Disclaimer, cause I forgot to put one on the first chapter – Katrina's mine, the rest belong to S.M.

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Would Someone Please Put A Bullet in My Head?

"Honestly, Collin, I really feel no need to meet any of your loser friends." She said sharply as she descended the staircase. I saw her face and I immediately felt the pull again.

That's when I knew that this was my destiny, and there was no way I could control it.

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"Hi." I smiled at her, I couldn't resist.

"Why are you all so abnormally huge around here? And why are you staring at me like an idiot?" Collin was right about one thing, she was a bitch.

I smirked. "Someone's a little grumpy, eh? I'm sorry; I should introduce myself before I stare. I'm Seth Clearwater." I stuck my hand out for her to shake, knowing somehow that it was a wasted effort.

"And I don't care." Katrina smirked back at me, and walked into the kitchen.

"You have no idea how bad I feel for you, dude. I would kill myself right now if I were you." Collin pat me on the back.

I knew exactly what he meant. I really wished this hadn't happened this way. Would someone please put a bullet in my head right now? I couldn't hate her, but I wished I could. I wanted to hate her with everything I had, but I wasn't capable. I looked at him, the expression on my face pathetic, I'm sure. He understood that I wanted to leave so badly, but I wanted to stay just as much.

"Kat, we're leaving. I'm bringing you to meet the pa- guys later, so try to make yourself a little less cold in the next few hours." Collin called to her in the kitchen.

"Nice save." I whispered.

"Screw off, Collin." She growled. "I'd say it was nice to meet you Seth, but I won't lie to you like that." As ridiculous as it seemed, her words actually stung a little.

"I couldn't agree with you more." I shot back as I walked out the door.

I was so torn. I wanted to go home and crawl into bed, and yet I wanted to walk back into Collin's house and proclaim my love to her. I felt like an idiot.

I folded my arms and sank into the passenger seat as Collin drove back to the Cullen's. I was thinking about Katrina, because there was just no mercy. God, she was so damn beautiful, and I couldn't help but think that she'd eventually be mine and I'd be able to hold her and comfort her, and maybe she would soften up a little, but I highly doubted it.

"You didn't want to go home, right?" Collin asked, "I'd understand if you did but I figured…"

"No, I'll just sulk if I'm there alone. I want to talk to Jake anyway." I sighed.

Collin nodded and kept driving. By the time he reached the beginning of the long, winding driveway, I was thinking of what I wanted to ask Jake. I wanted to know if it ever stopped hurting when you were away from your imprint, and if there was any way to avoid it, if there were some possible way for me to fall out of love with her. I would do just about anything for that.

When we arrived, Jake and Nessie were sitting on the porch with Edward and Jasper, who sensed my feelings immediately and tried to cheer me up.

"Don't Jazz, I'm fine." I protested. 'Even though I hate the girl I love', I thought afterwards.

"We're here for you, Seth." Edward responded to my thoughts.

I nodded. 'Thanks Edward. Do you mind if I talk to Jake alone?'

"Nessie, Jazz, Collin, let's go inside and see if we can find a movie to watch." Edward made the lame excuse, then laughed at my insult.

They all got the hint and followed him inside. I sat on the bench next to Jake.

"What's up kid?" He asked, "You look so down. I don't think I've ever seen you so angsty."

I sighed. "I don't know, Jake. I want to hate her so bad, but at the same time I just want to hold her and tell her I love her. She's so horrible though. You know I never agree with Collin, but she's so coldhearted it's insane. I thought she was going to punch me in the face."

"I would have killed to see that." Jake laughed, "But seriously, kid, I can't say I know how you feel because Nessie has never been like that. She's always wanted me around. I do know this though – everything happens for a reason."

I rolled my eyes at him. He knew I didn't believe that crap. "I just wish I could love someone else."

"I know, Seth. Life sucks sometimes, ya know?"

"Jake, what was it like for you when you saw Nessie?" I probably could have guessed the answer, but I wanted to know anyway.

He laughed, "It was unreal. Everything stopped, and it was like everything that had ever happened in my life to make me miserable just disappeared. Everything fell into place, and I knew that wherever she was was where I belonged. I knew she was my forever."

I sighed, "Why isn't it like that for me? I don't know if she'll be my forever. It hurts so bad right now to be away from her."

"I think we should go find out if she'll be your forever. Let's go ask Alice if she can see her future. If she can't, you'll know she's yours."

"And if she can?" I asked, but he knew I didn't need the answer.

"C'mon." He waved for me to follow him as he got up and walked into the house.

"Shorty? You here?" Jake called for her as he casually walked through the door. Rosalie wrinkled her nose in disgust, and walked into the other room, but we both ignored her for once.

"Right here. What can I do for you?" Alice appeared out of almost thin air, making me jump. Everyone laughed at my reaction.

"I want to know if you can see Katrina's future. I'm trying to figure out whether or not she'll be mine eventually." I explained to Alice.

"Seth," She said consolingly, "You know I can't see things unless the person is decided on it."

"Please, Alice." I begged, "Just try, for me?" I gave her my best puppy dog face.

"Fine, fine." She sighed. Her eyes went blank as she searched for Katrina's future, and I waited impatiently, rocking back and forth on my heels. Finally, she spoke. "I can't see anything, but only because I haven't met her yet. Sorry, Seth. Everything's fuzzy."

I sighed in defeat, "S'okay, not your fault."

She wrapped me in a hug, her head only coming up to underneath my ribs. "We'll help you figure this out, though. You're part of this family now."

I nodded, and I knew she was telling the truth. Ever since the separation of the packs 8 years ago, Jake and I had become a part of the Cullen's every day life. We were always here, even though Jake had more reason than I did with Nessie being his imprint and all. It went against my nature, but I loved being around them.

I plopped down on the couch next to Esme, who put her arm around my shoulders consolingly. I sat for a few moments staring at the ceiling, and then tried to suppress a yawn.

Esme laughed at my failed attempt. "Why don't you get some sleep, Seth? I think we can all understand how mentally exhausted you must be right now."

I shrugged, and about a minute later fell into sleep.

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Katrina's POV

I had been sitting in my room for the past two hours wondering why I was so drawn to Seth. He wasn't my type at all. I went for boys who had money, fashion sense, and were easily played. Seth obviously didn't have money, or fashion sense, but he might be easy to screw over.

I knew I shouldn't have acted the way I did towards him, but that's just how I am. I don't want to be known as a sweet girl, because I'm afraid I'll get my heartbroken. It happened once before, and I'll never let it happen again. That's why I have this tough exterior – it makes it easier not to get attached.

That's why I was so against falling for him. Sure, he looked sweet and caring, but that meant that there might be some kind of attachment, and that was something I couldn't deal with. To make a long story short, I was afraid of commitment. It's not like I didn't have reason to be, it just wasn't something I chose to share with the world.

I should have a choice in the matter, and my choice is to be as cruel to him as I can manage. Maybe he'll get the point and stay away, and then I can get over it.

I groaned and got up off my bed. Collin would be here sometime soon with all of his friends, and I really needed a hot shower. 'Can't have Seth thinking I have bad hygiene.' I thought, and I chided myself immediately for thinking so.

I couldn't fall for him. It wasn't smart, and I had to keep myself from getting comfortable. This was a challenge I had to be up for, and I told myself it was for his own good.