**Warning; The beginning of this chapter is a huge lemon. If you want to skip it, which is totally up to you, look for the bold (lemon finished). I hope you like it.

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Chapter 2

I did what felt right. I brushed back the hair from his eye and kissed him back.

All rational thinking left and we just dove in.

The kissing started innocently until he licked my bottom lip and I opened my mouth to deepen the kiss. His hand rested on the nape of my neck, fingers through my hair, holding me in place.

I threw the blanket on the floor and laid back down the length of the couch and he hovered over me, his hips lying on top of mine. The weight felt good and suddenly it was like the room was on fire, we were both panting for breath. I shifted and parted my legs to make room for him and he ground into me. I gasped against his mouth and then moaned.

He continued to kiss down my neck and his hand slid from my neck to the zipper of my jacket. He unzipped it and I threw it off, his jacket following mine. Then we resumed kissing and he ground his hips into mine again. I felt his hand lift the hem of my shirt, caressing the exposed skin as he went.

I tugged at his shirt and he lifted up and pulled it over his head, throwing it away somewhere before doing the same to mine. His skin against mine felt like a tiny fire everywhere it touched and I wanted more.

His hand moved up my side, over my ribs and rested on top of the bra over my breast. His mouth left mine again and traveled where his hand was. He squeezed my breast and something shot through my body making me gasp and lean up for more. He pulled the fabric of the bra over and covered my nipple with his mouth, the sensation going straight between my legs making me moan.

He ground into me again. I lifted up and he unclasped my bra and threw it behind my head. But instead of resuming our activities he stopped and looked me over, making me a little self conscious.

"You're so beautiful Bella."

I smiled and then pulled him back to me, his mouth finding mine.

I reached in between us and grabbed him, making him groan.

"Jasper, I want you," I breathed as I unfastened his belt buckle.

"Are you sure?"

I nodded. I successfully unbuttoned his jeans and he helped pull them off before unbuttoning mine. I lifted my hips as he pulled them down. Once they were off he laid back on top of me and started kissing my neck down over my breast and stomach to my panty line. His other hand rested on my thigh and slowly slid up over my hip. His finger curled around my panties and he pulled them down and I lifted for him to pull them off.

He smirked and licked back up to my breast. I pulled him closer then moved my hand down his back and side to his boxer-briefs. I tried tugging them off but ultimately he helped.

He settled back between my legs and positioned himself at my opening. He pushed in and then stopped.

"Oh baby you should've told me. This will hurt, but it'll be over quick I promise."

He thrust in and I cried out, tears filling my eyes. It hurt like hell. He kissed me and apologized and once the pain subsided I told him to continue and he slowly rocked and we found our rhythm.

After a bit, tension started forming down below my stomach and I cried out when it release and Jasper did the same a second later.

He pulled out and kissed me again and again. He reached down and found the blanket before lying down behind me. He covered us up and put his arm around me, pulling me close to him and kissed my neck. I felt different, but I felt great and I fell asleep in Jasper's arms.

(LEMON FINISHED)

I woke the next morning when my iPhone chimed of a text message. As I slowly came to consciousness I reached for the phone and slid the lock open, blinking for my eyes to focus. I had three missed calls and 5 text messages.

I selected the text message icon and noticed who the texts were from. Maria? I don't know of a Maria. And why was she asking where I was and that she missed me and that she was… whoa, too much information there Maria.

I looked at the phone again. The case wasn't mine. I looked behind me and saw Jasper was still asleep. This had to be Jasper's phone.

Oh. My. God. He asked me if I was single last night before our little escapades, but I didn't ask him. This Maria girl must be his girlfriend. He used me. I thought he liked me, thought he was different but apparently he is just like every jock in high school, looking to score with any piece of ass that walked by, which happened to be me.

I was completely ashamed with myself. First I traded in my v-card for a cute jock but also to a guy I barely knew. How could I have been so stupid!

I felt tears stinging my eyes and I mentally bit them back. I was not going to cry in front of him. No matter how much of a moron I was, I was going to keep my dignity intact.

I tried to slowly get out from under the blanket and his arm that was over my hip but once I moved he started waking up. I jumped up and started getting dressed. Too late for modesty now, he's seen every inch of me.

"Bella?" his groggy voice came from the couch.

I located my bra and panties and put them on quickly.

"Babe, where are you going?"

I shut my eyes and took a deep breath trying to calm the hysterics that wanted to break free. "I gotta go Jasper."

"But why? Can't you stay a little bit? Last night was amazing. Just stay, be with me."

I winced. "No," I choked out refusing to look at him.

"Bella?" a hint of alarm rang in his voice. "Are you okay?" I heard the blanket shift.

"No. Stay there. Just please don't get up." I felt a tear escape and I swiped it away as I grabbed my jeans and threw them on.

"Bella what's wrong?"

I found my shirt and socks and ungracefully put them on. "I just got to leave. My dad must be worried."

"Well let me drive you home."

"No!" I turned to him then.

"Oh Bella. What is it babe?" He stood to walk toward me.

I held up my hand and he stopped. I didn't trust myself to speak so I grabbed my jacket and found my phone in the pocket. I slipped on my Converse and looked up at him. He had walked a little closer but stopped several feet from me. The blanket was wrapped lowly around his hips and I couldn't help but think about what happened between us the night before.

I gave him the best smile I could muster. "Goodbye Jasper."

His eyes widened a little. "Wait Bella!"

I turned around and rushed to the door, pulling it open before he could stop me.

"Please let's talk about this."

I jogged down the steps and out into the drizzle, him calling my name behind me.

I didn't know what to do. I could walk home but that would take all morning and probably afternoon making it an epic walk of shame. I couldn't call Charlie to come get me because then I would have to explain why Alice didn't take me home and I'm sure I looked like hell. It's not an explanation to have with my dad. Alice was out because she was probably with Edward and if I disrupted her she'd want to know what happened.

I scrolled through my contacts until I found the right one. It rang a couple times before a deep voice answered.

"Jacob?"

"Yeah. Bella what's up?"

"Can you come get me and take me home?"

"Yeah where are you?"

"Where the party was."

"Okay see you in a few."

I ran to the main beach and made it just when the Rabbit arrived. Once I got in and shut the door behind me, Jake put it in gear and left.

"Why am I the one that's driving you home? What happened to Alice and them?"

"I didn't want to wake them."

"But you chose to wake me?"

I nodded. "Sorry but I needed a ride home."

"Couldn't that Jasper guy take you?"

"Probably." But I didn't want him to.

Jake sighed. "Well for what it's worth I'm glad you chose to call me."

At that point the car ride was easy. We talked about Alice and our friends and what they were up to. I was a couple weeks overdue for a visit and I promised I'd be out soon. With that he dropped me off and headed back home.

I got in the house and locked the door behind me. Charlie was already at work so I ran upstairs and jumped in the shower.

I washed every inch of me thoroughly and I noticed that I felt a bit sore. The tears were starting to come back but I wasn't going to fight them. I was finally alone; able to face all my feelings and I let the tears fall while the hot water washed them down the drain.

The rest of the weekend passed by pretty quickly. I got a call from Alice Sunday night but I needed a few days before jumping into Friday's events.

Charlie was in and out of the house mostly so I had a lot of alone time which I really didn't want. I didn't want to be locked inside my head full of self loathing and I didn't want to think about the guy who starred in my dreams that hurt me so bad.

So instead of thinking about it I kept my hands and mind busy with homework or reading or doing chores around the house. It was fine and it worked but there wasn't anything I could do to keep it away when I was asleep and the dreams were inevitable.

Monday finally came and although school was not what I wanted right now, it was a good escape.

Sadly though, the first face I saw was James'.

"Hey Bella, what are you doing later?"

"Not you."

"Ooh playing hard to get? I like it."

"Or playing never going to happen. I'm sure Victoria loves you looking around for other merchandise."

"Oh it doesn't matter; you'll always be first to me."

"Yeah I'm sure."

"You could really enjoy it."

"Speaking of enjoying things, how did you enjoy losing to Sequim?"

That shut him up. He immediately turned and left.

"You keep egging him on you know," Angela said walking up beside me.

"I'm not doing anything; he's the one under this delusion that I'll let him ride me."

"Yeah that's entirely possible," she said sarcastically. "So how was the game?"

"Good. Sequim won. It was pretty awesome. How was the movie?"

"Okay. Alice?"

"As she always is, except with a boyfriend now."

"What? Does she really like him?"

I nodded. "They are a cute couple. Her friends are pretty awesome too."

"Really? Any single cute ones?"

"You have a boyfriend remember?"

"Not for me, for you."

"Oh."

"So is there?"

I shrugged my shoulders. "So what was the movie about?"

She explained the whole story to me as we walked to class.

At lunch we talked about Jake and his buddies and agreed after school that we would make a trip down to the reservation for a visit. I was ready to see my friends. I just hoped they didn't bring up Jasper. After school let out Angela followed me home so she could drive us to La Push. As I walked in to leave a note for Charlie my phone rang.

Alice.

I slid the answer button over. "Hello?"

"Why the hell haven't you called me back?"

"Well hi to you too cousin of mine."

"Hi Bella, now why didn't you?"

"I was getting around to it eventually."

"Fine, well, Jazz keeps asking about you."

"What's he saying?"

"That he had a great time Friday night."

I bet he did.

"And he wanted to talk to you," she continued.

"Uh-huh and what did you say?"

"That I'd talk to you first before I gave him your number. I think he likes you Bella."

"Uh-huh."

"Do you want me to give it to him?"

"No Alice I don't."

"I thought you two were hitting it off great. What happened? Did he do something? I can get Emmett to kick his ass if he did something."

I sighed. "No Alice, he didn't do anything. Look I gotta go; I'll talk to you later okay?"

"Okay. Love you B."

"You too Aly."

On the drive out I kept thinking about Jasper. In all actuality that night was great but he had a girlfriend. He used me. I'm not some easy booty call."

"Um Bella? Are you okay?" Angela asked.

"Yeah I'm fine."

"You sure?"

"Yeah. I'm sure."

She pulled into Jake's driveway and we got out and walked to the front door. Billy, Jake's dad, answered.

"Hello Bella, Angela. Long time no see."

"I know sorry. But we're here now," I said smiling.

"Come on in. They're in the back."

We walked past and out to the garage where Jake, Sam, Quil, Emily, Embry, Paul, Jared, Leah, Seth and Jared's girlfriend Kim were.

"Hey guys!" we called.

"Bella! Angela!" they cheered standing to give us hugs.

We settled down for a while catching up about school and life when suddenly life turned to me.

"So Bella, what happened with you and Jasper?" Emily asked.

"Who's Jasper?" Angela asked.

"Only the guy that had taken an interest in Bella and vice versa," Embry answered.

"You didn't tell me that!" Angela said.

"It didn't matter!" I said.

"So what did you two do?" Emily asked again.

"We talked, that's it."

Angela turned to Emily. "Was he cute?"

Emily nodded. "Very."

"Hey!" Sam protested.

"Aw you're cute too baby," Emily said kissing his temple.

"Oh my gosh can we please change the subject."

"Back to you?" Quil asked.

"No away from me!"

They all laughed as I blushed. I hated attention and they knew it. Thankfully Angela mentioned the movie she saw on Friday and we went on that topic.

The drive home Angela wanted to know everything about Jasper. I gave her as much information as possible without hurting myself by reminding me of the mistake I made.

She dropped me off at my house after I assured her that Jasper and I were not going to happen.

As much as I wanted it to, it just wasn't.

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