a/n: here's ch 2! thank you so much for the feedback you guys, i really appreciate it. :) here's chapter 2. i hope you guys enjoy!


She's all settled in and back from dinner when she takes out her pearbook. It's her first night in her dorm, her new surroundings. Jade's still recovering from her jet lag and she hasn't decided if she likes her roommates or not. One is bubbly and happy and Jade hates happy but she reminds her of her best friend so she's on the fence about her. The two who share the room across from their common room she hasn't got to know yet which is fine by her because she's far from a people person anyway.

The city is so foreign to her and she feels so empty, somethings missing and when she sees an invitation for a video chat pop up on her screen from GotBeck she's reminded of exactly what it is.

Jade presses accept and pops her ear buds in, a smile appearing on her face as soon as she sees Beck. It's as if she hasn't seen him in years when in actuality its been hours.

"Hey beautiful."

She shakes her head. "Shut up."

He gives her a cheeky smile. "How're you liking it so far?"

"You're not here, what do you think?"
"Are you playing nice?" He asks knowing very well about her tendencies to not make the best first impressions.

"What's your definition of nice exactly?"

"Jade.."

"As nice as I can manage."

"Better than nothing" he surmises.

She gives him a tour of her room and the suite she shares with the 3 other girls. He even meets Ella, the brunette she shares her room with, who gushes to Jade about how cute he is and before Jade can threaten her life and tell her to never look at him again she shows her a picture of her girlfriend back home in Ohio. That's when Jade decides she's cool.

They chat until 6 AM Jade's time and she's practically falling asleep. She refuses to go but Beck finally gets through to her because she has to get up in exactly 3 hours for freshman orientation.

"I love you."
"I know" she laments with a pout as she rubs her tired eyes.

Scissorluv is offline.

;;

They text during the day and chat at night, both Beck and Jade prefer video chatting because they get to see each others faces and it soothes the aching in their chests they have because they miss each other so much.

The first two weeks are the hardest because they're adjusting to the change. Not seeing each other every morning. Beck not greeting her with a coffee and a kiss. Not sharing the same classes. Not spending afternoons and nights together. It's a stark contrast compared to their past but they're making it work as best as they can.

;;

Her roommates invite Jade to a party and she declines. They whine because she never goes out and Beck frowns hearing she's not socializing. Sure it's Jade but he at least wants her to be having the full college experience everyone has including college parties and having fun. The last thing he wants to do is hold her back from enjoying herself.

"You should go, you don't have to hang around them" he reminds her.

"I know but I'd rather be here with you" she shrugs not thinking it was a big deal.

;;

The nights that Beck goes out with his new friends, Jade stays up and waits for him. He tries to get home at a reasonable hour so they can still chat. She swears its okay because any time she gets to spend with him is better than none at all. She just drinks extra strong coffee the next morning and tries not to feel so needy. She misses her boyfriend more than anyone could know.

;;

Beck's pearbook dings with a video chat and when he accepts he sees the grin on Jade's face. He has to admit he's curious as to what put it there. Before he can ask she exclaims, "I'm going to be Wendla!"

During the 2nd week of classes Jade auditioned for the part of Martha in the theater department's fall production of Spring Awakening. She'd only auditioned on a whim and upperclassmen warned her she wouldn't get any part but she didn't care about what they had to say.

Instead she'd gotten the part of Wendla Bergmann, that was the last thing she'd been expecting. A freshmen hadn't gotten a lead on their first audition in years, as a result she's now the talk of the department. It's only a month into her 1st semester and she was already taking the school by storm. It's a nice change compared to always coming second place to Tori back in high school.

"Are you serious? That's amazing!" Beck says in genuine excitement because he knows just how much she'd wanted any role and getting the lead was quite a feat.

"I can't believe it, I thought for sure I'd get Martha but Wendla?"

"I'm so happy for yo-"

"Who's that?" she asks cutting Beck off when she sees movement behind him in the RV. Her grin now replaced with a scowl and her happy tone gone as she leans closer to the screen to get a better look.

Beck turns around then back to his screen and shrugs, "It's just Aubrey."

"Just Aubrey?" Jade echoes, the name lingering on her lips and leaving a bitter taste in her mouth. She tries but fails at concealing her jealousy because she swore she'd work on that but there's another girl in his RV. Fuck that chiz.

"Yeah, say 'Hi' Aubrey" Beck calls out and Jade can hear her saying 'hi' in a happy tone. A little too happy if you ask her.

"And who is sh-" Before she can ask Beck is turning the laptop around where he sees a redheaded girl and another guy sitting on his bed, scripts in front of them.

"And that's Michael" he pauses a long beat, "Aubrey's boyfriend."

Jade swears she can hear the smirk on lips because by the tone of his voice she knows he is. It reminds her of the whole cheerleader incident their sophomore year in Hollywood Arts.

"We're working on a scene together for class."

And right then and there she has to admit she feels a bit dumb for jumping to conclusions.

"Say 'Hi' Jade."

She begrudgingly does.

;;

On their 5 year anniversary Jade wants to cry because she wants to spend it with her boyfriend but instead she's stuck all the way across the country. That night is the first time they fall asleep together during a video session.

;;

It's Thanksgiving break and Jade goes home for the first time since August. He picks her up in the airport and they don't leave each others side the whole holiday weekend. Their Thanksgiving day consists of Chinese food and a Godfather marathon. Beck buys them a pumpkin pie to make it feel more like the holiday, she hates pumpkin pie but she eats it anyway.

They turn off their phones and shut themselves out from the world because it's been months since they last got to physically touch each other. Nothing exists during that weekend but them in that RV.

It hurts them both when she has to leave but he reluctantly lets her go when they're at her terminal.

;;

It's Spring Awakening's opening night and Cat and Robbie drive up to see her. Her rendition of 'Mama Who Bore Me' gets a standing ovation. Everyone's talking about her performance when the final curtain drops. Robbie records the whole thing at Jade's request.

Jade goes to dinner with her two friends but skips out on the cast party to celebrate such a strong opening and spends the night with Beck watching the performance. He can't help but tell her how mind blowing she is and then realizes that she should be celebrating.

Beck gets the sick feeling that maybe just maybe he's holding her back and keeping her star from shining as bright as it can.

;;

Finals have come and gone for Jade and she takes the first plane back to LA. She decides to skip out on end of the semester activities because really the sooner she can get back home to her boyfriend the better. Before they know it she's home for winter break. Once again they're inseparable.

;;

After exchanging gifts they spend Christmas together with a large pizza and Full House marathon. As usual Jade protests but she cuddles up to him and watches because she'd missed this.

;;

It's New Year's Eve and they're back at their spot by the Hollywood sign, sitting on the bed of his truck, arms wrapped around each other. This time they aren't alone. Cat and Robbie are sitting on the hood of his car, her head resting on his shoulder and hands entwined. Tori's head is In André's lap as they lay on a blanket on the ground. Music is coming from the speakers of André's car.

It's like old times, passing freshly rolled joints between each other and reminiscing about old times and sharing new experiences.

Cat glances at her pearphone and squeals, "Guys! One more minute!"

Beck and Jade hop off the truck, followed by Cat and Robbie who go around to the front of the car and take out bottles of champagne (one for each respective couple). André and Tori get up from the ground and join their friends as they stand, staring at the city below them.

"10.. 9.. 8.. 7.. 6.." Cat and Tori count down excitedly.

Beck tightens his arms around Jade and she wraps hers around his neck.

Robbie passes the bottles around before taking Cat in his arms and giving her an eskimo kiss, causing her airy giggle to fill the air.

Tori pulls André close and presses her forehead against his.

Everyone chimes in this time. "5.. 4.. 3.. 2.. 1"

"Happy New Year!" Cat shouts before pulling Robbie's lips to hers.

Beck kisses Jade deeply, as he holds her close. Everything dissolving around them as if they're the only two there and nothing or no one else exists.

Tori and André share a kiss and he whispers "I love you" against her lips causing her to grin so wide and her eyes to shine so bright it rivals the fireworks that have started above their heads.

Cat squeals when she and Robbie break their kiss and bounces up and down excitedly.

They pop their champagne bottles and spend the night watching the fireworks. They fall asleep under the stars again. When they're awakened by the sunrise, they go out for pancakes as a group and Jade won't admit it but she's glad they haven't drifted apart.

;;

One night Beck takes Jade to a bar near the UCLA campus that doesn't card anyone. It's karaoke night and his friends are there. When they meet her they all say the same thing "He can't stop talking about you." She's her usual self supplying endless rounds of biting sarcasm. They actually like her, that's new.

Beck takes the stage, usually he's not a singer but with a handful of beers in his system that easily changes. Their table is front row center and he looks right at Jade.

"I wanna dedicate this to my girlfriend of 5 years" his friends hoot and holler around her as does the rest of the bar. Jade fights the smile on her lips as he starts to sing.

There are things in this world that I don't understand

Like love, war, gravity or the lay of the land

But all of these remain mysteries

One thing is for sure, you are worth living for

The music begins and she watches him, the whole time his eyes never leave her. He's singing right to her and she fails to notice the fact that there's now a spotlight shining on their table because she's so into his performance. He's so getting laid the second they get back to the RV, if she decides she can wait that long.

One thing is for sure

He steps to the end of the stage and reaches his hand out, which she gets up and takes. He pulls her up onto the stage.

You are worth living for

She pulls him into a kiss, making him drop the mic. Everyone cheers but it's drowned out by their heartbeats beating together and it's so loud in her ears.

"I love you" she mutters against his mouth.

"I know" he smirks.

;;

Jade drags him into the mens room 5 minutes later. She's never good with self restraint, especially with alcohol in her system.

;;

They've gotten so used to being around each other that when the day comes that she has to go back it's a slap back to reality. That this isn't really her home anymore and this isn't her life like it used to be.

Before she leaves Beck makes her promise to stop giving things up because of him and she reluctantly agrees. Jade chalks it up to the ungodly hour and the fact she hasn't had coffee.

It hurts even more the the third time they have to part. (There's no way they're ever going to get used to this.)

;;