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Chapter 1 Revelations
Beastboy watched from the shadows in awe as Robin went through his workout routine quickly, panting heavily as he ran, jumped, and kicked at the large red and black punching bag before standing with his hands on his knees, bent over as he gasped and shuddered with tension, sweat dripping from his forehead and long black hair steadily.
Then Beastboy jumped when Robin suddenly let out an anguished-cry, kicking out at the bag violently one more time before dropping to his knees beside it as he sobbed harshly, speechless at the older man's uncharacteristic show of emotion.
"Fuck!" Robin yelled, curling in on himself as he wept, shaking as he wrapped his arms around his knees where he sat on the floor alone.
So alone.
Then he jumped when he felt a hand touch his shoulder, his head turning to face whoever it was, gasping softly when he stared into Beastboy's face in shock before concealing his emotions quickly as he always did in the presence of others.
Even his team.
His white and black mask concealed his eyes, as always, so he had no way of knowing what he was thinking as he looked at him silently for a long moment before he spoke.
"What's wrong, Robin?"
"I don't know what you mean," he lied, denying him an honest answer.
"I'm not blind, Robin. I can sense your pain.. Please, let me help you. Let me in.."
Robin shuddered, pushing him away with a small sound of pain as he stood up abruptly, Beastboy standing as well, still watching him, relieved when the dark-haired man finally started to speak, though he could tell it was with reluctance and difficulty that he let it out.
"I… I'm lonely.. I came here to.. to try to find someone to spend my life with. Which I guess I did, because I found the Team, but.. That's not what I was looking for. I want.. I need more then a friend. I left my father's house to come here, and it's all been for nothing, because I'm still alone. I'm tired of being alone.. I can't take it anymore.."
"Oh. Okay," Beastboy said, looking embarrassed now as he lifted one green hand to scratch the back of his own head briefly.
"I'm sure that Starfire would be more then happy to-"
Robin scoffed softly.
"What?" Beastboy growled in response to the sound, annoyed since he was only trying to help him, watching him as the silence stretched almost to the breaking point before he answered with obvious reluctance softly.
"She's great, but… she's the wrong gender."
"Huh?" he asked him, clearly baffled.
"I like men, Beastboy."
"You mean you're-"
"Gayer then yellow buttons, yes."
"What's gay about yellow buttons?"
"They're the color of sunshine and flowers. How can you get any gayer?"
"Kittens wearing mittens?" Beastboy joked, trying to lighten the intensity of the mood that surrounded their conversation.
"Beastboy… Please don't joke. Not about this."
The green-skinned man was suddenly very serious. More serious then Robin had ever seen him before.
"I'm sorry, Robin. I.. I didn't mean to minimize your pain at all, but.. Humor is how I mask my own.."
"What hurts you?" Robin whispered in inquiry. "You're so strong.. I can't fathom anything getting to you at all.."
Beastboy smiled at him, revealing a single fang on one side, but his eyes were so wounded as they stared at each other.
"Why do you think I left my old team? I can still hear him. Inside my head. "Don't worry your furry little head, boy, we'll sweat these urges out of you. Like a disease. A horrible disease. Soon you won't even remember wanting to be with males. Now, give me fifty more push-ups." He hated what I am. Near the end.. He couldn't even stand to be near me. The others weren't much better. So I finally left."
Robin stared at him in shock, speechless for a moment.
"Are you serious? He actually said that?"
Beastboy nodded solemnly. "Yes."
"Wow.. I'm sorry.. I thought that I had it rough.. But at least I had my father. He's always supported my feelings and needs. I've never had a boyfriend to really test that, but I know that he would've handled it okay. He's always been amazing, the best father that anyone could ever ask for, ever since he adopted me. I know that I hurt him when I left, but I couldn't.. There's always been…something missing, you know?"
"Yeah.." Beastboy said softly. "I know…"
While they had been speaking they had unconsciously started to move closer together, closing the distance in the work-out room slowly, staring into each other's eyes.
Beastboy never broke their visual connection as he stopped right in front of Robin, reaching out to curl his green hands over the other male's slim hip-bones lightly.
He was surprised, and curious, when Robin shivered at his touch, making a soft sound deep in his chest, visibly trembling in a way that made Beastboy assume that, beneath his mask, his eyes were closing, wishing that he could see them open, see their unknown, beautiful color.
"You're so beautiful.." Beastboy whispered in Robin's left ear before pressing a kiss just below it gently. "I've thought that ever since we met, but now-" He placed one green hand palm-down over his chest gently. "-Now, this is what draws me to you.."
"My rippling pectorals?.."
"Now who's joking?" Beastboy asked him with a brief grin before shaking his head in denial.
"No, Robin. Your kindness.. Your heart is the reason that I love you."
Robin gasped softly, his mouth hanging open with the shockwave that his words caused within his slender body.
"You.. love me?.."
"Yes. I love you."
Beastboy was surprised when Robin grabbed him suddenly by the back of his suit, yanking him closer, a quiet whimper-growl sound escaping the black-haired man's chest as he shuddered and clung to him, his arms wrapping around Beastboy's neck as he buried his face in between his own left arm and that neck, trembling against him without speaking.
Beastboy felt a warm-wetness on his skin there, and the other male's shoulders were heaving up and down soundlessly.
"Robin?.." he said softly in inquiry, not wanting to say anything to make him pull away and bolt in reaction. "Are you.. crying?.."
"No. Yes. Fuck.. I don't know. I'm sorry. I just.. To hear someone say that to me.. I've been waiting for so long. So fucking long.."
Beastboy blinked, bewildered by his strong emotion in response to his words, wrapping his arms around his waist and holding him tight against his body, rubbing his lower-back to soothe him.
"Hey, hey.. Robin.. It's alright, baby-"
Robin's head jerked upward instantly at the endearment, and the skin below his mask was wet with his tears.
It was all that Beastboy had time to really register, because then their lips were smashed together, and Robin was kissing him.
It wasn't like he had fantasized about it being, but in some ways it was better because he was comforting Robin. Holding him, touching him, kissing him... And it was glorious, warm and gentle, though wet from his Leader's tears as Robin clung to him, sobbing as his pent up emotion and loneliness fell away with his teardrops, trembling as their lips met and separated, then met again repeatedly.
Robin groaned roughly against Beastboy's mouth, his breathing ragged and uneven as he attempted to get himself under control, but it was useless.
His tears had mostly dried up, but his breathing hitched again anyway in his chest when Beastboy's hands suddenly buried themselves in his dark hair with a tenderness that made him whimper and squirm in his arms in response.
"Beastboy?.." he whispered uncertainly.
"Yes, sweet Robin?" he asked him, raking his long fingers through the thick hair on the right side of his head to brush it back from Robin's face gently when he finally raised his head up to look at him.
"Can.. May I.. I mean, we don't have to.. But.. Can I stay with you tonight?.. Please?.."
"Are you asking me if you can sleep with me in my bunk bed?" he asked in surprise, slipping his other hand into the hair on the other side of his head when he tried to duck his head again in embarrassment.
"Yes.. I know that it'll be kinda cramped, but.. I don't feel comfortable with sharing my bed with you yet.. If you don't either, then it's okay.. I just.. I don't want to sleep alone anymore.. Not if I don't have to.."
"Robin."
"Yes?"
"Relax, please. It's okay. I don't mind."
"Really?.."
"Really. Come on."
Beastboy put his arm around Robin's shoulders, smiling at him, one fang showing as he led him out of the workout room to guide him to his room gently.
