Chapter 1. Just A Dream- JJ
"And the guns rang out one last shot and it felt like a bullet to her heart." Carrie Underwood
Tragedy strikes when we least expect it. The team hadn't expected Foyet to find Haley in witness protection and they hadn't expected Will to flat line two days after successfully coming through surgery.
Those next days passed in a blur for JJ, when he'd left the police force and moved to Virginia, she'd allowed herself to stop worrying everyday, he wasn't in a position that could get him killed on a daily basis. As she made the phone calls, the arrangements, she found herself more and more unable to get through them without breaking. She'd always been level headed and able to hold it together, now her whole world was moving in slow motion and she felt like she was watching from a distance.
The day of the funeral she stood beside Spencer holding Henry in her arms, tears streaming down her face. It was so reminiscent of Haley's funeral, she wondered if they were all doomed to this fate, to watch the people they cared about suffer or die.
Spencer stayed by her side through most of the reception, handling anything that came up, taking Henry when he got fussy or tired. He hadn't pushed her to talk about how she was feeling like some of the others, he'd just been there, and she'd never been so thankful for him in her life.
Spencer
He was there the day Will flat lined, had been talking to JJ in the hall for just a minute when the alarms went off and the doctors rushed past. She'd clung to him as if her life depended on it as they listened to them try to resuscitate him. When the doctor came out and told her it hadn't worked, she'd collapsed in his arms, he didn't know how long he'd held her before she was able to go in and say a last goodbye to Will.
Afterwards, he'd done the only thing he could, not press her and help however he could, spending as much time as possible at her house helping with arrangements and taking care of Henry. JJ had always been like his best friend, he loved her and hated to see her in this much pain.
The day of the funeral was awful, he had no idea then what to do for her. He could see it in her eyes, a part of her had died with Will.
They were all wondering the same thing that day, the whole team, how much was this job going to take from them? Yes, they were catching the bad guys, but at what cost to themselves. Hotch's marriage had fallen apart long before Haley's death, now JJ had lost Will, even though he hadn't died as a result of their job, it had taken a lot of time JJ could have spent with her family away. Spencer wished he could take it all away from her, get rid of the hollow look in her eyes.
