Chapter II: It got stronger, the sweet scent of yours
Weeks flow away, without me noticing them. I live in my own world, a world that I call reality, others call it a hallucination. They worry more about me, and even the usually so cold falcon is trying to understand my "state" like they say it. But I don't care. I just want to see my beautiful Phoenix, who – once again— is free, flying on the empty sky. I haven't written anything on my diary. Nothing since I got punished. But, no day is full with sorrow, when I know that he's watching. He is always near, giving me power to continue. He talks now. We usually talk so much when others are asleep. But after a hours talk, he kisses my cheek and says good night. And very next day, I see him, sleeping on the chair next to my bed. His skin glows like pure snow on the Russian morning, and it feels like the most fine wine. I wake him up. His eyes burn like fire, his sacred element, when he turns his eyes on me. His smile is gentle, innocent, and so beautiful, you look like an angel. I smile back at you.
My friends try to keep my mental state as a secret, they don't want that I get punish because of it. The fierce wolf is now more pale, and when he sees me, his eyes are full of sorrow, When the falcon sees me, he usually turns away, I see his body shaking. And the little one, when he sees me, he stares at me, our eyes meet and his look is full of worry and even anger. Anger towards my Phoenix, towards the things he did.
But I don't really care. All I need is he by my side. He is my star, he will always be. I can feel his warm hug, I can fell his fingers tickle my neck, kiss my cheek and whisper words to my ear: "I love you"
But sometimes he isn't happy, then he usually stands on the one corner of our room, Staring me or out of the window. That makes me sad too.
I snap out of my dreams, when the wolf talks to me. It's time to practice. I turn to him, I stand up and I walk pass him. Kai runs next to me, then he slows his running to a walk, so quiet that no one can hear it. He takes my hand and smiles. Today he is happy. I smile back at him. Then I turn my head towards others. They look nervous and unhappy. The falcon seems to be little down today. I don't say anything, he wouldn't answer anyway. The wolf stares at the ground, like he would wish that someone would just bump onto him. But no one does. Ian looks at me, with anger in his eyes. But the anger melts away, when our eyes meet. He looks like he is ready to give up and start to cry. But he doesn't cry. Not here, not now. Kai is only one who doesn't look at me weirdly. I wonder why. I look at him, I smile and I put my hand to his shoulder, but someone puts my hand back to my pocket. The wolf's, Tala's, look is angry, full of anger and fear. He opens his mouth, and talks and his voice is low, like it always is when he is angry:
"Don't do it here! Do you want to get us into trouble, or worse, yourself?"
I stop, I look back at him, and my face is innocent: "I can't help it."
Tala growls when he walks pass me, once he gives me an angry glare, then he orders us to keep going. We do what he says. Kai turns his head towards me, and he looks at me with a worrying look. "What is wrong with Tala?"
I shrug but I don't say anything. The wolf turns his head towards us now and then, glares at us with anger in his eyes. But I see something more in his eyes –fear, worry and sadness—, turning down the anger.
Kai cuddles to my arm. Ian walks on my other side and he stares at me.
"If you don't stop that staring, you're going to hit your face onto something" I state to him, not bothering to look down on him. He turns his head, stares at the ground. He has an annoyed or maybe an embarrassed look on his face. He has a light blush too.
Tala pushes the door open, and we step inside. Kai let's go of my arm and he stay by the door. We're like hypnotized when we practice, our only goal is to win our opponents. But I can't concentrate, my look is wandering to Kai, he smiles to me and I can't help myself and I smile back. Suddenly others stop and I turn my head away from Kai, to only notice that Boris is standing right in front of me. His voice is cold like his eyes are mean.
"What is so funny?"
"Nothing, sir." I whisper and I turn my face away from him. He repeats his question but I don't answer.
"Answer."
"I- I was just… Just thinking about beating that guy" I lie and I point one guy, near me. But I don't imagine that I really would have to fight with him. But I have to. I can't concentrate, because now I see Kai perfectly. My thoughts wander to him, he smiles to me and he puts his thump up for luck. I didn't smile to him, but my eyes tell the words to him. He smiles even more. Then I hear a loud 'clang!' when my Seaborg hit the floor behind me. My face was pale as I turned towards our coach. I hear the falcon swallow. Two guards drag me away and then I'm thrown into a empty room after getting an injection.
(Author's note: Do not read this paragraph if you see nightmares easily)
My mind is messy, I see people around me. They're scary and they threat to hurt me. I step a one step back. But their threats don't have any effects. They hit me to my stomach and they go away, promising that they come back. I sit to the floor, because I know that I can't get out anyway, since there's no windows and the door is lock. It's totally empty room, there's no light, food or even a place where to sleep. Suddenly I hear a quiet 'click' when someone opens the door. I stand up, I stare at the door. My face is pale now.
"M- Mother? Sister's! D- Dad! And… Oh no, not you! Not you!" I yell in fear, as I see my stepfather in front of me. A person I hate the most. All those painful memories fill my head. I remember how he used to come so close when sister's went to the shop and mom was always so sick she couldn't rise from the bed anymore… That son of a bitch came so close, too close! How he pushed me to the bed and hit me and took off my off my pants and hurt me… Because of that I was always full of fear when my sister's, Anna and Nadja, went out. I never knew my father, he died when I was two, but mom says that he was a great man—
I snap out of my memories when I feel something cutting my flesh.
"A-Anna! What are you doing!" I yell and I stare at the kitchen knife that cuts my arm's flesh. I hear a loud bang and then a bullet –that my dad shoot— bite into my right shoulder. I shut my eyes and I hear how my blood hits the floor. I open my eyes again. Then I feel something hit my face so hard that whew of my tooth breaks. I think I swallowed one too. I turn to look who hit me. My mother stands there, proud and strong, without any markings about illness. And she carries a heavy and bloody steak hammer on her right hand. They step closer and I take a step back, until my back hits the wall.
"You can't do this to me! I'm your child! I'm your brother!" I cry to them but they don't say anything. Then Nadja comes closer, pulls me from my ear and whispers: "Yeah, but you left us. We couldn't survive on our own you know…" Then she cuts my ear with scissors! I yelp and I clap my had on my ear. It's bleeding so much. I stare at my hand, that is now painted red from my blood. Then Anna moves fast and I feel pain beaming from my thigh. I look down to my trembling leg. My own sister hit a fork into my thigh! I'm so shocked that I can't even yell.
"Why don't you yell?" my mother hisses. Then I realize that my father and my stepfather aren't there. Then the door opens and they come in and they drag someone with them.
"Kai! Kai! Get away from them! Get away from them!" I yell to Kai and I try to run to him, but my sister's block my way. They hit and slash and hurt my beautiful phoenix, I see his flames go out little by little. I fall to the floor and I cry. I don't want them to hurt my phoenix, my hope, my meaning of life. I try to yell them to stop, but nothing comes out of my mouth. They laugh and my phoenix screams in pain. His sad voice tears my heart. He rises his head and he gives me a pitiful, sad look. He screams even more, when they hit him. My family laughs and yells awful words. I stare at them and I see how my phoenix's hurt body falls to the floor, unable to move.
"Well, this isn't enough? Where's the last drop, boy?" My father asks from me. I can't say anything, when he lifts Kai up from his hair. I stare at them and body shakes.
"No… Don't. Don't do it…" I pray from them, when my father points at my phoenix with his gun.
"The last drop." He whispers and shoots trough Kai's head! I yell in pain when I watch him, my dead phoenix, falling slowly to the ground. Quietly, my family disappears like ghosts. I run to the phoenix's body, I hug him, I kiss his face and my tears wet his face. Suddenly he moves. He takes the fork from my tight and hits it in my face.
"Why didn't you do anything! Why did you leave me to die?" the phoenix yells at me when he stares how I die.
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"Sir, I think the drug's affection have stop. There's something wrong in that boy. He still screams that boy's name. That one who made a suicide." One of the professors whispers.
"Take him away, we don't need him here anymore. Take him to his room." Our coach said and whew guards drag the panicking and madly yelling blond away.
"Sir, we assume that this boy might not be stable… Mentally." The professor whispers but he is left without answer.
The guard leaves me to our door and looks at me weirdly. I sigh and I step inside. The wolf stands up and walks to me. "What did you get?"
I don't answer, I just sit to my bed. "Where's Kai?"
"Don't start that again. What did they do to you?" hestates and sits right in front of me. The falcon sits next to me and whispers:
"May I… May I look at your arm?"
I don't react. The falcon speaks again: "I take that as a 'yes'"
He takes off my jacket and my shirt. He looks carefully at my arms and then he strokes my hair.
"You have gone trough much I assume. They gave you that drug that gives scaryhallucinations, did they?"
I nod: "Where's Kai?"
"He's not here. You know it already. He's de—"
"He's NOT dead! He's not dead! He's not… He's not dead…"I yell and I fall to the floor and I cry.
"He is dead and he can't come back! Hey, we miss him too, but you have to move on!" the wolf yells and hits my face.
"I can't…"
Then someone opens the door and Kai comes inside. He is heavily bandaged and he has poor look on his face.
"Kai! You're back!" I yell and I run to him.
"Yeah… I was in a punishment, sort of the same like you were." He whispers and he hugs me tightly. "I love you."
"I love you too" I whisper and I put my hands behind the beautiful, reborn phoenix's neck.
"Oh sweet God of heaven, not again…" Ian whisper's when they look how I hug a thin air.
Sakura wo Miro:
The second chapter of the oneshot that isn't a oneshot anymore. Please R&R
