Watching.
Becket was watching the cab, with her partner in it, go out view before she remembered that Josh was only a feet away. She slowly made her way up the stairs and gave them access to the apartment building. When they entered the elevator the talking finally started.
"Why was he in the cab with you?" Josh asked while he gritted his teeth.
"We went to see Forbidden Planet together. It was playing at the Angelika."
Josh was having a hard time finding the exact words to say to this news. "What the hell, Kate?"
His reply made her roll her eyes. Their daily argument was now in play.
"What? I can't go see a movie with my friend?"
Josh hesitated while trying to wrap his mind around this. "He asked you to the movies. It was a date!"
There was a short moment of silence. Kate didn't know if she should tell Josh what she was thinking in her head or not. She decided it was best if she did. Either way they were going to argue.
"I asked him to see the movie because he's never seen it. So no, it was not a date."
Beckett watched how anger filled Josh's eyes. His face started getting beet red; he was pissed.
"Josh calm down. It was nothing. I didn't go home with him tonight, did I?" she calmly asked while deciding to hide the fact that they also went to Remy's afterwards.
"No." Josh mumbled realizing that she came to him for the night, not Castle.
The elevator doors opened to her floor. Beckett took the lead and headed to her apartment door. She opened her purse to get her keys when she realized that they weren't in there. Frantically, she started to pull things out.
"What's wrong?" Josh set down his bag and stood by Beckett's side.
"I can't find my key. I think I left it.."
Crap. I think I left it at Remy's on the table, she thought. How could she go back there without Josh knowing that her and Castle were there?
"I think I left it at the precinct." Beckett lied to avoid another argument.
"Well, let's go get it then." Josh picked up his bag and made his way back to the elevator when he realized Beckett wasn't following him. He turned around. "Are you coming?"
"I think I have a spare key.. Aha! My spare was in my wallet." she quickly unlocked the door and went inside with Josh behind her.
"I gotta go to the bathroom." Josh announced and left her alone for a few minutes.
Beckett decided it was best if she asked Castle to go get her key. He would understand, right? She pulled out her phone and shot him a text. "I think I left my key at Remy's."
Within seconds Castle responded. It was like he was waiting for her to text him. Odd.
"I can go back and get it now. I have nothing else to do. ;)"
Beckett let out a giggle at the smiley face.
Josh was leaning against the kitchen counter dumbstruck at the giggle his girlfriend just let out.
"What's so funny?" he asked.
Beckett jumped at her boyfriend's voice. She didn't know that he was watching her the whole time. He heard her giggle..
"It's nothing." she quickly put her phone in her pocket and headed towards her bedroom. Josh was right behind her, not ready to give up on finding out why she giggled at her phone.
"Can I know what was funny?" he asked as he laid down on his preferred side of the bed.
"It's just something my friend showed me. I'm not supposed to show anyone." Beckett hated lying, but she wanted to avoid any kind of arguing with her boyfriend.
She quickly changed into comfortable clothing and climbed into bed next to him. Tonight the bed felt cold to her, even with Josh's body heat it still felt cold. When he lightly draped his arm across her stomach, she wished it was Castle's arm. Why was she thinking like this? She never ever wanted Josh to be Castle.
Josh started to lightly kiss down the side of her neck. Usually this stunt would give her the chills, but not tonight. Something was in the air was different or maybe it was just her. But she couldn't find any pleasure in Josh's gentle doctor hands. Instead her mind traveled to the night she spent with her best friend. Her best friend that was also her partner. She once had a romantic interest in him, but he shot that in the gutter when he brought Gina into the precinct right before she was about admit her feelings for him. He hurt her, but when he came around after that summer, she instantly forgave him. His beautiful blue eyes swallowed her whole and she could see that he really didn't know what he did wrong. Also the way his handsome face looked at her...
Wait why was she thinking like this? She was in bed with her boyfriend who was trying to get intimate with her, but she just couldn't get into it tonight. Not when her unexplainable thoughts were on her partner.
Josh lifted his head up and looked down at his gorgeous girlfriend. He could feel the stiffness that she was giving off whenever he touched her.
"Is something wrong?" his voice was full of confusion and rejection.
"No. Nothing's wrong. I'm just really tired." Beckett let out a fake yawn.
The yawn worked on Josh. He stopped trying to get intimate and instead cuddled up to her. Little did he know that her mind was not on him; it was on Castle.
Beckett's mind slowly started to float around the movie she sat through with Castle. She was beyond excited that she brought him along. He loved older films when all her other friends showed little or no interest.
She remembered how she caught him watching her during the movie and how he acted like he was reaching for popcorn. She ignored it, but whenever their hands went for the popcorn at the same time, her heart would pause for a second. She would think to herself that, that was not normal. Her heart shouldn't have done that. She has a lovely boyfriend who sometimes is extremely busy, but he's still there.
Not there like Castle. Her mind was making it's own thoughts without her knowledge, but it was true. Castle was always there for her. Through the tough cases that revolved around her mother's case to the smaller ones that sometimes really got to her inner core. He would never judge her on how distraught she would get. Instead he would just listen and know exactly what to say to make her feel better. It was like he knew her better than anyone else.
Beckett closed her eyes and replayed the scene in Remy's. They were having so much fun talking about themselves. She learned more about him than she ever would have guessed. Like how he used to play the trumpet in the school band. The thought of him playing the trumpet was somewhat arousing. She also learned how he collected all sorts of comic books. Anything from Spiderman to the Green Lantern. Now that was something she could see him doing. Spending time in his pajamas on a Saturday morning, reading comic books. But when she got Josh's phone call, she felt horrible. Not only horrible to Castle, but to Josh. Their night did feel like a date, but it wasn't because she was still with Josh. She would never do that to him.
Her eyes started to get heavier as she drew closer to sleep. She squirmed for a few seconds to get comfortable. Right before she fell asleep she noticed how dead Josh's weight on the bed felt. He felt like he didn't belong there at all. Though she'd never admit how she'd rather have her partner cuddled up to her. Her partner that was always there for her. Her partner that never judged her little antics. Her partner who made her laugh during tough cases. Her handsome partner named Richard Alexander Rodgers.
AN: I chose not to replay the movie night in Beckett's view because it would have been a boring chapter to me. So I decided to portray it this way. Let me know what you think and if I should continue or not.
