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Here goes chapter two, hope you guys like just as much...
I had barely closed my eyes when I heard the high pitched squeals of Nina running down the staircase. I rolled over and looked at the clock. 6:12 Am. I had been awake all night. Are you serious? Not only was today going to be one of the hardest days of my life, but I would have to put up with it sleep deprived.
Nina squeaked my door open slowly as if not to wake me, but she didn't realise her squeals had already done that. The floor boards creaked as she tiptoed over to besides my bed. She noticed that I was awake and said, "Mommy, it's only 6 in the morning why are you awake?"
"I don't know babe, why are you awake?" I laughed. She was wearing her bunny rabbit slippers and a dressing gown I bought five sizes to big so she could grow into it.
"Because it's my birthday silly!"
"I know baby girl, happy birthday!" I suddenly had a huge burst of energy and jumped out of bed and brought Nina into a huge embrace. "I love you Nina alright?"
"You to mommy," and she kissed my check.
Nina was honestly the best thing that ever happened to me. I felt a feeling of warmth and compassion daily, something I'd never had before. I loved her voice, and her hair, her eyes and her complete and utter passion for music. I loved everything about her, and nothing would change that.
In a way, she looked like a mini, girly version of Shane. Certain parts of me tried to ignore it, but it made Nina, Nina and I was thankful for that. I may have lost the love of my life, but Nina would always tell me she loved me, and that was all that mattered.
"Are we going to see Aunty C today?" Nina asked in a very hopeful voice and I was suddenly grateful that I had allowed Caitlyn to buy her own ticket.
"Of course babe, she's coming to see Connect 3 with us tonight!" A huge smile lit across her face and her cheeks flushed a deep red as she asked me her next question...
"What about daddy mom? When am I going to meet daddy? I didn't want to ask but -"
I was shocked. We'd only spoken about her father once before, when she was six. I knew she would have questions, but right now, this very second. I just wasn't prepared. So I cut her question short, without trying to be rude.
"Ninz, I love you. I love you more than you could possibly ever imagine. But daddy... daddy and I don't speak anymore. One day, you'll know more, but babe, today just isn't that day. I'm sorry. I want you to know though, that your dad is an extremely honourable, and loving man, and he loves you dearly."
The last sentence was a struggle to say. I didn't want to disappoint my baby girl, and I couldn't bear to tell her the truth, so I had no choice than to lie.
"Oh. Okay. Sorry mommy."
"Don't be sorry sweets. It's your birthday! It's all about you! Now, presents or breakfast first?" I asked in a chipper voice, trying to lighten the mood. I couldn't bear to see Nina upset.
She took the bait, and was suddenly, once again happy, "PRESENTS! PRESENTS! PRESENTS!"
"Then off we go!" I brought Nina onto my shoulders and ran down the hall into the lounge room.
Our lounge wasn't big, it was quite small. We had two sofas which both seated two, and were in bright floral colours. The whole apartment was lit in bold and bright colours. I tried to make the atmosphere Nina would grow up in as fun and colourful as possible. I think she appreciated it. Her friends all wished they could live here, but I knew they would benefit with their parents more, because although Nina and I had a fun, lovely home, I wasn't earning much money at my current job. Being a single mom took more effort than I would have ever thought. Caitlyn had helped out with payments and loans a lot while she lived here, but because she had moved out with Michael it was harder for Nina and me now.
"Aunty C!" Nina screamed as she spotted Caitlyn sitting next to Michael on our sofa. "What are you doing here?"
"Happy birthday Ninz!" Caitlyn ran and hugged Nina as she jumped off my shoulders. "Well I had to give you our present of course!"
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After Nina had opened her presents from Caitlyn, Michael and I and was in the lounge room playing with Michael, I brought Caitlyn into our kitchen to get some coffee.
"What are you doing here so early Cait?" I sounded more abrupt than I meant to. "Oh I'm sorry. I didn't mean to sound rude! I just mean, it's only 7:30. Why?"
"Because this is the first birthday of Nina's that I haven't been living here for, and I love how excited she gets in the morning. Besides, you've got a lot going on today. You need moral support from the first moment."
She knew me too well. She knew I was scared more than imaginable about the concert tonight. "Thanks Cait, I really do appreciate it."
With that, Caitlyn and I walked back into the lounge room to embrace more of Nina's happiness.
Okay, that is the end of that chapter. It was harder to write than you would think. I hope to get some great reviews again, and if I completely stuffed the chapter up please tell me. I will improve for you guys!
Oh, I've decided to steal Demi Lovato's catch phrase 'stay strong' because it helped me so much, so anyways, love you guys.
Stay strong, - Amy .xo
