he guys: Thanks for the view, I'd really appreciate if you give me feedback on my writing and my storyline. Anyway, here's chapter 2.

Percy POV

I hold him, it's all I can do. I cry as he sleeps. I pick him up, putting him back in his bed. I sit on the edge watching him, tears falling. He's right. I will never understand how he feels. I haven't lost as much. To this day, I will always regret letting Bianca go that day. I should have stopped her, I should have done more, be more. I should have been a hero. Soon I'm balling. All I can do is cry like a baby. The sobs shake me to my core.

I feel Nico crawl over to me.

"Percy?" he whispers.

I look up, meeting his big brown eyes, still red from earlier.

"I'm sorry, I'm so so so sorry, Ni- hiccup- co. I-I-I I know I will never understand but I'm so sorry" I bawl harder.

What kind of hero am I, a weak one? I always let others fight my battles. Someone always dies and then I do something, I'm always too late. I feel Nico wrap his arms around me. I pull him close, crying into his neck. He rubs my back in small circles and I cry.

"Percy, i-i-its gonna be ok. I'm sorry for what I said, I was just angry."

" B-b-bb but you were right."

I pull away from his embrace. Looking into his eyes.

"Nico Please let me be there for you, or let Will, I know he cares. I i-i- I just don't want you to go through this pain. It's so hard and you shouldn't be alone."

I grab his face 'Please Nico, Please."

He looks at me. So many emotions in those eyes, paint, regret, love. This might be stupid but I think it's what right. I lean in closer, looking at his lips. His eyes go wide.

" P-p-p Percy, what are you doing?" he whispers.

" Isn't this what you want, me?"

He looks shocked.

"Annabeth?"

"Has nothing to do with this. This is me and you."

"But aren't you straight?"

" I don't know, honestly. I never had time to think about it. But this feels right."

"Percy, I'm not interested in a pity kiss."

I stare into his eyes. In a husky voice, " I would never kiss you out of pity. Only out of want. Do you want me, Nico?"

Nico POV

Holy shit, is this happening. No, it can't be, I'm dreaming I'm definitely dreaming. Did Percy fucking Jackson, tell me he wants to kiss me, That he might be gay, that this is a thing. Oh, My Gods. He just asked me if I want him. I do, I do, I do.

"P-p-p-p Percy, I do but-"

"But nothing D'Angelo, let's just be."

And then it happened. He leans in kisses me, It was sweet, slow and passionate all at once. I felt my stomach ignite with a burn, and ache for more. I wanted more, I wanted all of him. Soon this slow kiss turns urgent. I push him down on my bed, kissing feverishly. Percy's hand drags down my bare back, leaving good bumps. I've never done this before but it feels so right and wrong. Wrong because we're guys, he has a girlfriend and WERE GUYS. But is so right, I feel a connection, I feel love. We kiss and roll around, sometimes him on top or me on time. It felt amazing. I lay on top of Percy out of breath.

"Percy, what are we doing, we're guys, you have a girlfriend."

"So…."

"So…. your cheating and were guys."

"Nico.' He sighs.

"Me and Annabeth haven't been the same. There were things that happened in Tartarus that scared her and scared me. Things about myself that just isn't right. If I'm being honest Me and Annabeth happened out of necessity, I never really had a chance with anyone else."

"But your Percy Jackson, every girl would kill to date you."

"No, they want the Hero, the guy that runs into battle and fights recklessly. They don't want to know the real me, the one who scared all the time, insecure about everything. The real me."

"So what are you saying, are you gonna break up with her."

He pauses for a moment.

"No, I love her. But right now we can't be together. I need to find myself without her."

"So what am I then, I mean we've only kissed but I won't be your social experiment."

His eyes go wide.

"No No your not, an experiment. I genuinely like you, how I don't know yet. But I wanted this I wanted you. After you told me how you felt it made me think, and It bothered me so much that I wasn't your type anymore. You were the only person who I felt I could relate to. You were what I felt all the time, but couldn't be. If anything Nico, the experiment was Annabeth."

"But don't you love her."

"Yes, but it's complicated. How our relationship started was based on the fact that we're friends and we were going through so many trails. I love her, I'm in love with her. But I don't know who I am without her. I wanna find Percy without Annabeth."

I nod.

"So what does this mean for us, this? Percy, I-i-i'm so confused. I've struggled with this for so long, and you being here right now, is a dream. But I don't want to start this-this and then you go back to her."

I put my head down, silent tears falling. This has got to be the hardest thing. I can feel his eyes roam my body. It's exciting yet terrifying at the same time. He puts his hand under my chin, Looking into his sea green eyes, I start to crumble. My regret fading.

"Nico, I understand. I don't know what I am, or who for that matter. I would hate to do that to you, and I can't tell you what the future holds. But I want you to get over me. I don't want you to hurt like this. I kissed you because I wanted and that was selfish because this is your reality. I think-" he chokes up a bit, " I think you should be with Will, or just try. I know he's into you, and he'd be good for you. Better than I can."

"Percy, I want you. Why can't you leave her?"

I study his face. He looks like he's in pain. He takes a shaky breath.

"I'm scared."

Then he cries, but it's not a normal cry. I can feel the pain, loss, fear, exhaustion. His tears flow like rivers of pain. He's been holding this in for a while now. I pull him into my lap, he's a lot bigger than me but we make it work. It's my turn to hold him while he cries.

"Percy, why are you scared?"

"Because Nico, I love her but I don't know if its because I love her or its expected. When I lost my memories she was the only thing I had, I thought that meant she was meant for me. But that's not the case. I would do anything for her, I'd die if I had too. But two wars and the pits of hell and I just don't know if this is what I want. Hell, I don't know if this is what she wants. Sometimes I'm her boyfriend, others I'm her little brother. It's so confusing."

He takes a breath.

"The last few weeks have been hell. She's noticed how distant I am, how much attention I've been giving you and Jason. I think she knew before I did, that I no longer felt that way. But I'm loyal. I would never leave her because of everything we've been through."

I nod. He picks his head up.

"Nico, she cheated on me."

I gasp. How dare she. She has the perfect sweet guy and how dare she does this to him. That explains everything. The weight loss, the lack of excitement in his eyes, the dark circles.

"It happens when we got back. After you told me how you felt, she freaked out. She thought I was gonna leave her, but I promised her I wouldn't. You, not the only guy we've talked about. She though Me and Jason were too close. Then after Tartarus, she became paranoid. Especially about me leaving, the curse calypso cased really messed her up. But I tried, I tried so hard. I brought her flowers, made sure she ate, snuck her over to comfort her nightmares. But it just wasn't enough."

Tears roll down his checks.

"All I wanted was to make her happy, To give her love but then she cheated. I walked in on her and Piper."