I felt inclined to continue this story as it happens now that I have no big projects in the works so as always I do not own Yugi-oh GX or any characters in this story at all.
That afternoon Jesse stayed in his dorm room while Syrus had left to see his still loyal friends. He turned him down on the offer to go with him. After the events of that morning he was in no shape to spend any time with the young cyan haired boy. He lay on the bed where he had slept and he sighed deeply. He wondered if Jaden in his own twisted way was right. Could he be in love with Syrus? He shook his head the thought simply unreasonable in his mind. "I can't love him it isn't possible at all…we're just friends…friends…"
His thought trailed to the sight he had seen that morning, Syrus' bared body of a child and he blushed as he thought of how beautiful he looked. He shook his head again. Growling at his wandering mind he couldn't think such things of Syrus. But even so he couldn't help how cute he was…he thoughtfully reached for the bear that Syrus loved so and looked at it. "What do you think? Am I crazy for liking him like that?"
The bear was silent and he sighed, he had to admit it made sense but even so he wasn't Jaden… so he wouldn't try to be. He sat up and left the room in search of something to occupy his thoughts and his mind came to a decision as he went to the beach to look at the sea, it always seemed to calm him after all. Arriving there he sat on the dunes and watched the sea's waves lightly spray at his feet and he smiled he felt better more at peace till another noise broke said peace.
Jessie looked to his left to find someone face planted in the sand and he jumped up and raced over to help "Are you alright?" He said in a rush helping the person up. He gasped as he recognized the face as Atticus Rhodes, Alexis' elder brother and pop star wanna be. "Yeah, just another wipe out as usual, thanks Jess."
Jesse smiled in relief happy that he was alright. "You looked distressed is everything okay, the band doing alright?" Jesse blanked till he remembered that everything was a music reference with him. "I suppose…well to be honest…no…"
"Come on spill it Jesse you look like something is deep on your mind." Jesse blushed and said "Well…I think I like someone…but…he likes someone else…and I just don't think that I am supposed to feel this way about him…"
Atticus smirked and said "I see you wanna sing your rhapsody love song to him but your afraid you'll hit all the wrong notes?"
Jesse took a second to figure out what he had said and nodded in agreement. "Well there is only one thing to do, sing my friend! Sing to him, make him see your love is true and make him understand how you long for him to delve into the depths of your desire…" He paused in dramatic tension and Jesse looked a little thrown but said sheepishly "Y-y-yeah but I don't want to over do it he isn't exactly full in his heart, he's a bit broken hearted at the moment."
"All the more reason to sing to him, mend his wounds and learn to sing in harmony together for life, for love, for song!" Atticus flourished his arms to emphasize his point to which Jesse laughed gently at. "I suppose so…I guess I could try…"
"That's the spirit now go, go to him and sing with your heart and soul!" Atticus said flourishing his arms again. Jesse stood and said "I will…" But as he walked away he thought 'geez…that did me no good…now I am even more confused as what to do…'
Meanwhile in the dorm room Syrus had just retuned and was in the bathroom taking a shower to rid himself of the salt that the sea had given him. 'I so should kill Hasselberry for making me fall into the ocean like that, and he know I cant swim…I'll make him pay for this.' He massaged the sweet smelling shampoo into his hair unaware that Jesse was on the way back. As he emerged he pulled on his pale blue night shirt and struggled into them and a pair of matching shorts and left the bathroom rubbing his dampened hair with a towel. He crawled onto the bed and sat cross-legged on the bed as he started to brush out his hair and waited for his roommate to return. That was till said roommate burst in and paused to see Syrus in mid brush watch his gaze. He smiled and said "Hey there little buddy, sorry I got in late ran into Atti, and he was at the beach you know."
Syrus smiled in turn and said "Yeah I saw him earlier with the others. I had a lot of fun except for the par about Hasselberry 'accidently' pushed me into the ocean." Jesse smiled and joined him after pulling off his shoes. "He still pulling the whole I don't like you routine?"
Syrus nodded and he sighed, his hand putting down the brush and he said "He is so mean but I know he doesn't mean it he and the others really like me…except him…" Syrus trailed off looking down his eyes filling with familiar tears. Jesse saw him and said "Don't cry for him, it's more than he deserves."
But this didn't stop him from crying but Jesse reacted this time, he pulled him into his arms and said "Don't cry…I hate to see you cry, it hurts me…to see you in pain…" Syrus' eyes widened in understanding as they glowed he clutched Jesse's sleeve and he cried in his arms. That was till Jesse spoke again "You are so warm Syrus-chan…" This made Syrus pull away and Jesse lovingly caressed his cheek in his hand and said "Such a sweet face…tears do not suit you well at all."
He leaned in to which Syrus froze but did not flinch away his eyes started to fall closed till Jesse broke off scrambling off the bed and stammering "I-I-I-I'm so s-s-sorry…" He ran into the bathroom and he went to take a bath to cleanse himself, he felt so messed up and he hoped it could clear his mind. But Syrus felt his heart still pounding in his chest and his breathing was uneven. Had Jesse just…tried to kiss him? He shook his head but the touch of Jessie's hand over his cheek was to much to take against everything that was going on. He crawled under the covers and tried to sleep, he was disappointed when he fell into a vague state of unconsciousness. Jesse soon came out dressed in sapphire blue night shirt and shorts and he retreated to the desk he had and switched on the light hoping not to disturb the sleeping boy in the bed nearby. Removing a key from his pocket he opened the center drawer and removed a journal, his only safe place in the world. He need to speak his mind and this was the place to do so. He opened it and on a blank page began to write…
Dear Journal,
Today in one word was horrible, after seeing my friend Syrus nearly exposed I just haven't been in my right mind. I feel confused and messed up by this all and wonder if I am beginning to fall in love. I know I can't do that but I don't think my heart listens…I almost kissed him tonight…he didn't say anything about it but I can feel the tension, I get the feeling he will be avoiding me tomorrow. I hate this all I don't want Jaden to be right I can't love him I just want to help Syrus and nothing more or less…
But then why do I stray from that and begin to love him as I do? I am not Jaden and I can't try to change him…not after he has become so much better as each day passes I can't ever try to jeopardize that just because f my inner desire…but even so he is the sweetest angle ever to walk the earth…how can I ignore him…I just hope that an answer presents itself in due time…
-Jesse Anderson
Closing the journal he put it away locking it up again and turning out the light and going to the couch and laying down to try and get some sleep but like Syrus he drifted into a restless void struggling with his emotions.
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