Summary: Missing scene, what happens after Jack says: "Because we're about to be rescued."
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, wish I did though.
Previously"No it's not Carter because you're not just a little low on energy you can't hold your own weight off the ground. There is no point in working you're self to death to get me back to earth if you're dead when I get there!"
Jack couldn't have missed the tears a mile away even if he tried. Sam didn't know how to react when she felt his hands move one down her arm to her back and the other to her shoulder pulling her into his arms. So she did the one thing that made most sense to her. She held on to his T-shirt for dear life hiding her tear soaked face in his neck and hoping she would never have to let go.
Chapter 2Well apparently hoping wasn't enough to stop reality kicking it's way in. Sam could feel Jack starting to pull away from her trying to see her face. Sam however wasn't ready to pull away yet and snuggled further into his arms refusing to be moved.
Jack could feel the tight grip around his waist and realised it would probably take a small army to loosen it. Jack deciding if he was going to have her snuggled in his arms he would rather be sat down and comfy so he could enjoy it before his inevitable court martial.
Jack turned so he was facing the bed with Sam still in his arms and slid down on to it leaning on the wall. With their new position they both shifted. Sam now had her arm tightly over his chest snuggled up to his side with one of his arms wrapped around her shoulder and the other on her waist pulling her as close as humanly possible.
Sam could tell her face still had tears running down it. She could feel the slight tickle of the gentle liquid as it slid down her cheeks to her chin and then on to her T-shirt. She wasn't actually crying anymore but her vision was still blurry with the excess moisture of her tears. What was she doing? She was on a Tokra ship practically lying in her Commanding Officers arms… and she was crying. She felt the overwhelming feeling of mixed emotions as hundreds of emotions and choices ran through her head. Only one of them seemed like a reasonable option right know. Stay; stay for as long as possible, forever if you can.
She had made up her mind right then and there, no more staying in the room or hiding her deepest feelings from everyone around her. She wanted a life, a real life outside of work, beside team nights they didn't count. She wanted dinner at restaurants with only one other occupant, she wanted nights cuddled up on the sofa watching movies that nobody like's but watches them anyway because there classics. She wanted to be able to walk up to the man she loves and kiss him just because she feels like it. But she only wanted this with one person, could only imagine it with one person. . . And that one person was the man currently sat beside her, cradling her in his arms.
Sam sniffed into Jacks shoulder as she shifted her weight, snuggling into him. She could now reach her head up and rest it on his shoulder, Sam looked up at him to see his own eyes watching her with concern "This isn't fair".
Jack brought his hand up to her face, "No it's not fair," he whispered as he wiped away her tears with the pad of his thumb.
"Promise me that if god forbid I go missing again, you spend at least one night a week in your own bed at home and eat at least one proper meal a day" Jack pleaded with his eyes for her to agree but deep down he already knew he wouldn't be getting a straight yes out of her.
Sam looked deep into his eyes and saw the pain she had caused him staring her in the face. "I can't," she answered simply as if it was impossible (not that that would stop her). Jack sighed, he had expected as much "why not? Why can't you just leave you're lab once a week"
"Because my lab will be the only place I work from now on especially if you're missing"
Jack looked down at her with a look of confusion "what do you mean?"
Sam brought her hand up to caress his cheek with her thumb like he had done to calm heronly moments ago. "I can't do this any more, I can't go through the gate every week with the possibility of not coming back or coming back with you in a body bag or not coming back with you at all. I can't live with the possibility of dyeing without telling you how I feel… I can't move on and I won't and if the only way is to give up gate travel completely then I'll do it. I just know I can't live like this anymore"
Jack let out a sigh of relief or frustration, he wasn't sure "I'm not gonna let you give up you're job Sam" as she opened her mouth to protest he placed his thumb over her mouth to silence her "you don't need to, it would be pointless". Sam raised her eyebrows in confusion in a way that Jack found completely adorable, before she had a chance to ask the question despite his thumb he answered it for her. "I'm already retiring, and before you say anything I decided before you so you can't argue with me. I decided on that moon. I was sat on the dock by the lake you saw when you picked me up…" He stopped when Sam raised her eyebrows in confusion. "What lake?"
"The one right next to the camp you found me at" When Jack saw no sign of recollection on her face and she still looked as confused as before he carried on explaining. "It was right next to us when you picked me up" Sam seemed to understand what he was talking about after that. "I never noticed a lake..." when Jack looked at her with a slightly worried face she couldn't suppress a giggle "I was a little distracted, I barley noticed the camp" Jack was amazed. How could a mess like him distract this brilliant woman when there was a gorgeous lake right in front of her? When Sam looked up at him with an expecting look he got over his amazement and carried on his explanation. "Anyway I was sat on the dock and I remembered my cabin up in Colorado and I couldn't stand the thought of never being able to take you up there" he caressed her cheek with the pad of his thumb again.
Sam kept eye contact for a moment before turning to face the floor. "I can't let you retire Jack" She turned back to him again looking into his sad eyes. "Anymore than you're gonna let me. You're needed at the SGC we all need you there." Jack shook his head "I could still be at the SGC as a civilian, just not you're commanding officer. If we can persuade Hammond to call in a few favours, I might even be able to stay on SG1."
Jack looked down at her tired eyes with hope. All she had to do was say yes. If it went wrong and Hammond couldn't help then he could still retire. Sam nodded her head as she snuggled back into his side. "Wow" she whispered, "I can't believe we're really going to do this"
Sam looked up into his eyes. "Well you better because you can't change you're mind" Jack said not even trying to hide the mischievous grin on his face. "You're stuck with me now, you're not getting out of this" it was more of a question than a statement.
Sam snuggled into his shoulder more "I'm ok with that" she replied, not missing the smile on his face before she closed her eyes.
"Good" he whispered to her whilst stroking her hair off her forehead. Unaware he was putting her to sleep. As her breathing steadied and his hand began to tire he felt for the first time how tired he felt himself. Closing his eyes Jack whispered five last words in her ear before he joined her in slumber. "I love you Samantha, always"
