think that I'm Kira…but I don't want to be him again…" Light choked out.
"You won't be, Higuchi is Kira, remember?" L spoke softly, wanting more than anything for Light to feel safe from Kira. To see him smile before what they had to do later today…and he wanted Light to fall asleep so his pretty face wouldn't be ruined with bags like L's had been.
Pressed into the pillows, Light cried harder. "No! But after that? If I'm still alive, then that means that Kira…wants to use me again…" When had Light come to the same conclusion as he had? Probably months ago when L had first chained them together, and he was still using all his energy to prove Light to be Kira…
"Hush, I won't let him have you. You're mine, and I won't let him take you from me…" L ran his hands through Light's hair, continuing to kiss the corners of his eyes as more tears streamed from them.
"Kira wants to kill you, L. I can't live knowing that if I become him again, that I will want to hurt you…"
L shook his head. "Kira will have to kill me before he takes you."
"No!" Light cried, half screaming, "You can't die! You can't let Kira kill you! I don't want to kill you…" He buried his head in L's chest, and L let his tears run down his exposed skin.
"You won't kill me…" L said, pulling Light impossible tight against him.
He lied. If Kira was going to kill him, then it would definitely be through Light. Even if Misa was the Kira that could kill with only a face, it would be Light. Why wouldn't it be? What other ending could there be to this messed up story? These moments with Light, he never wanted them to end. L was ninety eight percent sure that once Higuchi was caught, that the power of Kira would come back to Light. Why wouldn't it? Light was in the perfect position for Kira, at the center of his heart.
"I love you, L."
L's thought process stopped for an instant; he had never heard Light directly say that he loved him…
"I love you too, Light."
Was it possible to feel this tired? L had never experienced this type of fatigue before. Usually his body gave out, and he had to rest it, but he felt mentally exhausted. He shifted Light to have his head once again resting on L's chest, and he wrapped his arms tightly around the boy, never wanting to let go. "Sleep now, lovely."
Light pulled himself up on L's body to reach his lips. He kissed him softly, and then returned to where L had placed him. "I'll try," he whispered. L could feel him smile.
Resting his hand on the top of Light's head, L tried to stay awake just long enough to ensure that Light feel asleep. His breath evened, and L paced his breathing along with it, eventually falling asleep with his love.
