After a long night of riding back on horseback, the new Survey Corps recruits arrive at the Survey Corps base. It was breakfast right when they arrived, so they got their food and sat down in the large Mess hall.

Clarissa sat down at the end of a table. She hoped she could be alone for breakfast, but she never got what she wanted so of course people came to sit with her. Armin, Mikasa, and Eren joined her at the table.

Clarissa taped her fork on the side of the plate. Her head rested in her palm, her hair was resting over her face. This was often a way of telling people to leave her alone, but today it didn't seem to be working. Maybe it was because they were too busy talking about how amazing it is to finally be a Scout.

Maybe Clarissa would be that excited if there was an actual reason on why she joined. In some ways not having a reason was a reason in itself. But it wasn't an actual reason to go and join the most deadly of the Military branches. Maybe it was because her friends were joining it. Could she even call them friends? They knew nothing about her. Nothing.

They could just be keeping her around for the sole purpose that she was good at killing titans. But Mikasa had that job, she was pretty protective over Eren. Maybe they kept her around because Armin needed someone to watch him.

"Clarissa," Armin said. Clarissa straightened up and she noticed that almost everyone at the table was watching her. She looked to the end of the table and beside her was a soldier. He was holding out a folder.

"For me?" Clarissa asked. He nodded and held out the paper further.

"It is from Commander Erwin." he said. This was enough for Clarissa to pull it out of his hand and flip it open. Her eyes darted over the paper as she read it. Before she got to the middle of the paper the soldier had already walked away.

The paper was pretty much a formal invitation to meet the Commander in his office after breakfast. It was also less of an invitation and more of a command. It would have been less embarrassing to have been asked in person. But Clarissa never got embarrassed so it just would have been more convenient.

"What is it?" Eren asked. Once Clarissa finished reading it she looked up at him and shrugged. She held it out to him and he took it.

"Read it out loud," she said. Eren nodded and began to read it out, but only so that the four of them could hear..

"Dear Clarissa Everdeen, I am asking you to meet me in my office after breakfast. If you do not show up I will have to send some soldiers after you. They will have full authority to get you to me in any way they deem fit. I suspect you know what this is about. This is just a warning for you to prepare for what is to come." Eren read out. Once he had finished he let it go. Just before the file hit his bowl of cereal Clarissa reached across the table and grabbed it mid-fall.

"Do you know what he wants to talk about?" Armin asked. She shrugged and dusted off the folder. "Are you some kind of criminal?" She shook her head and laughed. Like actually laughed.

The reaction from her laughing was a mix or fear, confusion, and joy. It didn't look like they knew what their emotions were either. After her laughing fit was over, she had on a wide grin. A small smile would be enough to startle her friends, so this was immobilizing them. She never laughed, smiled, or really showed any emotion. Eren was about to speak but his mouth shut after Mikasa glared at him before he could say anything.

"I could be a serial killer for all I know. But, don't worry, I have no intention of murdering anyone." Clarissa said. As she said it her smile faded. They said nothing until the end of breakfast. In the middle she got out of her seat and the soldier that brought her the papers stood up at the same time. His eyes burning on hers.

To say the least the letter was not lying. So she sat back down.

"You're not a murder, right?" Eren asked as they stood from their seats. Clarissa looked at him. They stood there staring at each other for what felt life an hour, it was probably just a minute.

"I don't think so. I don't have any memory of murdering. But I have severe memory loss, so don't quote me on it." Clarissa said before she walked away into the hallway. Once she was in the hallway she noticed that someone was following her. Probably to make sure she didn't run off. When she got to the Commander's office he was already in the office waiting for her. Outside of it was Captain Levi leaning up against the wall with is arms crossed. Clarissa stopped in front of him and she mimicked his stance by crossing her arms. At this he straightened out and dropped his arms to his side.

"Are you insulting me?" he asked. She dropped her arms to her side and then saluted.

"No, sir." she said. He nodded and stepped aside from the door to the office and he gestured to it with his head.

"He is waiting, go." he said, leaving no room to refuse. She nodded and without hesitation walked through the door. Commander Erwin looked up from his desk, or whatever paperwork he was doing, and smiled as she entered.

She closed the door then saluted to him. "At ease." Clarissa dropped her arms, but still kept the posture and stance.

"You asked for me sir?" She asked, he nodded and gestured toward the seat. Taking the hin, Clarissa walked up to the seat and sat.

"Yes, do you know why I asked you to meet with me?" he asked, she shook her head.

"No sir, I do not." she said. Commander Erwin nodded and straightened up in his chair. His eyebrows knitted together for a fraction of a second.

"On your history it states that you were born somewhere in wall Sina and adopted by a family in Shiganshina. Is this correct?"

"Yes sir, it is." she said, nodding her head. He sighed and checked something off on the paper. Clarissa squinted her eyes to try and see what it was, but she couldn't see anything.

"Is it true that you have no recollection of your time before the fall of wall Maria?"

"No, I don't,"

"Then how can we be sure that you aren't lying about your history?" She paused, with her mouth open slightly, thinking through everything.

"You can't, sir. Where are you going with this?" she asked, finally gathering herself.

Commander Erwin sighed for before he spoke. "I am saying, that neither wall Sina nor wall Maria have information on your adoption. So I have a feeling that you are lying about your past."

"I understand your concern." she muttered. After a long awkward silence Commander Erwin cleared his throat drawing attention to himself.

"In order to clear you of speculation you have to spend some time with Commander Hange." he said. She was taking time to choose the question she was going to ask. There were so many questions she wanted to ask.

"How long will I be spending with her?"

"As long as it takes to clear you of speculation." She shot to her feet.

"What am I being accused of?" she said, her voice raised in nearly a yell. The door swung open and Captain Levi charged in holding both of her arms behind her back. She struggled at first but gave up after she knew she wasn't going to be let go of.

"That information will not be released to you. In case what we are assuming is correct." Commander Erwin says evenly.

Clarissa closed her eyes and took a deep breathe. "Can you please let go of me sir? I will sit down and not move from the seat." Commander Erwin looked past her at Captain Levi, then he nodded and Captain Levi let go of her. He didn't completely let go of her hand until she was sitting down.

"Now please, what am I being accused of?" she asked, trying her hardest to keep her voice steady.

"Like I said, I cannot tell you." he said. Clarissa nodded taking a deep breath to try and suppress her anger.

"As soon as I am cleared will I be made aware of what I was accused of?" she said, choosing to speak as formally as she could.

He took a moment to respond. "Possibly, but we are still unsure if you will be cleared."

"Could you please just," Her voice rose. She took a deep breath to take time to steady her voice. "When am I going with Commander Hange?"

"She will be here in the morning. Until then you will be watched over by Captain Levi." "May I stand up now sir?" she asked, he nodded. Clarissa stood up and saluted to him then she walked out of the room, Captain Levi following behind her.

"Sir?" she asked, and shortened her stride to fall in step with Captain Levi. He looked over to her and waited for her to speak "Is there anything on schedule today? All of the new recruits were supposed to get it after breakfast."

"No, and there is no need for you to learn the schedule. You will be long gone by the time anything happens." Clarissa gritted her teeth and put her face in her heads. What did he mean "you will be long gone by the time anything happens"? It could of meant anything. It could simply of meant that she was leaving the next day. Or it could of meant that he believed that she was guilty for whatever she was being accused of and would be locked away by the end of the week.

Clarissa continued down the hallway, but before she was able to decide where she was going she ran into with Mikasa. She saluted to Captain Levi before she spoke. "Eren and Armin are looking for you."

"Why?"she asked. Mikasa started walking away and she quickly fell in step with her, Captain Levi followed them like a shadow.

"They want to know what happened with Commander Erwin."

"Do you know where they are?"

"When you find them let them know I am in my room." she said. Mikasa nodded, then Clarissa turned the corner and walked down the hallway that led to her room and went to her room.

As soon as she got into her room she sat down on her bed and pulled out a small box from the trunk full of her belongings. The box was a dark wood only large enough to hold jewelry. her fingers ran across the box landing on the latch, then she flipped open the box to show a rose necklace sitting carefully on a piece of fabric. She couldn't help but smile slightly.

This is one of the only things that could connect her with her past. She remembered that when she was in the refugee camp she ripped a piece of fabric off of her clothes to use in the box.

There was a delicate rose pendant at the end of a thin silver chain. It was by no means expensive, or worth any money. It wouldn't be a surprise if it was worth nothing at all. But despite that, she constantly had a gut feeling this was worth something. If not money, then memory.

She placed her fingers on the rose. For the first time a memory flashes through her mind.

A little girl, that was no older than four, was standing in the streets holding out her hands, the rose necklace sitting in them. Behind her, in the doorway of a house, a girl was leaning up against the doorframe. It was hard to tell how old she was, because she looked like she was five, or six because of her hollowed out cheeks, and her slender frame, but her height, and demeanor said otherwise.

She got pulled out of the flashback by a knock at her door. As she opened the door she snapped close the jewelry box. Outside of her room was Mikasa, Armin, and Eren, and behind them leaning against the wall was Captain Levi.

"Hello, how may I help you guys?" she asked, turning around and placing the jewelry box into the trunk.

"You do know that Captain Levi is standing outside of your room." Eren said. She looked past him to Captain Levi, then she nodded and looked back at him.

"I am aware. Anything else?" she said.

"What did Commander Erwin want?" Armin said. She turned back around pulled out a notebook from her trunk and turned back to the three of them without taking her eyes off of the notebook.

"I am going to the new base with Commander Hange tomorrow morning." Her fingers run across the dirt covered pages of the notebook before she flipped open to the first page. The page was slightly wrinkled full of writing. The words meant nothing, now at least.

The pages were full of lyrics, and the handwriting matched hers perfectly. She wrote them, no doubt, not that she was able to remember writing them. Today she was having luck with remembering where the necklace was from. Maybe that luck would transfer to what these words mean.

"What is that?" Armin asked, walking up beside Clarissa. She looked over her shoulder at him then back down at the book.

"I am not sure. I wrote it, some time in the past. I think they are lyrics." she said, handing the book to Armin. He read over the page before he looked back up at her and handing it back.

"Are you sure you wrote these?"

"No, but it does match my writing. So it is highly likely I wrote it. I have no memory of it though." She sat down on her bed, and flipped to the next page and read through another page.

"Mikasa and I are going to do something. See you two at lunch." Eren said. Clarissa nodded absently as she flipped the page again.

"See you later." Armin said, they both nodded before they left down the hall, and Armin closed the door before he sat down beside Clarissa.

She contemplated telling him about the memory, she stood up and grabbed the jewelry box from the trunk and sat down on the bed. She opened the box and held up the necklace, letting the light from the window hit the necklace as she looked over it.

"I didn't know you had that."

"I've had it for a while." She slid her hair to the side before she put her necklace on and slid it under her maroon dress shirt."Where did you get it?" Armin asked. Clarissa moved her hair back over her neck and she shrugged.

"I don't know." she said. It would be too soon to say that the memory was actually real, since maybe it was fake. Unless she could find actual evidence that it is real she didn't want to tell anyone. Even her best friend.

She stood back up and threw the empty jewelry box and notebook back into the trunk before she leaned up against the wall and slid to the floor. Who were those girls? Was she supposed to look after them? When she left was she abandoning them? She would never do that, would she? It was impossible to know. She didn't even know who her parents were. How could she remember if she was in charge of two little girls?

"Clarissa, are you okay?" Armin asked, standing up from the bed as she pulled her knees to her chest.

"Yes, I'm fine, I'm just a little tired from the journey is all," she said, a single tear fell down her cheek and she wiped it away quickly and stood up. "I think I will just have a nap, since there isn't anything else for me to do today."

Armin nodded and walked to the door and put his hand on the handle. "Okay, I'll be with Eren and Mikasa. Have a good nap." He then left the room and closed the door with a soft click. She laid back onto her bed and stared up at the ceiling.