"Maura, I thought we were done. You said you didn't want moreā¦"
Jane walks back and forth repeatedly. Her fingers intertwined, her thumb drawing circles around her scar.
"I know what I said Jane. But the kids are growing up so fast and I don't know..."
Maura's on the edge of the bed, following her wife's movements with her eyes.
She has been meaning to have this conversation with Jane for a long while, but she never knew how to approach the subject.
"I know the kids are growing way too fast, but we can't just have another child every time we feel like we're losing them."
Jane lifts her head up and finds sparkling hazel eyes staring right at her.
"I don't want more kids because I feel like I'm loosing Bella and Noah. I want more kids because I have so much love inside of me that I want to share with another child."
Maura stands up and walks towards Jane. She snakes her arms around her detective's waist and kisses her neck gently. Jane shivers with the kiss and turns around to look at Maura.
"Are we ready?" Jane says and Maura can see that she's actually asking her.
"We've always been ready"
Maura smiles and kisses Jane lovingly.
...
"Yes! Oh my god, yes! But please, God, let it be a girl!" Izzy's voice is full of excitement as she throws her hands up in the air.
Maura glances at Jane, and both of them laugh at their daughter's reaction.
They get closer to the girl and the three of them hug. But they're soon brought back to reality by Noah's voice.
"So, mom's pregnant?"
The boy is standing by the door frame, looking down at the floor. His backpack in one hand and a basketball in the other.
Maura opens her mouth to speak but Jane cuts her off.
"Not yet, bug. We wanted to check with you two first. Your sister thinks it's a good idea and I-"
"Well, I don't" Noah says, dropping his backpack on the floor and heading to the kitchen.
Jane makes a sign to Maura, and she understands that she wants to talk to the boy alone.
The detective kisses her daughter's forehead and follows her son with a sad look on her face.
"Bug...What's going on? I thought you'd be happy to have a younger sibling..."
"I already have a younger sister, and she's a pain in the ass most of the time. And I already have to share your attention with her... I don't want another baby to take my place."
Jane can feel the hurt in his voice, and her heart breaks a little. He's so tall and big that she keeps forgetting that he's just a 12-year-old kid.
"Kiddo, we could never replace you, even if we wanted to." she takes a step closer "Your sister did not take your place and the baby won't take it either. I love you the same way I love your sister, and the same way I'll love this new little creature. Of course it'll need a little more attention, but we'll never leave you behind. Ever."
Noah finally looks at his mother. Chocolate eyes meet similar ones. He rushes over to Jane and throws his arms around her, hugging her as tight as a bear - something he learned from his Nona -.
They're so caught up in the conversation that they don't even notice Maura and Isabella standing at the doorstep.
"In that case, I'd love a little brother or a little sister" he grins, genuinely.
"It looks like we have all the approval we need" Maura smiles at her wife and son and soon the four of them are hugging.
"Hey bro, you said a "no no", so one dollar in the jar" Izzy says, teasing her brother.
Noah frowns immediately, but can't hide his playful smile. He pokes his sister's tummy and she squeals, making everyone laugh.
"I love you." Jane whispers to Maura
"I love you too"
Maura looks her wife from head to toe as soon as she gets back from the closet. Jane is wearing a light green T-shirt with a white tank top beneath it and her old blue jeans.
"Are you seriously going to wear that?"
"Oh, come on, Maur! What's wrong with jeans and a t-shirt?"
Maura puts her hand on Jane's hips and pulls her closer.
"It's just that we're doing it today and Dr. Smith's clinic is rather fancy and-"
Jane cuts her off before she finishes her sentence.
"Babe, I know that he's some fancy pants doctor, but I will not dress up to have my eggs collected."
She leans forward and kisses Maura's forehead several times, her hands on the doc's shoulders feeling her muscles tense.
"Everything is going to be fine. It's not like it's our first time, right?" Jane says, her voice reassuring.
"Right. You're right, everything's gonna be just fine." she grins.
...
Jane parks her SUV in front of the clinic's entrance and gets out of the car to open Maura's door. The blonde reaches out for her wife's hand and intertwines their fingers once she's out.
It's their third time there, but her anxiety and the butterflies in her stomach make it feels like the first time all over again.
They sit in the waiting room for a few minutes - though it seems like hours - as they wait to be called. Jane plays Candy Crush on her iPhone, celebrating from time to time when she moves on to the next phase, while Maura reads an article about Transvaginal Oocyte Retrieval.
The nurse appears out of nowhere behind the counter, holding a file.
"Doctor Isles and Mrs. Rizzoli, Doctor Smith will se you now."
Hey people,
Here's Chapter 2. I hope you enjoy it!
I'm having a hard time finding baby names that sound good with Rizzoli-Isles, so please send me suggestions.
Don't forget to review!
(I'll try to post Chapter 3 by the end of the week)
Xoxo
