Kat

Oh god I hope I'm not late! I promised myself I wouldn't do this anymore… I got prepared on time, I packed all my things, I had 15 minutes to spare, yet I'm running to school, with only 3 minutes till the class starts. How is this possible?

Oh, thank god, I finally made it. Should I just burst into the class like an idiot or should I just… No time to think, just go!

I slowly walked into the classroom, ready to hear the lecture from my math's teacher. But wait! What's this? He isn't here! Hahah yes! Saved. Dropping meaningless hello's around, till I get to my seat. People hello-ing back to me, in a not-too-excited matter. Eh, who cares, they aren't who I'm interested in. But, he's too far too off in dreamland to notice my existence. With his head on the desk, and hair over his face, he's sound asleep. Should I just scream hi, and scare the living shit out of him? Nah, I'm not that evil. I decided to gently push him, until he wakes up. After a few tries, he slowly opened his eyes, and made a confused are-the-aliens-coming face. As he drifted into reality he flashed a quick smile, and mumbled something.

"What?"

"I said good morning."

"Sounded more like, blugh blugh blugh, but, okay, if you say so."

"Hah, don't tease me, I slept like 3 hours last night, I have to make it up somewhere."

"Why don't you just go to bed like all the normal people?"

"Because I'm not like the other normal people."

"True."

"But you love me for it." He said it with a teasing smirk on his face.

"Yeah, I guess that's true."

Has it really been 2 months already? My old home, my friends back home, my old school, it all seems years away. It feels like I've known Gerard for years now. I do miss my old friends though. We had some good times together. My thoughts were interrupted when a very angry bald guy, also referred to as our math teacher, marched into the classroom.

"YOU! Come with me right away! What a disgrace. Again. AGAIN!"

He was walking straight towards me, looking like he wants to pull a knife and cut somebody. I already started writing an imaginary will in my head, when he grabbed Gerard's shoulder, and pulled him out of his seat. Okay, phew, I get to live. Which is more than I can say for Gerard, who is dragged out of the classroom. With a confused look on his face, and too shocked to resist, he disappeared behind a slammed door. What the hell did he do, that pissed the teacher off so much? The class was left silent for a few seconds. As soon as everybody realized what happened, they started talking among themselves, gossiping. I could hear a few speculations, like "he must have killed somebody". Idiots. Although, what is it? It can't be that bad, can it? We were left to ourselves for about 10 minutes. Which was enough for the vultures to create a whole story on what Gerard did. It's quite fascinating actually, how they're willing to waste their time on making up crazy stories. The teacher walked in after, still red in the face, and without any explanation, or any signs that he was gonna bring Gerard back, he started the lesson. This plus this divided by this, plus x, plus y. Damn it, I can't focus. What did he do? I don't even remember what we did the rest of the class, I was too busy thinking, actually letting my imagination run freely, and imagining the worse situation. I didn't see him during lunch either. Not the whole day. He wasn't there to walk me home, like he does every day. I rushed home, started on homework, finished it, watched TV, sketched a little. But whatever I did, my mind kept drifting to Gerard. By now, my imagination had gone crazy, and I started imagining him behind prison bars. I heard my ringtone, and rushed over to the phone, in case it was him, calling with an explanation. I looked at the screen. Ew.

"Hey mum. Yeah. Yeah. I had lunch. I did. Yes, I did, didn't I just say that 5 seconds ago? Why do you think I'm upset? No, no, I got an A today. I'M NOT. Look. I have to do homework. Yeah. Yeah, for god's sake. Bye."

Oh my god, parents… You know what, I'll just call him. Well should I? What If he doesn't wanna talk? Just dial the damn number for god's sake! Okay, call. NO. Yes! I'm calling it's ringing, you can't hang up now!

"Hello."

"Hey Gerard."

"Oh, referring to me by full name… Formal." I hear a little giggle. Awww cute.

"What, it's your name…"

"No, but you always say Gee, or make up some crazy nickname."

"Really? I didn't notice. Okay, never mind... I'll just get to it. What I really want to know is what the hell was all that about?"

"What?"

"Don't play dumb. In school today."

"Oh, that. Nothing. Just have some guidance councilors on my ass, nothing special, it will blow over."

"What did you do that was so bad?"

"Nothing. Don't worry about it darlin', it isn't a big deal. "

"Sure sounded like a big deal to me…"

"Eh, these school people, they always make a fuss over nothing. Relax. Look, I'm sorry I have to go now. See you tomorrow. Actually maybe not, not sure if I'll go to school tomorrow, see you, well, when I see you. Bbye…

"Bye."

I hung up the phone feeling bitter. Maybe he really has gotten himself into some huge mess. Every time he says "relax" I hear cop car sirens… Maybe I worry too much.

Gerard

Haha, of course she got worried. I mean that idiot made such a big fuss today. I must look like a serial killer. What the hell is his problem anyway, what I do in my spare time is my business, not his. I find these things really funny. "We all want to help you" or "It's for your own good." Leave me alone! And it would be awkward if the other kids found out. I mean, I'm unpopular as it is, I don't need another label right now… I mean, what ever happened to privacy? He just ran in and dragged me away. And threatened to call my parents. Heh. Good luck. They're not here, again. And even if they were, I'd make sure they don't get the call. So I win anyway. I always win in these things, I don't know why he tries. I just wanna relax right now, just… My phone is ringing. Kat again.

"Hey, did you forget something?"

"Uh, no, I didn't forget anything. I just… I'm bored, if you wanna meet, and hang out or something… Don't know. Only if you want to."

"Oh. Okay, sure."

"You want to come over? I mean sure, my parents are here, they might question you a little, they want to see who my new friends are. I tried talking them out of it, but no, they're too stubborn."

"Some other time? I really can't deal with parents right now. Why don't you come over here? My parents are away on a trip."

"Sure, why not."

"You know where I live?"

"Yeah. See ya in let's say 10 min?"

"Okay, see ya."

Maybe a little company won't hurt. She's never been over though, I don't know how she'll react to my room. Some people say it's disturbing, with very little light, and weird drawings taped all over the walls. Really loud music playing all the time. Better than answering stupid questions though. I'm really not in the mood to be judged by anybody.

Doorbell. Here she is.

"Hi. Come in. Welcome to my humble home, or whatever the hell I'm supposed to say."

"Hey."

I led her up to my room, and I have to admit, I was holding my breath a little, waiting for the reaction.

"Wooow, so cool, you did all of these? You're really good at drawing." The music was too loud, so she needed to shout.

Okay, phew. Honestly, I expected she'd say something like that.

"Thanks."

I better turn the music down, not much of a conversation can be led like this.

"Nice, now I can hear myself think. No, I'm joking you have great music taste."

"Thanks."

Is it just me, or is this conversation a little awkward?

"Say something longer than one word for gods sake."

Ughh how I hate when somebody asks me to say something. Is it really that hard to start a conversation?

"Umm, well, I got a C in biology today... Nothing else happened..."

Kat

"Are you fucking kidding me? Nothing else happened? What about the math teacher coming in and "arresting" you?

Okay, he made it clear that he doesn't want to talk about this, but who fucking cares, I really need to know.

"Look..." He took a step towards me, and I took a step back. Why did I do that?

He noticed what I did, smiled, and took another step, and I did the same, this time on purpose. I love how you can turn everything into a game with him. I kept walking backwards, untill I felt the wall behind me. He put both his hands on the wall, and had me trapped.

"That's what you get for asking nosy questions. What are you gonna do now?"

Haha I really don't know what game we're playing, but I'm interested. I love how he's such a tease. I started considering my ways out, and realized that I don't have any. He's way too close, and much stronger than me. ]

I haven't really thought about him like this, but he's pretty gorgeous. He has the cutest hazel eyes and he smells so nice... Mmm. Maybe I was a bit nosy, I mean I'm sure he didn't do anything that bad, I... WHOA. HOLD UP. Wait, wait, wait. Was I about to let him off the hook becouse he blinked his pretty hazel eyes and smiled? Hahah no fucking way. I never though I could be that kind of girl. OH no. FUCK NO. He's not getting away that easy.

"Oh no, no, no, you can't play your way out of this. Just tell me for gods sake."

"Please? Please let this go okay? Everything's okay, I promise, that's all you need to know. Okay? Please?"

His expression switched from playfull to serious, and I knew he meant it this time.

"Okay. Sorry. I just need to know that you're okay. Are you?"

"I am."

"Okay, fine, I won't torture you anymore."

He obviously wasn't in the mood to talk, so he suggested we watched a movie. I really don't like horror movies, but he really wanted to watch one, so I went along with it…

Wow… This movie sucks. It's just so boring. Just a whole lot of blood and killing. Okay, I'll start paying more attention, I might be missing something.

"Hey Kat… Hey? "

"Whaaat…"

"Wake up. Movie's over…"

"Ha, what?"

"You fell asleep."

Hahah the movie was just so boring that I couldn't stay awake. Am I leaning on him? Must have moved when I'm asleep… Mmm I'm so comfortable here, I don't feel like moving…

"What time is it?"

"10:30"

"Damn, I have to go now! I need to be home at 11. Ugh, I don't feel like moving."

"Well stay then. My parents aren't here. Nobody will mind."

"Hahah I'd love to. Uh, no seriously, I'm gonna get up now."

"No, but I am serious."

"Really?"

"Yeah. Will you? Look, I mean it. I could use the company."

"For real?"

"Yes, for real."

"Wait. Let me make a call.

Hey mum. Yeah… Look, I'm really tired and I'm at a friend's house, she's asking if I can sleep over. Nah, I don't need anything it's just one night. Really? Really? Thanks!

"She?"

"It's just easier. They wouldn't let me otherwise."

"Okay. Whatever works."

That was a very unusual for me to do. But I really want to stay. At least I've finally had the guts to be spontaneous…

"Are you always home alone?"

"Not always. Usually my brother is with me… He's on a trip right now."

"I didn't even know you had a brother."

"Oh, I thought that I mentioned him. He's name is Mikey… "

He was telling me about his brother, but I wasn't really listening. My mind shifted back to before. When I was against that wall. He's just so cute… He has longish black hair, big hazel eyes, sweet teasing smile and he just smells so nice… I could just stare at him for hours…

"Are you even listening to me?"

"Yeah, of course."

"What did I say last?"

"Okay… Fine! You got me. I wasn't listening."

"What were you thinking about? You had the strangest face…"

"Nothing."

"Should I keep asking you, or do you prefer to keep this to yourself?"

"Self."

"Fine. Be like that."

"You don't get to complain on that subject."

"Ew. Fine. I guess keeping things to yourself is better sometimes."

But what if I want to tell you, I just don't have the guts?

"Okay, I don't know about you, but I feel weird when no music is playing. I'll turn it down from really really really loud to sort of loud, okay? We can shout over it, not that anybody is gonna hear us."

"Hahah, sure... Oh my god! Not this, I really hate this song!"

"How can you hate this song? It's awesome."

"It sucks."

"What did you just say?"

"It sucks."

"Say that again, if you dare."

"Ooh, If I dare. What are you gonna do? "

"I'm warining you. Don't. YOU. Dare."

"Sucks, shitty, terrible, awful, yuck. Sucks!"

"And you, my darling, are dead."

With a killer face, he jumped up, and tried to get me against the wall again. Oh no. He can't fool me twice. I slid behind him opened the door, and ran out of his room. We were running around his house like maniacs. I was determined to win this time. I ran, jumped over furniture. Thank god we didn't brake anything. I turned around, while still running, and didn't notice a cord from a lamp that was just lying on the floor. My leg got tackled in it, and I tripped. I was lying down on the ground, tied up by a lamp cord, laughing like crazy… I'm sure it would seem retarded to anybody but us.

"You okay?"

"I, ahahahha, I'm fine. The lamp's fine too."

"You realize that I caught you? Lamp or no lamp, I win."

He leaned over me, blocking my exit. Strokes of his hair were falling over his eyes, so he couldn't really see. There's something just so adorable about that…

"Say you're sorry."

"Never."

"We have all night don't we? I'm not moving till you apologize."

"Fine. Don't move. I'm sticking to my opinion."

"You know, some people say I'm really stubborn."

"So am I."

I felt my heart pounding, and my head spinning… Oh why are you such a coward, you idiot? Take a chance. The timing couldn't be more perfect. He's just so close… But he doesn't like you back. You know that. Why ruin the friendship you have with him? Well, how do you know? How DO you know? He might like you…Ha! I don't have an argument against myself. I'm gonna do it. I'M GONNA DO IT…Oh my gosh I really want to... Take a chance. Okay. Here goes nothing.

I reached out my hand, and moved a stroke of his hair from his eyes. He shook his head, to move the rest. I continued moving my hand down his hair all the way to the back of his head. I wrapped my fingers around a few strokes of his hair and gently pushed his head towards me. He was controlling the situation completely until then, and he made a surprised face when he realized what I wanted to do. A second felt like an eternity, while I was waiting for his reaction. My heart sped up a thousand times, when I realized that he smiled softly, and wrapped his hands around my waist. At this point, our faces were so close that our noses touched. I couldn't take it anymore. I pulled his head down. I felt his lips on mine, first brushing off softly, then I pulled him even closer... I could her his sped u breathing, and my own heart pounding in my head. I felt like time stopped, while the room was spinning around me...

Gerard

OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. I can't believe it. I just… Wow. WOW. Mmmm. I just. But, whoa? But how? How? How couldn't I see this sooner?

"I… I uh…"

I didn't know why I was whispering. Too shocked to talk I guess… Oh my god. Wow… I didn't think she would catch me off guard like this…

"What?"

"Uh, I'm embarrassed."

"No, it's fine, just say it."

"I never kissed a girl before…"

"Oh my god, really?"

"Ok, I don't know why that's so weird I mean, I…"

"No, you idiot! Me too."

"Oh so you never kissed a girl either?"

"No! Shut up! You know what I mean."

Yes, of course I know...

"Uh… Can I ask something?"

"What?"

"Why me? I mean from all the guys in school, and I mean…"

"Because. The other guys are fine, but they aren't you. Shut up. Don't be so insecure."

"No but I…"

"Shut up!"

Here we were, me, her, and a lamp, lying all together on the floor. I slowly slid my had across the floor, and crossed my fingers with hers. I had my doubts about her at the beginning. But now… Wow… I mean…

"I don't wanna shut up! Tell me! Why?"

"I like you, okay? I think that's obvious at this point."

"No, but why do you…"

I was cut off in the middle of the sentence. She grabbed my hair again, and before I could understand what was happening… Mmmmmm… Mmmm… My mind went blank.

"What the hell was that?"

"I said you should shut up…"

"You can't keep teasing me like this…" I was short of breath, and crazy, and confused, barely even whispering…

"Me, for a change...Get up, we shouldn't be lying on the floor."

"Armm, what?"

"Get up."

I got up, and followed her back to my room. I remembered that I forgot to pick up the lamp, but who cares?

"You didn't answer my question…"

"Why is it so important to you?"

"I don't know… I guess I want to know what I did differently with you. I mean girls don't exactly like me…"

"You crazy? You have no idea what they say when you aren't there… A lot of them think that you're the hottest guy in school, but you're just so unapproachable…"

"That's nice, of you, but no, seriously… "

"I'm dead serious. I mean only Taylor hates you… And she hates everybody. Not to mention that everybody hates her… A few even asked if you're single, cuz they wanted to ask you out…"

"Haha , that's cute, but nobody asked me out, so I know it's not true…"

"Yeah. I know they didn't… Cuz I… Uh… Said that you aren't single…"

"Why did you do that?"

"Cuz, I…Uh, I didn't want you to go out with any of them… Because I wanted you for myself, okay?…" She blushed and looked away.

"If what you're saying is true, and you're not just bursting my ego…"

"It's true…"

"Aw Kat…"

I wrapped my arms around her.

"But Kat… I have a stupid question…"

"It hasn't stopped you until now, so go ahead, ask…"

"Am I single?"

A seemingly harmless question, but a very complex one, when you think about the meaning…

She looked at me for a second, probably thinking of a response…

"No… No you're not. You're mine. "

I kissed her forehead.

You're mine. The words kept echoing in my head. I'm hers… I like that.

"It's getting late you know… Do you realize that it's 3:30 am?"

"Woow, time flies."

"You should sleep. I should sleep too. I meant to sleep on the couch…"

"You know that's not necessary…"

She had her head on my shoulder, I had my arms around her waist.

The last thing I said to her before she fell asleep was: "I'm yours my darling…"