I pulled my knees closer to my chest, my heart aching. I felt weak, weak for crying like I had been all night. I whipped angrily at my face as there was a knock at my bedroom door. I stayed silent thinking maybe whoever it was on the other side might get the hint and leave me alone. They didn't.
"Rinly?" I rolled over in bed as my mom poked her head in. "Rinly, you have to get up and go to school. You can't do this all week, you need to go." Ignoring my mom's words, I pulled the blanket up over my head. "Rinly Mea, get up." The covers were pulled from me.
"MOM!" I yelled, louder than intended. She stopped, stunned at the harshness of my tone. I glanced around the room, avoiding her gaze. Silently, she let go of my comforter, taking a seat on the edge of my bed.
"What happened, Rinly?" She sighed heavily.
"Nothing." I fixed the covers so they covered me better.
"You came home Saturday morning in tears and you haven't left your room since. I am your mother and I pay more attention than you think." She placed her hand on my knee. "What happened?" She pleaded for an answer. I looked up at her then, my eyes overflowing with tears. They burned as they scraped down my cheeks. "Oh, honey." I leaned into her chest letting the tears fall.
"I really liked him." I mumbled through sobs resulting in a laugh from my mom.
"All these tears for a boy? No, no, no." She pulled away, whipping my cheek. "You're supposed to make him cry not the other way around." She kissed my forehead. "You're 16, Rinly, you have plenty of time to steal a boys heart and stomp on it." I let out a soft laugh. "But you won't be able to do that if you don't get your ass to school." I nodded as my mom stood from where she sat on my bed. She stopped in my doorway, turning back to me. "Who broke your heart, Rinly?" I looked down at my hands, shaking my head slowly. She didn't ask again, she just closed the door as she left leaving me alone to think about who had broken my heart.
I pulled myself from bed, letting my dark brown hair fall down around my shoulders as I stood. I stared at the mirror hanging on the back of my bedroom door and for a moment I almost didn't recognize the girl looking back at me. Her bright green eyes, red and puffy, her lips a dull pink. But she had to be me. She looked as terrible as I felt, which could only mean that we were one in the same person. I silently cursed myself for letting my state of mind crumble the way it did. He always had that effect on me, I always went weak in the knees when he was around. But he won't be around anymore, I thought to myself as I pulled off my shirt replacing it with a black hoodie. No, he wouldn't be around because he had left. Not only had he broken up with her, but he had also left the state. He had said that it would be "too hard for him." Rinly scoffed at that. What about her? This wasn't easy for her, especially when no one had even known about them.
"You can get through this." I stood straight up, staring at the girl in the mirror. I watched as her face turned pale. "Oh, no." My hand went to my mouth as I barely made it to the toilet. "I can't get sick again!" I groaned, hunched over the toilet, releasing what felt like every piece of food that I had ever eaten into the toilet.
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The halls echoed with the laughter of students as they made their way to the cafeteria. I slammed my locked shut, as a kid ran into me. I turned to begin my yelling fest but was only able to see the kid take off down the hall. I flipped him the bird, but was positive that he didn't see it. Fixing my backpack, I joined the crowd, following the herd of people. I broke free the group as I got closer to the front doors.
"There you are!" Vivian separated herself from her boyfriend, Ethan. "We wanted to head to Carl's Jr." I took a deep breath trying to control the sick feeling that filled my stomach. "Are you okay? You look like you've been crying."
"I'm fine, it was a long weekend. I'm gonna pass on Carl's Jr, I haven't felt good all day. I'm headed home." I pointed in the direction of my car.
"What? You can't go home!" Vivian followed me to my car, Ethan's car being parked next to mine. "Wait do you even have any more classes today?" I laughed shaking my head. "Lucky! How did you get so smart? You could graduate early, you know that, right?"
"I know, but then what would I do with my time? It's not like I can go out and get a full time job at the ripe age of 16. I unlocked my car, throwing my bag in the passenger seat. "I have thought about graduating early, but my mom would so not be okay with that."
"What so she would rather you get out of school at noon every day cause you don't have any afternoon classes?" Vivian crossed her arms over her chest leaning against my car. Ethan laughed from where he stood next to her.
"You could emancipate yourself, Rinly. Graduate, get a job and an apartment all at the age of 16." He wrapped his arm over Vivian's shoulders. "Then we could all go to your place and party."
"I don't party, Ethan." I smiled, it felt fake but I was sure that the two of them couldn't tell the difference.
"Whatever, go. Have a good afternoon!" Vivian pretended to cry into Ethan's chest, I flipped her the bird as I stepped into my own vehicle.
"Love you guys!" I yelled out my window, speeding out of the parking lot. At home, the house stood tall and quiet. With my mom at work, I decided to curl up on the couch. I pulled out my phone setting it on the table beside the couch. I glanced at it out of the corner of my eye, almost pleading for the notification light to go off. Hoping that he would text me, or call, silently praying that this break was as hard for him as it was for me
I knew it wasn't. It was his decision to end it, so i knew there was no way that he felt the way I did. My chest got heavy as my eyes filled with tears. Why was it so hard? Why couldn't she just wake up and be over him? Like they had never been together? There had to be a way to make it easier. I stood, throwing the blanket back over the couch.
"Nothing is ever easy." My head began to throb, my heart racing in my chest. How can it beat so fast when it's broken, I thought as I walked up the stairs to my room. Sighing heavily, I threw myself on top of my messy sheets. Curling into myself I let the tears fall. I greeted the emotions like an old friend who never actually left.
