A/N I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING! I'm sorry this has taken me so long to get out guys. Thanks for such a great turn out. It really means a lot you guys like this story. I want to thank slytherensangel26 for giving me the idea of Tommy and Kim's plan. I also want to thank my beta TwilightElena for editing this chapter. I hope you enjoy this next chapter.
Kimberly arrived at the mall and instantly met with her friends. They went into all the clothes stores and shopped for a few hours. Things were going really well…one shirt was about to change everything though.
"Hey Kim, check this shirt out." Aisha said holding up a pink v cut shirt with the words "sexy body" written across the chest area.
"Oh…" Kimberly said softly. "It's nice."
"Come on, you should get it. I bet Tommy would die seeing you in it."
"It's not my style."
Kimberly turned back to the rack and continued to look at other shirts.
"Come on Kim, at least try it on."
Kimberly sighed. "If I try it on will you stop telling me to buy it?"
"Yes!"
"Promise me no pictures and secretly texting them to Tommy?"
"Promise!"
Kimberly thought about it for a minute. She'd try it on show her friends and change back. Then it would be over and she could forget about it. She took the shirt and went into the dressing room.
She removed her regular shirt and put it on the chair. She sighed as she looked at herself in the mirror. She still had so many physical scars that would never heal from her attack. It was part of the reason she was so scared of showing herself to Tommy. What if he thought she was ugly when he saw all her scars?
Shaking the thought from her head she put on the shirt.
"Ok, it's on." She said.
"Come out and show us."
"That wasn't part of our deal…"
"Kim!"
"Kimberly no one is around if that makes you feel any better." Trini said.
Kimberly sighed. No one had seen these scars yet and she wasn't confident about showing them off to anyone, including her friends.
"Come on, Kim, you have nothing to be scared of. It's just us."
Sighing Kimberly reached for the door handle and opened it. She wrapped her arms over her chest to cover the parts that were revealed.
"Ok, you've seen me. Can I change now?"
"No, you look great. Why are you so against it? You used to wear shirts that showed your stomach when you were a teenager back before you were…"
"Back before I was what Aisha? You can say it; I'm not going break down and cry just because you say the word rape. It's not like it's a bad word or anything."
"I think Aisha just doesn't want to bring up any memories." Trini said.
"The memories come even if I don't want them to. Now if you don't mind I'm going to change before anyone else sees me like this."
Kimberly turned to walk back into the dressing room.
"Kimberly wait!" Aisha grabbed her arm. "Please just buy it. You don't have to wear it but just save it for a night when you and Tommy get physical. I promise he will get so turned on just by the sight of you."
Kimberly pulled from her grasp and went back inside.
"Tommy and I haven't had sex yet." She said as she ripped the other shirt over her head. Tears filled her eyes. With her ugly body they never would. "So just leave it alone!" She put her other shirt back on and came out.
"I'm hungry. Let's go eat."
The girls sighed and followed her out of the store.
As they sat down to eat Aisha said "You and Tommy really haven't had sex yet?"
"No, we haven't been ready."
"He wasn't ready or you weren't ready?"
"Does it matter?"
"I'm just asking."
"I'm not ready and Tommy respects that."
"What about on your honeymoon?"
"We went down to the Angel Grove Park and watched the sun set by the lake We came back to the hotel and fell asleep."
"That's it?"
"Yes. We've agreed to wait for the right moment before we have sex."
"How long have you guys been married?"
"6 months. Our 1 year anniversary is coming up in another six."
"And you haven't even seen each other naked?"
"So, what's wrong with that?"
"Nothing."
Kimberly could tell by the look in her eyes she didn't believe that.
"No, it's not nothing. Tell me."
"It's just…"
"Just what? Say it!"
"Most people haven't been through what you have Kimberly. It's ok if you're not ready." Trini said.
"If I don't Tommy is going to leave me right?"
"We never said that."
"You didn't have to. I can see it in your faces. Look, Tommy loves me! He said he would wait for me and he's going to!"
"I just don't want to see you get hurt. I mean look what happen after you wrote the letter. He got together with Kat. What men don't get from their girlfriends or wives they will get elsewhere. In other words, what Tommy can't get from you he will get from Kat."
Kimberly stood up and grabbed her stuff before walking out the door without another word.
"Why did you say that?" Trini asked.
"It was just a little motivation."
"I think you really hurt her Aisha."
"She's fine. She knows I'm right."
"Are you?"
"Am I what?"
"Are you right? Do you really believe Tommy will leave her for Katherine if she doesn't have sex with him?"
"My ex-boyfriend left me because I said no to sex. He ended up getting together with my ex-best friend. I just don't want to see that happen to her."
"Tommy isn't like most guys Aisha. He'd never cheat on Kim."
"He's still a man Tri, he has wants and needs just like every other man. If he can't get that from Kim he will find it somewhere else."
Trini sighed. "I just really hope you're wrong."
Kimberly arrived home and threw her purse down on the couch. She wiped angrily at the tears of hurt that were spilling down her cheeks. She quickly went into the bathroom and tried to hide all the evidence that she had been crying. The last thing she needed was Tommy to figure out what happen.
Once she was sure she looked good she left the bathroom and went into the basement/lab/ game room.
All the boys were there playing video games. Tommy noticed her right away.
"Hey, Beautiful, I thought I heard you come in. How was the mall?"
Kimberly shrugged. "Fine."
"You're home early is everything ok?"
"Yep."
"Are the girls here?"
"Nope."
"Where are they?"
"Home."
Tommy paused the game and got up from his chair. He went over to Kimberly and wrapped her in a tight hug. He knew something was wrong when she was answering him in one word answers.
"What's wrong, my Beautiful Pink Princess?"
She hugged him tighter and buried her face in his shoulder. "Please don't ever leave me." She whispered so softly only he'd hear.
"I'd never leave you, Beautiful. You know that. Where did that even come from?"
Kimberly pulled back. "It's just today. I'm fine. I didn't mean to disturb your game. Go play, have fun."
Kimberly quickly went back up the stairs. Tommy sighed and sat down. "Something is wrong with her."
"How can you tell?" Adam asked.
"I just can."
"Yeah, even I noticed something was a little off about her." Jason said.
Tommy sighed. "Three years ago today Dan raped her. That's why."
Everyone sighed.
"So why are you here with us? Go be with Kim, she needs you." Jason said.
"She said she wanted to hang with the girls so I figured I hang with you guys. But something went on at the mall and I just wish she'd tell me what it was."
"I just don't understand, I mean I thought once she had sex with you it would erase all the bad memoires about the rape." Rocky said.
Tommy didn't say anything.
"You haven't had sex yet?"
"No, we haven't. Kimberly isn't ready."
"So, what happen on your honeymoon?"
"We went to the park watched the sunset."
"Dude, you've been together for six months. I think you're a little behind."
Tommy shrugged. "Kimberly hasn't been ready. I'm no better than Dan if I force her into it."
"Are you ready?" Jason asked. "I mean, it's a big step."
Kimberly was on her way back down but stopped when she heard Jason's question, secretly praying he'd say no.
"Yeah, I'm ready. But it means nothing if Kimberly isn't ready too. We have to both want this Jase, I'm not going to pressure her into anything. When the time is right Kimberly and I will do it."
"Have you talked to her about it?" Rocky asked.
"Yeah, on the honeymoon."
"Since then?"
"No…"
"Maybe you should try talking to her again. Maybe she's ready and just too scared to say anything."
"Yeah, I just walk right over to her and say 'hey Kim are you ready to have sex with me?' NO! I'm not going to do that. When she is ready she will come to me. I just have to wait."
"Yeah but how long? I mean six months is a long time not to mention your one year anniversary is coming up. Most couples have had sex millions of times buy now."
"So? We aren't like most couples! Plus just because we haven't had sex doesn't mean we don't do other stuff."
"Like what?"
"We make out."
"Does she let you touch her?"
"No."
The guys just looked at each other.
"What?"
No one said anything.
"Someone tell me now!"
"Look Bro, we just don't want you to get hurt. We know what you're feeling inside. We know you have needs."
"What are you my father?"
"I'm just saying I have some friends I can call that wouldn't mind helping you out for a night."
"I'm not going to cheat on Kimberly."
"It's not cheating. It's…doing yourself a favor."
"It's cheating Rocky and if you can't respect my decision to wait then get out of my house."
"Tommy is right, it's cheating. I wouldn't do it to Trini and I'm sure you wouldn't do it to Aisha so we can't expect him to do it to Kim."
"Yeah but…we're getting action …he isn't."
"It's not about getting action Rocky it's about showing Kimberly how much I love her."
"Yeah, but what about how much she loves you? What about trust? Did you ever think maybe she doesn't trust you enough? She broke your heart once Tommy, maybe she's just getting from someone she trust more." Rocky said.
"Who does she trust more than Tommy….and if you dare say me I'm going to hit you. We all know I'd never have sex with Kim. We're like siblings." Jason said.
Rocky shrugged. "Who knows? Maybe someone she met in Florida. My point is maybe Kimberly just doesn't love you enough to reveal herself to you."
Kimberly, who had been listening to this the whole time, couldn't listen anymore. She turned and went upstairs. She knew what she had to do tonight and she was going to do it comfortable or not.
"If Kimberly didn't love me she wouldn't have married me! I know Kimberly loves me Rocky! She loves me and I love her! Did you even think that maybe the reason she is so scared is because she was raped! Did you ever think that she fears doing it with me is going to cause her the same pain she once went through with Dan?"
Tommy sighed and lowered his voice. The last thing he needed was Kimberly to hear this.
"Rocky, she was raped man, raped. None of us can ever understand what that does to a person. She's moved on from it and gotten a lot stronger but it hurts you worse mentally. She never had sex before that. Think about it from her point of view. All her life growing up you learn about sex how good it makes you feel how much you connect with the person you do it with. How wonderful and magical it is, of course she planned on waiting until marriage, her father asked that of her. Then your first time it's painful and scary and you're paralyzed to stop him. You can't scream for help, you can't do anything accept wait for it to be over. Kimberly doesn't want to have sex yet because every time we get close she remembers Dan and gets scared of me. That's why we haven't have sex yet. Not for any other reason. I understand that. I'm going to wait until she is ready. Now, if you can't respect that, then that's fine. I can't force you too, but you need to leave because I will not have someone talking like that in my house. That's it end of discussion."
No one said a word. It was so quiet a feather could drop on the floor and it would sound like a sonic boom.
"Tommy I…I'm sorry. I never thought of it like that. I'm an idiot. I'm so sorry. Can you forgive me?" Rocky said.
"Yes, just please do not tell Kim we had this conversation. I don't want her to know."
"We won't say anything man. Now, we're going to go home to our girlfriends. You go upstairs to yours." Jason said.
Tommy smiled and nodded. Tommy walked all his friends to the door and said his goodbyes. Then he smiled and went upstairs.
He heard Kimberly in the master bathroom and called to her.
"Hey, Beautiful, everyone is gone."
"Everyone?"
Tommy looked confused. Why did she sound like she had been crying?
"Yeah, we're alone. It's just the two of us now."
Kimberly slowly opened the door and stepped out. "I-I…I'm ready."
She walked out in nothing but her robe. She was trembling from head to toe.
"Ready for what?" Tommy asked.
"To have sex."
Tommy was shocked.
"Look, I get it now and I'm sorry. I'm sorry I've been such a bad wife."
"What are you talking about Kimberly?"
"I understand now, women don't get to say no. We have to please our man when they want to be pleased so I'm sorry I couldn't give you that before."
Tommy walked over to her and looked her dead in the eye. "Kimberly Ann Hart, I don't ever want to hear those words come out of your mouth again. You have every right to say no. You do not have to please me to be a good wife. I don't know who told you any different but they are wrong. Now I want to the complete and honest truth. Do not lie to me. I will know if you do."
Kimberly looked away from him. "Of…of course I'm ready…why…why would you even have to as-ask that?"
Tommy gently took her face and made her look at him. "Look me in the eyes and tell me you're 100% ready, no fears, no doubts or anything. Tell me you're ready to make love."
Kimberly looked him in the eyes and she instantly broke. "I'm sorry." She whimpered. "I'm sorry I can't."
She quickly turned and ran back into the bathroom slamming the door behind her. Tommy sighed. He knew by Kim's behavior she had never been honestly ready. She had lied to him to make him happy and he hated whoever made her feel like she had to do that.
A couple minutes later Kimberly returned from the bathroom dressed in her normal clothes. She walked over to Tommy, who was sitting on the bed. She sat down on his legs. He wrapped his arm around her waist and kissed her head. "Talk to me, Beautiful, what on earth would ever make you feel like you had to lie to me about making love?"
Kimberly looked down as a tears slipped down her cheeks. She sniffed. "I'm sorry I lied to you."
"I just want to understand why you did it. Why would you lie to me at all, but even more to the point about something as important as making love? Please beautiful tell me."
"You're going to be angry. I don't want you to be angry with me."
"I'd never be angry at you, Beautiful."
Kimberly shrugged. "Not only with me…"
"Hey, we promised we'd always tell each other everything. Please don't hide from me, baby girl. I love you and I want to know what made you feel like you had to lie to me."
"Promise not to get mad at…the people who made me feel…this way?"
Tommy sighed. "You overhead us guys talking earlier didn't you?"
Kimberly nodded. "I didn't mean to ease drop but I just…" she shrugged not knowing how to finish.
"Kim, we're guys. It's just what we talk about. It doesn't mean anything. I know when the time is right we will do this for us."
"It's not just the guys. I got into with the girls at the mall. They're mad because I have slept with you yet."
"Hold on, Kimberly, our friends aren't mad. They may be feeling a lot of things but mad isn't one of them. Plus who cares what they think? It doesn't matter what they want or what they think. When we are both ready it will happen."
"But you're ready! You're just forced to wait because of me."
"Kimberly, you need to understand I'm ok with waiting. I do not want you to feel pressured or forced into making love with me. If I found out you did it just because you felt you had to, I'd never forgive myself. I'd feel like I'm no better than Dan."
"I just…I want to make love to you Tommy. I really do but I'm just so scared every time your hands are on me…they aren't your hands anymore."
"Maybe we should talk to Dr. Black about this. If it really means this much to you, I'm sure she can suggest something."
"I already did."
"What did she say?"
"She says we should slowly work our way up to it. Like every night take one more step. For example, one night you just touch my arm. We do that every night for a week. The next week you touch my arm and my neck, and then we do that for a week. Each week we add one more spot you can do and she said after some time I'd be comfortable again."
"So like, teaching you to feel comfortable with touch again?"
Kimberly nodded. "She said other people have done it and had great results. I thought maybe…if you wanted to we could…"
"Of course. I think that's a great idea. If you really want this I'm all for it."
"I really want this Tommy. Not because of our friends but because I'm tired of giving Dan all this power over me."
"That's my strong brave Pink Princess. Ok then, let's do it. I think it's a great idea."
"Can we start tonight?"
"Do you want to start tonight?"
Kimberly shrugged. "I did, until I remembered what happen three years ago today."
Tommy gave her a small smile and kissed her forehead. "We can start tomorrow night. It's no big deal."
Kimberly nodded. They shared a deep passionate kiss on the lips. Kimberly just hoped this new plan of theirs worked otherwise she was going to lose Tommy forever.
A/N next chapter is the first night to their big plan, do you think it will work? Also they tell their friends about their idea, how will they react. I want to thank slytherensangel26 for giving me the idea of Tommy and Kim's plan. I also want to thank my beta TwilightElena for editing this chapter. I hope you guys liked this chapter. Leave me your thoughts in a review.
