A/N: Just because yesterday's chapter was so short im gonna give you a big one.

-BB

Day: 3

Hi um I found this empty book in one of the houses me and Eren raided so I decided that I would write in here like kind if a journal/dairy.

It's been three days since me and Eren had been exiled into the titan's territory and I'm extremely surprised that we are still alive. I mean no one ever survives even a day out here so its either real good luck that titans haven't noticed us yet or we're just naïve.

Every night we would lie down next to each other and hope we don't get eaten. We managed to get some food from an abandoned farm house yesterday so right now we're okay on that but it's the cold that starting to catch up on us.

Winter is around the corner and even with Eren as a heat source I don't think that's going to be enough for the winter.

I'm scared...

And I don't think we're gonna make it. Eren hasn't spoken a word since the day we were cast out and I'm starting to worry. Maybe something's wrong. Maybe I'm just paranoid. Maybe both, I don't know.

I'm scared and I don't know what to do about it.

_(HOW THE HELL DO YOU MAKE A LINEBREAK ON THIS ThING?)_

Day: 18

So it's been a while since I last wrote in here. So far nothing interesting happened.

The winter is a pain in the backside.

Eren is being a jerk about it.

And to top it all off, I can't seem to get my hair to work with me but I'm gonna leave it till the end of winter, I seriously don't care. If it's a source of heat, I'm keeping it

It's not like anybody else is gonna see except Eren.

So Yeah that's about it.

Day: 42

Its still freezing cold out here and Eren finally started talking to me again but the bad thing is he gave up on his dream to kill the titans.

I'm kind of glad but also worried. It's like he's forgetting the stuff that was important to him.

I don't know if I should worry or not.

I bet it's nothing I mean….. Its Eren fishen Yeager…..

Okay so maybe I shouldn't try using swear words, I suck at it. Seriously what was that?

Fishen?

.

.

.

What's the matter with me?

Day: 77

It's been about two and a half months now since the whole exile thing and Eren suggested that we should head south.

I think it's a great idea but I'm worried about the titans. I worked out a plan so that we can stay reluctantly safe and it involves trees.

Lots and lots of trees.

My plan was to stay in the tree line at the edge of the forest. I don't know what we're going to do if some titans do start chasing us but I highly doubt they'll try following.

In these last few days we haven't seen any titans on our hunts for food.

I just hope they're not planning something or gathering. That would be real bad.

Day: 101

Oh. My. Goodness

It's finally summer!

Or well spring I guess.

We've been traveling south for about 24, 25 days almost a month now and Eren said we should focus on heading east or we can go back the way we came.

Personally I think we should like make a huge circle while heading east.

Like this:

I I

I I

I_I

(I can't draw)

It would take longer than heading back the way we came but it will also slim the chances of us running into titans that decided to follow us.

When we started heading south we went through the east gate in wall Maria, we couldn't risk going through Shiganshina because that would make us titan lunch so our safest bet to getting back in, is the same way we got out.

That way it would also throw the titans off of our scent.

Hopefully it would work, but let's just see what Eren thinks of it.

Day: 154

Armin has changed his name to leg-out.

Legg-out?!

Arm-in the titan's mouth.

Arm-out the titan's mouth.

.Aaaaarrrrrrrmmmmmmmmmiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnn…

;o :d smile :p :)

HI ARMOUT! Hope you liked my love-note!

From:

Eren The AWesomeNess YeaGer..!

p.S: happy birthday!

P.P.SI did sooooooo not write in your book while you were gone….

Day: 253

Eren is such a big JERK!

I mean come-on was it really that necessary to turn titan and kill the 2-meter that was like a 100-miles away?

I know your frustrated and all but seriously?

You were looking for a fight weren't you?

Why am I talking to a book? Oh yeah right because Eren decided to leave our comfy cove inside wall Maria to go and kill a titan that doesn't even know we were here!

I don't understand him. Ever since we came back through the east wall Eren's been a big jerk and always slips away at random times.

He would be back later just before night fall and when the sun is down…. Poof.

Out like a rock.

And his temper is growing again. A leaf would fall and he would bite my neck off.

It's not MY fault the damn leaf fell.

Oh great look who's here.

Mr. Temper tantrum titan-sized baby!

Okay Armin, calm down.

Everyone knows he's a jerk…

Deep breaths and…..

Okay. So aside from Eren's tantrums and stuff, I saw Mikasa today.

I couldn't go talk to her, because hello the scouts would just cut me down and all, but it was good to see her again. Even if it was but just a second. Oh and she's part of the Levi squad! She's so lucky! Eren would be soo jealous…

If he cared or bothered to show up.

Sometimes I wonder what the others are doing. Like if Jean's still sad about Marco and if he joined the MP's or Connie with his crush on Sasha. Or Hannes I wonder how he's doing. He did save Eren and Mikasa's life back then…

Well I'm tired. Was out collecting berries and fruit and stuff for the next few days, checked on some traps, found a rabbit in one, a mouse in the other, ate the rabbit, let the mouse go…

The rabbit was dead anyway, broke its neck when it fell into the trap, but I'm not eating the mouse, do you know what discuses those things carry?

If not ask Eren, he was the desperate one.

Wait you're a book… you can't ask things,

gahhh…..!

Day: 360

Okay it's been about three months now and Eren's behavior has become….unpredictable….In a way

I don't know how to explain it but he's been gone for almost everyday, the whole day. And I know he thinks I don't notice but I do.

I'm not stupid I know when he's leaving for days on end or never comes back to the cove at nights.

I notice these things.

I don't know what he's doing but as soon as that sun sets he's out like a candle.

Usually he would stay awake with me until I finish one of the many books he brought home.

(Yes I'm calling the cove home.)

But it's like he's just getting them to keep me busy.

And the worst…..

He stopped talking.

He doesn't make a sound, like nothing. It's like he's a ghost…. But ghosts don't exist.

I don't know maybe I'm just… lonely? Tired? Scared?

But the latter is highly unlikely, I haven't been scared since before we left to head south.

I know what to do when a titan comes, how to kill, how to defend myself, how to get away.

.

.

.

Was…. Was Eren always like this? Have I just not notice before?

I don't know but whatever it is it's starting to freak me out. Big time!

Day: 362

I was right! There is something wrong with Eren! He's been getting these marks on his cheeks.

It looks like burn marks. Like the same marks after he blocked Trost up with that builder and we had to cut him out.

I can't sleep anymore, I'm scared Eren is going to kill himself….

Day: 364(tear drops and smudges on this page)

He snapped at me! With his teeth. Like an animal!

HE SNAPPED AT ME!

His BEST FRIEND.

I...I don't know anymore-

Day: 365

LaSt pAGe and im OfficiALLY sCaRed of ERen.

ThEres SomeTHinG WronG WiTh Eren AnD He KnoWs iT!

HeS LoSIng ConTRol And hE kNOws IT!

ErEN Wake UP! Your NoT A tITan YoUR HumAn!

WAKE UP!

A/N: okay well the last one was Armin freaking out and quickly writing so that Eren doesn't see him. He's scared, lonely and depressed.

He's a teenager what do you expect.

also thank you guys really! the few reviews i got was amazing! thanks again!

i was planning on doing a marcojean pairing for this thing and big brother Eren for Armin. these's gonna by like no slash :( frowny face for those who wanted it (*whispers* sorry...) but the marcojean thing is like gonna be extremely light, your gonna need binoculars to see it, it can also be seen as a extremely best friend thing if you want.

Ewen (guest) gave me the idea of switching pov's between Armin and Mikasa so that would happen but later in the fic.

thanks again you guys are truely awesome!

-BB