I didn't know what to say to Aro, I wanted so much to tell him the truth of why I was hiding from him. He had noticed that I was hiding something from him, he wanted to know. But I couldn't help it, I would not be able to tell him. But I couldn't, I could not tell him that I loved him more the anything, something was getting in the way of that. I felt like the teenage girls that you hear ab out from the vampires that come in and out of the castle. The girls that know that they like someone, but they can never show it.
" Jane, we are going to be eating soon. I was making sure that you were coming on with us. Maybe after that would could have a chat, just you and I. Unless you are busy again." He smiled and gave his hand out for me. Oh no, what should I do about this hand.
" I will meet you there master, I am clearly not dressed for leaving my door. Let alone eating with anyone." His smile gave me butterflies, the kind that were not going to go away anytime soon.
" Well my Dear. . ." Why was he calling me dear, I couldn't understand that. " I will just have to wait on you. I will be waiting outside."
Aro walked out of the room and I sat on my bed for the longest time just thinking about the words that he had said. The way that they were wrapping inside my mind was hard to get around, the way that he was calling my Dear over and over again. It was the most amazing thing to feel, the most amazing thing to feel like he loved me back. I needed to get dressed into something more formal for killing and eating. Something that still made me seem like a lady from the Volturi but also something that was easy to eat in also. I slipped on a red dress, something that would catch up all the blood well, something that would be easy to hunt in, and some tennis shoes from my closet, carefully placing my diary back into it's place. I put on my red cloak and left my room where Aro was waiting, looking down the railing to the rest of the castle.
I was on the very top floor of the castle. It was an amazing view from here, you could see everything. With the big chapel window looking out from here you could see all of Volterra from here, you could see every little person from below, looking along and looking for places to go and people to see. I loved watching the humans, all of them so care free. None of them knowing that if they take the wrong tour that it will be the end of them. There was an amazing view, but you would have to almost lean over the railing to see most of it, which is where I fell once to the ground, over a hundred feet below me. I screamed to the top of my lungs the whole way down, I hit the floor on my feet, but then collapsed to the ground. The only people who heard me were Alec – who was in his room which is the only other room on the top floor and Aro – who had been somewhere in the castle and came running. I was okay, although my head had a bad ringing to it. Aro picked my up and had brought me back into my room, he wanted to make sure that I was really okay. He still thought of my as the little girl he saved from the people of my town.
" Master." I said softly.
" Hello Jane, the view is amazing at this time of day. The way the the sun hits off of the buildings, it tells you all you need to know about the day. That it will be time to leave from work soon, or that the sun is simply going down. You do have the most amazing view from here, you were always honest about that." He didn't look away from his place. " How I wish that I could go out there, to feel the sun again in public.
" Thank you Master." I said. " I also wish I could too." I mumbled.
" Please, you don't have to call me master right now dear." He said looking still straight ahead.
" Okay then, Aro." He smiled at this, his smile was light, but it gave me chills. " Why do you like having your room up here, so far from everyone else in the castle?" He asked.
" Most of the other people here either dislike me or are in fear of me. I would rather stay away from them as much as I can. There is nothing against them, I would just rather be alone in my room, or with my brother in his room then with anyone else. Then with anyone who does not like me or lives in fear of me- or my power." I said looking away from the view and into my own bedroom door.
" I do not fear you, nor do I not like you either Jane. I love to have your company around." He looked over at me. " Jane -" He was cut off.
" Brother. . . there you are. We are waiting on you." It was Caius, like always he had the ruin a perfect moment. Aro looks from me to Caius.
" Come Jane, dinner will not wait forever." He smiled and I follow both of them.
Dinner went well, it was a beautiful feast. Also, todays meal was filled mostly with young humans. I think that they were American because of all the salt they had in their blood system, most likely here on what they have as spring break. None of them would be going back home to their families, unless in a body bag. But then again their bodies would never be found, something that Heidi works best on doing, she can find a place where no one would look for a dead body. The night went well, I didn't get anything on my cloak or my dress. There were some minor problems with my shoes though, which Heidi picked up on the second she saw the stain marks on them and told me she would have a new pair for me within the week. I thanked her many times for that.
Aro did wait up for my like he said he wanted to. I didn't know why, but he seemed to really want to speak with me about something. I was worried that Alec had slipped up and told him about it, or worse that he had been touched by Aro without Alec knowing and now knew about my secret. But every time that we would have a moment alone, there would be someone to come and interrupt us, someone who would need something from one of us, sometimes both of us. Aro finally took me into the garden in the back of the castle, someplace that I did not see often. I went to the angel's trumpet first, some of the only flowers we had the bloomed at night. They made me think about myself, something that blooms itself fully in the night. Something that is different from most of it's kind. I loved looking at them, they were so pure and white, so beautiful in their own little way. I had planted them many years ago and every now and then would come out and just take in the nights air and watch my flowers. Aro followed slowly.
" They are beautiful don't you think?" I asked.
" Yes, they are almost as beautiful as you Jane." He smiled.
My heart fell to the floor, I couldn't believe that he had called me beautiful. He called me beautiful to my face, someone had called me beautiful. I was used to people telling me I was cute for the age that I looked, but never in my life- dead or alive- had someone called my beautiful. Now the man that I had a crush on, the man that I may love, called me it. It gave me the biggest butterflies in my life, it made my heart ache. I knew that he meant it only in a friendly way, but it made me feel like a person who had won an award. I mean Aro called little old me beautiful, he never says that to anyone, not at least since I've been a member of the Volturi. He smiled at me when he said it too, he never smiled when were working, well when theirs business to do at least.
" Thank you, Ma-" I cut myself off. " Aro."
" Jane, what are you hiding from me. You know I do not like secrets." He was serious now. " What is it that you are not telling me, it cannot be as bad as you must think is it." Oh how wrong he was there.
" Aro, there is nothing that I am hiding-" I was cut off by another person, saved by the brother.
" Master, there was guests here." Alec said.
" Very well then, we will continue this conversation later." Aro said, Alec and I followed him into his and the others. . . well office you could say. I pulled the hood on my cloak up, I wasn't in the mood for guests.
The Cullens had made a visit and told only Aro that they were coming. . . great. I knew that they didn't like me very well nor did they like most of the Volturi either. But I would like always have to keep my mouth shut about them. If the masters wanted them to be there then they would stay, if they didn't . . . then I would be having more fun with them then I would have ever expected. I had called claims on the Rosalie brat, while Felix claimed Emmett, Demetri on Jasper, Heidi on Alice, and Alec on Edward. I hoped that one day this would happen, for now we would have to play nice. All of them had their own bedrooms in the castle, well they had their guest rooms. Edward's was the floor right below me, he was the one that had no one with him right now, just like myself. When the meet and greet was done I went straight back into my room to write in my diary.
December 8th, 2010
Dear Diary,
He called me beautiful today. I don't know how to take it though, I don't know if he meant it was a friendly kind of way, like the way you would say to an old time friend to cheer them up, or in some other way. The way the he said it to me, the way that he looked at me I don't know. He also kept calling me by the title Dear, once he even called me My Dear. My Dear, those words, there missed placed. He had a wife, he had a life. I was not apart of it, but still I was his dear? I didn't mind, I just wanted to know about that also, what am I to him? Something that he has never done before, also he asked me to call him by his real name and not Master. When I am not working now I will call him by his first name instead of by Master. I've always known him though as just Master, calling him Aro is so off for me, it means that we are getting to know each other on a friendship level rather then on a workers level. Though friendship is not the same as lovers, it's still better then just being a guard to him. It's better then being a piece of this chess game.
He has been making it a point to talk to me more and more lately. He even came to my room today to make sure that I was coming to the meal today ( which was amazing, teen Americans. Yum!) and even had a little conversation with me after. He tried to take my hand too, which if we were humans once again would have been amazing, but I know that he just wanted to see into my brain. To see what I was hiding away from him. In my mind though he will always have asked me to walk with him down the stairs, holding my hand the whole way. It will never happen though, ever. But he wanted to know what I was hiding from him when we were talking outside. I know that I cannot tell him the truth, I know that he will never understand. Thank god for Alec, he saved my ass by coming in just in time. He will always be my prince in shinning armor, protecting my from everything.
Were going to be having the winter ball soon – it's the first ever and I have that night off. All the vampires from every coven will be there, it will be amazing. It was surprising to hear that I was going to have the night off though, I though that Aro would want me working that night. But me and my brother have the night off, he's going to be my date to the dance. Unless I can get him to say okay to going with me – but he will most likely be bringing his wife to it. I will be as dressed up as I can, mostly because he and the others said that anyone who was not working was welcomed to come to the ball. It was almost like he gave me the night of so that I would go to it. Maybe we will dance. I will have one dance with him, I will make sure that I get that dream dance that night. I've been dreaming about one dance with him from the moment I met him, I want to be able to have one private moment with him. The moment were are bodies are synchronized and were in the same motion. All I need is a little help picking out a dress with Heidi and some shoes to go along with it. She will be happy to help me out. . . I hope. I'll just tell he that I want to look good, I wont tell her it's for him that I want to look good for. . . I want him to be able to say that I look more beautiful then any of the other girls there, that I look more beautiful then Rosalie Hale- Cullen. I want him to notice me.
I will never be with him
I have to get that through my head,
one way or another.
-Jane
I ended with that, putting on a little white dress with slip on white shoes, and left the room. I needed to go and have a little fresh air, I left my diary out in the open, on the top of my bed, and just shut my door. I didn't need to lock it, there was no need that I would. No one, not even the Cullens would enter my room and not because it was my room either. I had a feeling that if he could that Emmett would be snooping through my stuff. Aro had made it clear to anyone that came into the castle that if a door was shut that you should always knock before entering, in no one answer the leave them alone. If you really needed them, like if it was a emergency then you may enter, but stick your head in first to make sure that you weren't intruding. Most likely because once Felix walked in on Caius and Athenodora. He told me that he needed to wash his eyes out with bleach and some acid to remove everything out of his mind that he had seen. It must have been that bad, thank god I didn't walk in on that. Funny as hell to hear about later though, Felix never looked at either of them the same. Ever. Besides who would want to come into my room anyways? No one besides Alec, who knew everything that was in that little book on my life. Alec was allowed to walk into my room when he pleased, I let him know it and also Aro know it so that he would not be punished if he did that. I went back into the garden to be with the flowers that I missed.
What I didn't know is that if you are a leader of the Volturi that you could go into anyones room and just read the diary as you wished. I don't know why he did it, I don't know if I ever will. I know that he did though. It was written all over his face that he had done it. But when I got back my room my diary was gone, and the scent of Aro was everywhere. The lovely scent that filled my mind as I tried to relax every moment I had alone. It was his scent. He had my diary and would soon know every little detail about my life, everything that he should not know about me was going to be in the open for him to read. Oh god where was Aro? I followed his scent back into the garden, through it and around the path and lead to the river that was near it. He was sitting there, his cloak sitting next to him, reading.
Aro's POV:
I could not believe my eyes when I read that book, from page one to the page she way one now. Most of the entries in her book were about me. There were talking all about me, how she adored me and she loved the things that I do. To her I looked like an angel sent from above? I was nothing close to an angel, never would I be either. The thing that she was hiding from me was the love she had for me? I had gotten to her last entry, the entry from today. I was shocked, she had so much dedication into me.
The little girl that I now saw as a young woman came from no where. I didn't notice that she had been coming, there was a pit in my heart that made it jump when I saw her there. She was wearing a little white dress that I had never seen her in before, she looked beautiful in it. It flowed around her as she moved, the wind was hitting it right right. Why was I feeling this sensation in my heart, this pounding that made it seem to be working once again? I closed the book before she could see where I was. That I had finished her life story, the story that was based all around me, that this girl that I thought of before this as a little girl that had a power that I needed now seemed to be a young woman who I didn't know what I felt about. Why did I feel this way, that there had been something missing in my life before?
" Master, what are you doing with my diary." Her voice sounded so different to me, it made what I thought of as a dead heart come to life again.
" Nothing Jane my dear. I saw this." I picked up her diary and showed her. " In you room, I thought it had been a good book that you had been reading and decided to take it for a little night reading. I hoped that you would not mind. Then I found out that it was your diary. I didn't ready any of it I assure you." I gave her a slight smile as she gave me one back. Why was she so much more beautiful now then she had even been in my eyes before?
