Love and Life

Here I was, laying next to the man I loved. I was on my back under the blue and gray plaid comforter and staring at the ceiling. My eyes wandered finding small shapes in the popcorn texture. Pictures filed through my head as I thought about when my sister would fangirl over how cute my best friend and I were. My ears would want to burst but my heart soar and a jubilant sound would come from my mouth. He and I would laugh it off and get back to our tasks, but deep down we knew that every little squeak urged our feelings to surface.

My stomach filled with butterflies as I thought about our first kiss, my first kiss. I recalled how much he apologized after I told his as such, in the end I simply shut him up with another. I had to refrain from giggling when my mind wandered to when he asked me out for the first time, to when he asked me to be his girlfriend. He was so nervous I had to say yes several times before he called down and realized what I had said. It was almost the same for when we got engaged, when he heard me say yes he picked my up and swung me around in a circle before giving me the most emotional kiss in history.

I then went to our wedding, my dress was a pale blue, but that didn't last long for the pink frosting from the cake stained it slightly. Then to me telling him I was pregnant, his eyes had grown large and when he looked at me they were filled with tears. We both wanted kids so this was an amazing feeling, but not as wonderful as the feeling of when dear Alicia Lilly was born. The moment when her ice blue eyes looked up at me in wonder was...oh it's hard to describe. Though it was hard to see through the joyous tears streaming down my face.

On her second birthday I was happy to announce that her sibling was on their way. I didn't know if I'd ever see my husband so happy. When Parker Liam was born I looked over at my sweetheart and saw nothing but the happiest of emotions spread across his face. My next pregnancy was twins, Brook Ellie and Roland Killian. They were a joy to our family of four now turned six. The twins were six Alicia and Parker were eleven and nine when I noticed God was blessing me with another child, Eliza Bell. Our family was the best I could ever have hoped for.

At this time Alicia is sixteen, Parker is fourteen, the twins are eleven and Eliza is five. I can't express how scared I was when my two eldest started driving, but I think that is every mother's fear. The twins are amazing students, even with all their gaming time, and my heart fills with joy to see Eliza still enjoying her childhood.

I turned over onto my side and looked right into those beautiful blue eyes that I loved so dearly. I cuddled up to my husband of eighteen years and only one thought crossed my mind now, and I had no doubt about it. I love this man.