A/N: Hey don't expect updates to always be this soon, but for now I'm on spring break and am bored so enjoy!
The group all stood around the curved glass table as they looked at the screen before them.
"London. The most surveyed city in the world. Whatever Amanda has planned, she's not afraid of us, or anyone who's looking for that matter, finding out." Birkhoff said as he ran through various pictures of Amanda in dark alley ways and beaten down parts of the city.
"All the locations seem similar. Dark, dank, depressing. Not somewhere you'd expect to find Amanda." Owen said.
"Yes, definitely not a place she would go unless she had to." Said Nikita.
"Michael what are you thinking?" asked Ryan. Michael had stayed silent through all of the presentation and had a grimace on his face as he inspected the images in front of him.
"I'm thinking MI6." He said as he turned away and clenched his human fist.
"MI6. Yeah, it makes perfect sense. She probably drained the resources of Gogol and now she needs fresh blood. She probably plans to infiltrate MI6, turn a bunch of agents and replenish her supplies." Sean piped in.
"Wait a minute, why jump straight to MI6? There are tons of gangs, mob members and others of that sort in London that Amanda could probably hire for mercenaries. Why would she try to corrupt government employees?" Ryan asked.
"Because corrupting government employees is so hard?" Alex said sarcastically.
"I've been monitoring MI6's movements since our last trip to the U.K. and I know that all those places that she's visiting are MI6 safe houses. That's why I know it's MI6. I mean it's a solid plan. After she rubbed noses with the CIA she can't exactly put another sleeper in place for a while without getting caught, so she goes to the next biggest intelligence association in the world and goes from there." Michael said.
"Why have you been surveying the operations of MI6?" asked Ryan.
Michael grimaced, anticipating the question but still hoping it didn't come. Alex noticed his wary glance at Ryan and then Nikita. Interesting, even Michael didn't fully trust Ryan anymore. Alex knew why he was watching MI6. Max and Cassandra, Michael's son and an ex fling from a past mission, were on the run from MI6. Michael was watching to make sure no one knew anything they shouldn't so that Max and Cassandra could stay safe.
"It's personal." Nikita supplied as she put her hand on Michael's shoulder only to have it gently shrugged off as he turned to walk out.
"Hey man, where you going?" called Birkhoff after him.
"I have to check on something." Michael called back.
"Okay. Sonya and Birkhoff try to pinpoint exactly what it is that Amanda is doing, and if Michael's right, who within MI6 she has already gotten to. I'll send warning to MI6. You four get ready to go to London, we need eyes on the ground as soon as possible." Everyone nodded and headed out in separate direction.
"Hey Sean wait a second can I talk to you for a second?" Alex said as she stopped him with a hand on his shoulder.
"Of course, what's up?"
Alex looked warily around her and saw Nikita from the corner facing Owen but still watching her from the corner of her eye.
"Not here, follow me." Alex led him back to their shared room.
Since Sean couldn't go topside, and Alex had to play the part of the devastated girlfriend, she had sold their apartment in the city and moved most of their stuff down to her old recruit room that she now shared with Sean. It was more convenient to be down there anyway, always ready for any call that came in and she could avoid all those pitying looks from her neighbors that she kept getting after Sean's announced death.
Alex lead him into the room sat him on the bed and closed the door behind her, but stopped and leaned against it for a moment as she tried to slow her heart beat that had once again began thumping in her chest. Sean immediately noticed her distress and got up from the bed and grasped her shaking hands in his.
"Alex are you okay? You're shaking." She looked up at him and he saw a few tears building up in her blue eyes. She quickly bit her lip shook her head that she was fine and moved past him to the drawer where she got out the item that she had shoved there earlier.
"I'm sorry Sean. I'm so, so sorry….I know this is probably the worst thing that…I just….I'm sorry…."She rambled on as she turned around and showed him what was in her hand.
He stood there, eyes wide, stock still, and stared. He looked as if all the breath had been knocked out of him.
"Sean?" Alex asked very scared of his reaction.
"Alex is that a….is that …What does that mean?" He finally seemed to be able to find his voice.
"It means that I might be …pregnant." There she said it. The word. So full of meaning, of change, of ….what else she didn't quite know yet.
That finally seemed to wake Sean up and bring him back to his normal self.
"Wait, what do you mean 'Might be'?" He asked looking confused.
"Well, I mean it's only one home test Sean. These things are not one hundred percent accurate, and I can't really just go to any doctor off the street. Not to mention I doubt medical here is equipped for this sort of thing." Alex said.
Sean sighed and sat down on the bed and put his face in his hands.
"Listen I know this is the worst timing for this sort of thing, and are lives aren't exactly conducive to a happy healthy life but…..if this is real…and if you want to too…..I'd like to give it a shot." There she said it. He deepest desire, to live a happy, normal life. This definitely wouldn't make her life normal by any means, but starting a family with a man she….loved, that was a start.
She really did love him. Not in the way where she looked up to and somewhat liked Thom. Not in the way she had a passionate, and yet false relationship with Nathan. No, she could, and did, manage to leave those men in her past and move on. But without Sean, she knew she wouldn't quite be able to put all the pieces back into place.
A smile began to slowly grow on Sean's face, which in turn caused Alex to smile.
"So a baby huh?" He said as he looked up at her with a small smile.
"Does this mean you're not upset?" Alex asked still a little nervous of his answer.
"No, I mean we have really shitty timing, but other than that it's…..it's perfect." Both their smiles grew and Alex moved from her spot against the wall to Sean's lap and pulled him into a hug. She put her face in the crook of his neck and breathed in his scent, never wanting this moment to end.
"How did this even happen?" Sean asked.
"I think you know how this happened Sean." Alex said with a small laugh as she pulled from his body and looked at him with a smirk. He laughed too.
"No I understand that, I just mean we were always careful about protection."
"Not always. There was that time when you first came back. I remember a distinct lack of preparation that time Boy Scout. Not to mention the various meds we were on and no one really knows all the side effects of Sobelex yet so….." Alex stopped dead as soon as the words came out of her mouth. No, she had always been so careful. How could she have let it slip just like that?
"Sobelex? What's that?" Sean asked. Alex quickly got up from Sean's lap and turned away from him so he couldn't see the guilt in her eyes.
"After…After I got shot I …I just needed something to stop the pain so that I could do my job so I found a pain killer in medical and …it helped so I just kept using it until Michael found out and …But I haven't used anything in months! And it was just one slip it didn't mean that…" Alex was wringing her hand and pacing back and forth in front of him not once stopping to look at him.
"Why am I only finding out about this now?" Sean asked with a hint of anger leaking into his voice as he to stood up from the bed and put his hands on his hips.
"I hadn't been using for a few weeks by the time you came back so I thought it didn't matter." She said the tears that had built up before came back with a vengeance.
"How come you didn't talk to someone before it got to that point, like Nikita or you could have called me!" Sean said slightly louder than he intended to.
Alex scoffed at that.
"I can't talk to Nikita about anything anymore. And I did call you but you never answered you're damn phone!" Alex yelled back.
Sean immediately noticed how distressed she was and the anger quickly faded. He stepped forward and wrapped his arms around her as he held her tight.
"Hey, hey, I'm sorry. It's alright. Listen I'm never going to leave again. I'm going to be right here unless you want me to go, and even then you'll have to use all of Division and then to some to get me to leave you." He whispered into her hair as he held her.
"Not that you could go anywhere, since you're dead and all that." She whispered back with a slight sniffle.
"I wouldn't want to even if I could." He reassured her. "It's never been so easy to rattle you before, what's up with that?" He questioned with a smirk.
"Hormones. " She joked back.
"Oh this is going to be an interesting experience." He smiled broadly and then he kissed her on her forehead and pulled her even more tightly into his arms.
An interesting experience indeed.
