Bittersweet Nothings
~ Chapter Two~
Don't Say Goodbye :
The First Time, Unanswered
By Inuyashas Youkai
I would like to dedicate this chapter to the owner of my first review, thank you for your very much appreciated encouragement , so for that , I give this to you , and with hopes that you enjoy this second installment as much as the first , InuEared Miko of Darkness ...
Screams had encased the surrounding forest with the shrilling brute force , brought by the rush of the peturbed emotions from the two , and now fighting amongst each other. It wasn't out of the norm to see the two argue , but this time was at the worst that anyone had seen them , as the words that wouldn't has ever crossed their minds normally , were for the first time said to the other . It was only because out of hurt, they felt , each one wanted to let the other know how they felt, and by placing that same feeling on the other in their own way, without letting the other know that they , themselves were hurting.
Villagers were smart to stand clear of the burst of turmoil that had sent the two flying towards each other with mean words ,and cruel accusations, but the birds, or the wildlife , not so lucky, as they then scurried in fear with the never ending violence that the pair now demonstrated for the other. The one's outside the two , consisting of their pack looked on , as they continued in their seemingly righteous loud banter , and shook their heads, knowing what had started it all.
Before long , Kagome then yelled off her last retort towards his insistent cruelty , although that one statement had made his following response fall silent , as now he found that this time the hanyou had taken it too far, pushing too hard , and now just by the words she had now spoke ..
Kagome was leaving , she was saying goodbye..
A painful emotion crept up within his chest then fully, as it had been slowly over the course of their extreme argument , and now it was hitting him now full force . One single gasp , claiming the letters of name in a combined soundless whine falling from his lips , as he tried to speak , if only to get her to stop , and listen to him, and before she 'd do something irreversible. Shortly following a few labored breaths , Inuyasha was able to find a small portion of his already strained voice , and then croaked the words...
"Kagome , I am sorry .. Please don't go ..."
IT was only after he said those words that he only now realized that when Inuyasha rose his eyes to meet what he had hoped was hers looking back at him , just the lonely spot where she once stood stared sadly back to him, as though everything around them had became drenched with sorrow to , because...
Kagome was already gone ..
Sitting up within his favorite tree , trying to calm the uncomfortable emotions weighing upon him at the moment after Kagome disappeared within the whirling trails of blue. Saddened, knowing that it happened yet again, she had left him once more after the big explosion from the two had finally died out. Inuyasha lingered his gaze upon the well that had persistently allowed her to leave him, to go away , without the chance of explaining himself.
Although maybe it would be a good thing that Kagome first cooled off before they ventured on such dangerous topics, and so with that the hanyou went to gather his pack knowing that the miko wouldn't be coming back anytime soon, then planned to head out searching for clues of demons roaming about.
Maybe , by doing this , the hanyou could blow off some of the steam himself, so that he would be calm when she returned , and hopefully when destroying whatever greedy demons came about they may come across a jewel shard. Once everyone was standing , packed , and ready to go , Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Kirara , as well as himself set out for possibility of tearing apart of some pathetic demons.
Almost , about over a week later, Inuyasha had been quite surprised , and worried , finding when they had came back, that the miko, Kagome had not yet returned, as Kaede bluntly confessed. This time , unlike any of the other times , Inuyasha outwardly told that he was going to her time, and make amends with her, anything he could do to bring her back , because the mission taken on by their pack , as well as their pack themselves needed her to see this through ..
He needed her..
Leaping wildly towards the well , as the words he had last spoken , pained him , as they continued to tear him apart, and while his screams saying them repetitively inside his head , like he had so foolishly claimed to her , made it excruciatingly painful , all the more.
" Dammit Bitch , I can't wait till the day that your outta my life for good , so that I can live it without coming back , and having to deal with your pathetic weak ass bringing me down just by looking at you !"
It was humbling , as it was with overwhelming sorrow that those words were the one's she left , hearing from him , and it showed with the pain shown in her eyes for a second before a blank appearance took shape within those same loving chocolate orbs , now only remnants of what it once was remained.
Then , suddenly with a sneer doused with unbridled hatred flew in the form of words colorfully illustrated from her quivering lips , not necessarily towards him , but towards that of herself , and it was with that , blaming everything that was happening upon her , for the hurt she felt . For the absolute despise that the hanyou supposed , she had gained from his previous statement towards her ,and in his now exposed truth of the way he apparently felt from those words , at least in her eyes.
" Goodbye , Inuyasha ! I won't be the cause for your hatred anymore , live your life knowing you will no longer have me to burden yourself with-" Kagome began but once just those words were openly said,and ignoring whatever followed from her lips, the hanyou began fighting with himself to stop her from leaving them..
From leaving him...
But the words she said , brought on by the fact she felt as thought he hated her , and that realization had temporarily stunned him..
"Kagome , I am sorry .. Please don't go ..." were the last words spoken , words meant for her but she had already left , not hearing them..
" I am sorry , Kagome .. I didn't mean it , please just .. Don't go.."the hanyou chanted to himself like a mantra in hopes that his words would be answered..
Inuyasha , now squatted on the lips of the well , just long enough for a cleansing breath , knowing that he needed it , if he was going to throw everything he had ever known away , and finally let her in , to see him , the real him inside..Although , unfortunately for him , Kagome had already made it so that he couldn't , and knowing that ,as soon as his weight crashed down at the bottom of his side of the well ..
The well was sealed , and now the only thing that she will remember with thoughts of him surfacing was the cruel, untrue things that he said..
In a last effort after about the millionth time trying to get to her on the other side , Inuyasha , did the unthinkable , and did just what he had felt like , not caring who was around to hear , because nothing mattered anymore .. Kagome was gone, and so the hanyou for the second time in his life , Inuyasha cried..
" I am so sorry Kagome ..So very fucking sorry ...!"
TBC...
