This fic is pretty short. The updates will be coming at a quick pace so jump in any time with your comments.
Chapter Two
Carly had just said, "Marry me." The elevator went deathly silent for a few moments after that and carly realized she could take the words back, laugh, and say "Just kidding, Jase."
But she wouldn't. Carly never joked about loving him.
"Why would you say that, " Jason asked, scooting closer to her in the dark. "tonight of all nights?"
"Because marrying Jax might work, might make me happy and it might last. And if you are honest you will admit that marrying Sam is less than a sure thing for you too. But me and you, Jase, me and you ... if we got married it would work, it would make us happy, it would last. It makes sense."
"Are you drunk?"
"Drunk or sober the facts don't change. But I am not in the mood to beg. So if you tell me to shut up then I will. You can watch me marry Jax. Then I can try to get through my honeymoon not thinking about the fact you are on the other side of the country marrying Sam. And we can pretend this conversation never happened."
"Just don't marry Jax! If you are talking like this, Carly, you are looking for a way out. So call off the wedding."
"Jax loves me. And we do have good times. There is no other man I would want to marry tomorrow...except you, of course."
She waited, sitting next to him in the dark, for him to say something that would change their lives. She longed to move her hand and reach for him. Feel him and know if any of what she said was affecting him.
Jason let out a breath.
Frustrated Carly told him, "But being your wife has never been an option you've offered me. So I guess in the morning I will become Carly Jacks. It has a nice ring to it, huh?"
Each word was said slow, his voice harsh, "He isn't right for you."
"You can't have it both ways! You don't want me but no one else can have me either. Yet you get to be with Robin, Liz, Courtney, Sam. While I should do- what? Because me and Sonny were a nightmare from the get go and you never thought I should be with Lorenzo or Jax. I may love you, Jason, but I will not spend my life alone as punishment for breaking your heart."
At the mention of the unspeakable event his whole body stiffened.
He stood up and pounded on the door. "Hey! Get us out of here."
Softly she said, "If I could take back sleeping with Sonny I would."
"Stop it, Carly."
"Just sit here and be quiet, a good girl, is that what you want? Because you know that's not me."
He banged on the door.
"Sit down, Jase. I'm done. I shouldn't have said anything but, hey, I had to take a shot."
He sat next to her. After a moment he put an arm around her and she leaned her head on his shoulder.
"Don't cry." he whispered
She sniffled. "Don't tell me what to do."
"Oh, Carly." The words were a said in a sad breath. Her pain hurt him as much as her, it always had. "You know I'll do whatever I can to save you. But what you are asking... Sam would be brokenhearted."
"And we can't let that happen." Carly said bitterly
"I'll tell Jax you're backing out. You don't have to face him."
"I am not backing out. I'm marrying him."
"Don't."
"You don't get to tell me that."
A moment passed, Carly thought it was decided. She started to ready her heart for saying I do to another man, probably the wrong man again.
"Marry me." Jason said
