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Keep an eye on me

Part two

I wondered how long it would take him to touch me, pull me into a strong embrace, I hoped it wouldn't take too long but he just sat there on the sofa drinking the beer that I'd just given him. Didn't he know the reasons why I asked him to come in, couldn't he see that I still wanted him so badly. I went over to him and sat on his lap, straddling him. He stared at me with a look of confusion; I could see that he was unsure of me. Last time I kissed him I conned him out of the deli. I gently touched his face; he looks at me so intently that it almost takes my breath away; it's as if he is looking right through to my soul. I lean in to kiss his full, soft lips and although it must have taken all his strength to push me away he did.

"Don't you want me to kiss you Brendan?"

I shouldn't even be here doing this, I had Doug, but when it comes to Brendan I just couldn't help myself. If he is so wrong for me then why does it feel so right?

"Is this really what ye want Steven? I won't be ignored after if we do this"

I hadn't even thought about afterwards, he must be going soft in his old age.

"I don't know what will happen after Bren; all I know is that I want you now more than I've ever wanted you"

That seemed to be enough for him, because the next thing I knew he had pulled me towards him, he hands all over me, his lips on mine, my tongue slipping into his mouth. We were here again, the place where it was perfect, just me and him. I start to undo his shirt; I can see his exposed skin, I feel excited, my whole body ached for him. I can smell his scent; no one could ever smell as good as he does. I kiss his neck and his nipples as he holds my head and grabs on to my hair. I love it when he does that. My lips find his again before I stand up and undress myself. I feel shy by how intense his stare is as he watches me get naked.

"Ye are beautiful"

His voice low and sexy, I could get off on the way he talks alone. How could I have even thought that I could live without this, without him? I get on my knees and position myself between his legs; I unbutton his jeans and pull them off along with his boxers. I admire him for a few minutes before I take him in my mouth. It feels so good hearing him moan and knowing that I'm the one who pleases him the most. He is totally smitten with me and I am with him. I could already taste the pre cum in my mouth and I wanted tonight to last so I re-joined him on the sofa.

"Shall we take this to the bedroom Steven?"

He didn't have to ask me twice. He pushed me on the bed and climbed upon me, there was no stopping him now, and his touch sent shivers through my skin. He is so eager for lustful play; it's like he doesn't know what to do first, but of course he does. He doesn't waste any time and he takes me in his mouth, licking and sucking, it felt so good. I tried to tell him to slow down that I was so close to cumming but he didn't listen, he wanted to taste me and he wanted it now.

I had tried to be in control this time but it never worked that way and Brendan was back to calling all the shots and rightfully so. Nobody could pleasure me the way he did, he loved to explore me every time. It felt amazing when he touched me, I couldn't get enough of him. As he started to finger me, I couldn't help but moan, he had a way about him, he totally got me, he knew exactly what I liked and what I needed even more than I did. My breathing started to change as he picked up the pace of his fingers going in and out of me. I have to have him, it's been too long.

"I need you now Bren"

He turns me over so I am on all fours, he enters me and I am in heaven, I am falling in love with him all over again. He is ravenous, filled with hunger and passion. He thrusts into me with such a force and I can hardly contain myself and my emotions.

"I love you"

I always want to say it when we are this way together, I feel truly happy with him right now. His movements become faster and I can tell he is close to exploding. He starts to moan my name and it turns me on so much. I touch myself while he explodes into me, bringing myself to a climax. I can tell he is as overwhelmed with his feelings as I am, we both never expected to be here again. He pulls out of me and rolls onto his back, he opens his arm for me to snuggle into which I gladly do, he looks so bloody gorgeous. He kisses me gently on the lips and I melt again.

"I do love ye Steven, I wanna be with ye for as long as ye want me"

I know this would hurt Doug and I really didn't want to hurt him but its Brendan I love, it's always been Brendan and always will be.

"Do you mean that Bren?"

"Of course i do Steven, ye are all i need"

I don't know if he meant it all I know is that I had to try, every part of me wanted him, there was nothing else I could do. I was totally and hopelessly in love with him. I would worry about Doug and everyone else tomorrow because right now Brendan and I had a lot of making up to do.

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