Chapter 2 - Friends in Love

It was now Tuesday, I was arriving at school. My head was still filled with the conversation from the night before, I had been talking to Amanda about my past and moving on, and then she revealed that she was with Emma. When she told me it all started to make sense, the sitting next to each other more often, Amanda meeting her from lessons. I already knew Emma was lesbian as we used to be in the same form and were close friends, however it was a surprise that Amanda was too, a good surprise. I was so happy for them, so happy she trusted me enough to tell me. Amanda sounded really happy when she told me and she had found what most people spend their entire life looking for; somebody she could trust, somebody who she loved and loved her back.

When I met Olivia off the bus and walked up to the common room we talked as we waited for everyone to turn up. Zoe was the first to arrive, shortly followed by Amanda. When Amanda sat down I looked at her as if to say "I won't tell them" as she had asked be to keep her relationship with Emma quiet. As the day went on me and Amanda didn't really get a chance to talk as lessons were quite busy and when we weren't in lesson, I was teacher assisting.

It seemed like everyone had somebody now my two closest friends had someone, Amanda had Emma, and even though Olivia didn't yet have the boy she liked I knew it would only be a matter of time. Me had Olivia had been together just weeks ago, the boy was the reason we didn't work. At first I was upset but then I realised that he was what Olivia really wanted and at the end of the day I wanted her to be happy. We were still close, trusting friends, nothing else really mattered and I knew we had a friendship that would last, that had definitely been proven over the last couple of years.

When I got home that day I was feeling particularly lonely, however when talking to Jess that night I got a pleasant surprise. A few weeks ago she had turned me down but something must have been on my side that evening. She had changed to a maybe, I knew it wasn't a yes but at the same time it wasn't a no. Even though it was no definite answer it made me so happy, like my life was getting better and better. I already had all my friends back and now it was looking like I had a chance with Jess and that was enough to make my day, I had feeling for jess which a had for a while. It was only recently I realised what these feeling were. I had never been the best at these things but I was getting better, it was like everything was falling into place for the first time. If only I knew what to do with my chance with Jess. I had no clue what to say to her, I never had much confidence when it came to love but I knew I wanted to be with Jess. She was a good friend but I knew there was potential to be more, if only I knew how.