Was that my voice! Did I just say that! Did I just talk to him! I looked over at Alice and she was staring at me with her mouth hanging open. So that was me who said that! Hopefully she wouldn't act like it was a big deal so he wouldn't know that he was the first person I talked to besides Alice for three years. I looked over at him and he was smiling. I guess he already knew it was a big deal by Alice's face.

I pulled Alice's arm and I practically ran from the table dragging her with me. When I got far enough I let her go and faced her.

"Wow! Do you realize that you just talked to someone besides me!"

"I don't know what just happened back there. I just said it. I didn't even think about it."

"Wow!" she said again, "I am totally coming over your house tonight! We need to talk as soon as school is over. Okay?"

"Um...Sure."

I couldn't even think clearly. I was even more confused then I was before. Was that even possible? The bell rang which meant that lunch was over. The next two classes went by in a blur. Why did I talk to him? Some part of me was mad at myself because all of the deal I made with myself on not talking to anyone for three years was ruined. Another part of me, though, was happy! After three years of pushing people away it actually felt nice to talk to someone even if it was just two words.

Finally, the bell rang and school was over and I went to my car. I had to wait for Alice so I leaned against the driver's side.

"Hey."

I gasped and whirled around and my hand flew over my heart.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to scare you." He was leaning against my passenger car door. Again his voice and face sounded and looked so worried as it did before. Why not? I thought, I already talked to him once.

"No problem." I said quietly. It was so weird talking to someone that wasn't Alice.

"I thought you didn't talk to anyone?" He asked smiling. Like he knew that he was special, which apparently he was. I just didn't know why.

"Yeah. I thought that too." I mumbled to myself.

"Well, why are you talking to me?" His face was so interested, which was weird to me because I was the most uninteresting person on the face of the earth. Alice came up to my car with her mouth hanging open again staring at me. I sighed and got in the car hoping she would get in the car without saying anything to him.

Luckily she did get in right away. The car was silent until we got out of the parking lot.

"OMG! You have to tell me everything RIGHT now!"

"I'm still trying to figure it out, Alice! I just looked at his face and I just said things. I didn't even think about it! I don't know if I'm ready for this!" My eyes were getting teary. I have wanted to say things forever,but I didn't trust anyone enough to talk to them. Then this stranger comes into my life and I start talking to him.

I didn't know if it was him. Was he different then everyone else? Could I trust him? NO! I couldn't let myself hope. Maybe it was just me! Maybe since I haven't talked to anyone for so long that I needed to talk.

"We'll talk about this when we get to your house. I don't want to get in a car accident because your crying."She smiled. Trying to be nice, I guessed.

After I pulled into the long driveway she practically jumped out of the car before it even stopped. She was even inside before I could get to the door. The house was, as usual, empty. My aunt works a lot and she is never here. I think she feels sorry for leaving me all the time because she buys me EVERYTHING! I don't really mind being alone because then I don't have to feel guilty for not talking to her. I know she is probably hurting as much as I am. I mean she was her sister. It also hurts me to much to look at her because she looks a lot like my mom and every time I think about my mom I think about what happened and I haven't thought about that since the accident...

"Hellooo?" Alice said, waving her hand in front of my face. "Bella?"

"Huh. O, sorry!"

Somehow I had ended up sitting on the couch in the living room. This happens to me a lot. I think it's because I'm thinking so hard that I just move without giving myself permission to do so.

Without any warning Alice threw herself at me and hugged me and started to cry silently.

"Bella! I am so proud of you! I know how hard that must have been for you. I told you sooner or later you were going to end up talking."

Woah! I'm not good with emotional stuff. Especially crying. I only cried twice in my life as far as I could remember. And I never cried in front of anybody.Alice must have noticed my discomfort because she pulled away and wiped her eyes.

"I'm sorry! It's just that your my best friend and I want you to be happy like you used to be."

I sighed. We had this conversation before.

"Alice. Just because I talked to him once doesn't mean anything. I don't even know why I said anything to him."

"Well, obviously there has to be something special about him since you talked to him. Also, he's incredibly hot." She giggled.

"Don't you think it's weird? I mean, obviously he is hot, but he sat with us today instead of with the snobs and sometimes the way he talks makes me feel weird."

"Bella, your just scared that it might happen again. I think it's good that your talking to him."

I hated this conversation. We had a conversation like this so many times. You would think she would give up because I get mad every time we talk about it. I guess she's not afraid to bring it up because she knew I couldn't stay mad at her. Which made me even more mad.

"Gosh, Alice! How many times do we have to have this conversation? I don't want to talk to anyone! It would just make everyday a whole lot worse then they already are."

"Well, you talk to me. At least try to talk to him. You don't have to tell him what happened but," I cut her off.

"Stop bringing it up!" I screamed.

"I'm sorry."

She looked like she was about to cry. I knew she only wanted me to be happy but i was perfectly fine not talking to anyone.

"It's okay. If I talk to him tomorrow will that make you forgive me?"

She smiled.

"Yes! That would make me so happy!"

"Okay," I sighed. "But I'm not promising anything."

"As long as you said you would."

She hugged me again and I could hear her cell phone vibrate. She pulled it out and read the text and muttered something under her breath.

"Bella, I have to go. My mom needs help at home. Somebody's coming over. Yay." She sighed.

"It's okay. I have a lot to think about anyway."

When she went out the front door I ran up to my room and layed on the bed. Maybe I could talk to him. I mean, it would make Alice happy and obviously there must be something different about him because HE was talking to ME. He also left the snobs to come sit with Alice and me. That had to mean something, right?

I rolled over on to my back and sighed. I could talk to him but he would have to be patient with me because it would take me awhile to trust him.

Then the phone rang. My aunt had put a phone in my room in case of an emergency since I wouldn't talk on the phone any other way. My room was big. It had every expensive thing in it. My aunt was all about work and I think she felt guilty for leaving me alone all the time.

I looked at the caller I.D. The only way I would answer it was if it was Alice and if it was my aunt because she never calls.

The number was not familiar so I let it ring and the caller would get the answer machine.

"Bella? I know your there. Would you answer the phone, please?"

That couldn't be Edward's voice! I had to be dreaming. He doesn't know my phone number.

"I ran into Alice at the store. She told me that you would definitely be home and she gave me your number." It was like he knew what I was thinking.

Argggh! I knew Alice was trying to make me happy, but I was still to scared of getting hurt again.

The answer machine reached it's time limit because it beeped again. As soon as the beep stopped the phone started ringing again. After three rings the answer machine beeped. He sighed into the phone.

"Look, I know you don't like to talk but can you answer the phone then hang up so I know your there?"

I followed his directions. Maybe he would stop calling? Before I could get my hopes up the phone started ringing again. I groaned and put a pillow over my head and let the answer machine get it again.

"Thank you. Now that I know your there I hope you don't mind if I come by your house. I'll take you anywhere you want. And from what I saw at lunch today, your probably mad at Alice so I'll even take you over to her house so you can yell at her, if you want." I heard him chuckle then he hung up.