Like Father Like Son
Chapter 1
Abel pov
Today was like any other day. I woke up at the club house in my room there with some chick next to me from the night before. I get told I am a lot like my father, hell from what I can remember I am just like him. I have his long blonde hair, all the girls in my room. I do what I want when I want to do it. I cant even begin to tell you how many girls I been with, hundreds of them. I don't see faces, I just know i'm getting laid. I slid my arm out from under the chick and went out to the main room. Kenny was there. Kenny is Opie's son. He is my best friend their might be a five year age range between us but we're close. Just like our fathers, we have each others back.
"hey man" - he said
"how was your night? As good as mine?" I patted him on the back laughing. I sat down in the bar stool next to him. Ellie was there, Ellie is Kenny's sister. Lyla raised them with her son piper which is kind of weird because Ellie is now with piper. I mean I get their not blood related but hell its freaky.
"i wish! They probably heard you two a mile away" I laughed, the way Kenny said it was hysterical he was so serious.
"I can not help that I am that good at what I do"
"will you two stop fucking around, we have church to attend you know" Chibs yelled from the "chapel". I forgot we had church today to be honest. I got off the bar stool and was almost in the chapel when something caught the corner of my eye. It was my sister sneaking out of the club house followed by Hail.
"what the fuck happen?" I yelled as I started to go after hail
"we didn't mean for you to find out this way man" he was trying to dodge my punches
"Abel stop this" Jacklynn yelled. But I didn't care, I just kept swinging I got hail a pretty good amount of times, his nose was gushing blood all over the place. I just kept swinging, finally he fell on his ass. I was going to kill him. He was going to be dead when I was done. That was until Kenny and Chibs pulled me off of him.
"Son walk away" Chibs looked me right in the face, Eye to eye.
"how are you so fucking calm about this? She is pretty much your daughter?" I was so angry
"Son, walk away. I'm not going to say it again" how the fuck wasn't he mad. This was our little Jacklynn with Hail of all people. He is worse than I am, shit he finishes with one and goes right to a new girl as the other one is getting dressed.
"come on man, well take Jacklynn home" Kenny was probably just as pissed as I was. Jackie was like his little sister too. He grabbed her by the arm and lead her out the doors. She rode on Kenny's bike with him cause I kind of wanted to kill her. Mom was in the kitchen when we walked in. Jackie still lived at home.
"How stupid are you Jackie" I yelled
"it was fucking harmless Abel, i'm not 5 anymore you can stop treating me like I am"
"Jacklynn Abel is just looking out for you hail is not the guy you want to be with" Kenny cut in
"i can make that decision for myself I don't meed my big brother making them, like fuck I am almost 21 and you think you can just dictate everything in my life and you cant Abel"
"Ok you two calm down right now" Mom said walking into the room.
"but-" I went to say
"no Nothing Abel, i'm the boss here not you. Now calm down"
"well Jacklynn, Abel, Wendy I love you guys and your my second family but well Wendy is involved now and so i'm going to leave" Kenny said before bolting out the door.
Jacklynn pov
I don't know why Abel thought he could control me, i'm freaking 20 about to be 21. i'm not five but he sure did act like I was. And Kenny isn't even my brother he has no right to say anything either. I knew once mom walked in the room she would at least be on my side
"Ok you two calm down right now" Mom said
"but-" Abel went to say something but mom cut him right the fuck off. Which is good for him maybe he'll see he isn't the boss of everything
"no Nothing Abel, i'm the boss here not you. Now calm down" she had a little of angry beyond her voice my mom was a scary woman sometimes
"well Jacklynn, Abel, Wendy I love you guys and your my second family but well Wendy is involved now and so i'm going to leave" Kenny said running out the door quicker than hell. I didn't care because no one needed him here anyways
"now tell me what happen" I went to open my mouth and tell mom what happen but Abel started at the same time
"Abel you first" she always let him talk first
"i was going into chapel and I saw Jackie coming out with Hail. She slept with Hail, mom. He's more of a man whore than I am"
"Jacklynn you slept with hail?" mom said questionably
"i did, but I am about to be 21 if I was to sleep with someone I can"
"she is right, she can do what she wants." at that point I was going to laugh "but I don't think sleeping with hail is wise either and I probably would have said something about it also. He is not good for you my dear"
"see she doesn't like it either" he laughed
"it doesn't matter who likes what because it's not your life so to bad" I walked away from the two of them. Who where they to tell me what I can and can't do. I am an adult and its not like I broke any laws. It wasn't illegal for me to sleep with him.
Abel pov
I wish Jacklynn would understand that as her big brother I'm suppose to look out for her. Hail is nothing but trouble and I can't deal with my sweet innocent sister dating a dirt ball like him. Don't get me wrong Hail is my brother but no way in hell would I want my little sister with him.
"you got to be easier on her, Abel" mom said
"he's not good for her, he's bad mom. I live with the dude, I know how bad he is" I mean seriously I see all the different girls coming in and out of his room back to back I swear every hour or so its someone knew.
"i know Abel but seriously you can't be screaming at her"
"ok mom I get it I have to calm down a little"
"good boy" she kissed my forehead "now since your here, there is some boxes in the garage that needs to be taken to storage."
"well what is it?" I asked
"just some old stuff son, yours and Thomas's old baby clothes umm old pictures of your grandmother some of Tara's stuff I don't know just take it to storage for me please I need the room"
"sure thing mom" I grabbed the keys off the table and went to start loading the truck. There had to have been like 20 boxes she wanted me to take. It took me forever to get to the storage unit also. As I was unloading the boxes I knocked two of them out of the truck and they spilled everywhere.
Great mom this is exactly how I wanted to spend my day
I thought to myself for a minute and than started cleaning up the boxes. There was an envelope with a whole bunch of papers inside of it. I looked at the side of the box to see what it was marked "JAX'S STUFF" in big bold letters. I opened the envelope and pulled out what was inside
The Life and death of Samcro
was the first like I read. I turned the page to find a letter, addressed to me and Thomas.
Dear, Abel and Thomas
my boys
This is your grandfather's Manuscript. I read this when I was patched into the club, its what inspired me to write the other one for you guys. You need to know what happen, what happen to your mother, to your family, hell even your grandmother. I hope these will help you understand it all. Also your mother well Tara i'm not sure what you guys call her now I hope it's still mom cause she loved you two. She wrote you guys some letter before she died when she thought someone was going to kill her. These are for you if you need her advice or anything in any way.
Love you always
your father
Jax
I looked into the box it fell out of, there was another envelope and then a large shoe box. The shoe box was marked letters. I opened the box first, there was at least 100 letters all marked for Thomas and I.
On your wedding day...
First day of high school...
your first child...
In case your feeling down..
all different things written on them I pulled out the one that read ABEL
Dear, Abel
I'm going to start this with I love you and always have. I am sure by now someone has told you I am not you're biological mother. That doesn't change a thing in my mind. You are and always will be my son. I just have to share the mom title with Wendy. You're a great son Abel. As i'm writing this letter right now I am actually sitting in the hotel watching you jump on the bed. I fear our time together is coming to an end. I have done something that I don't know if they will forgive. But I will always be here my boy. These letters in this box are for you and your brother for major events in your life or just if you miss me. I have labeled each one with what the letter is about. I love you so much Abel
your mother
p.s. If you are reading this it means I am no longer with you but don't worry because I will always be looking down from heaven to guide you and watch over you.
I couldn't believe this, all this was hidden from me. Why didn't my mom show me this? Was she afraid I would love my other mother more? I grabbed the two envelopes and the box of letter placing them in the front seat of the truck. I finished unloading the boxes and hurried back to the house. I wasn't sure if I was going to ask mom yet why she never gave these to me. Why she had never let us read them. I decided not yet. I needed to read them first and than ill say something. I parked the truck in moms drive way and got on my bike. I hurried to the clubhouse to I could read more of these. I didn't sit in my room I made my way to the roof top I pulled out a letter from the box. It was labeled
When your all grown up...
Dear, Abel and Thomas
You're all grown up now, I bet you have turned into wonderful men. I don't know where you are or what your doing but as long as you are chasing your dreams I am happy. If you want to be an outlaw like your father be an outlaw just don't forget who you are. If you want to become a doctor like me than be a doctor. If you don't want to be either of those things than don't. Your life is a blank canvas you have to make it a painting. And its your painting to do with as you wish. Don't let anyone ever stop you.
Love, mom
there was so many of these letters, I put down the box and picked up the envelope that held my father's manuscript. I needed to know what happen to the club why everything went do wrong, that he killed himself.
The Life and Death of a FAMILY By Jackson Teller
This is written for my boys Abel and Thomas Teller. Everything I have ever gone through is in here. Anything you want to know about the club, or me and your mother its in here. I love you, dad
Some crazy shit is happening here boys, I took over as president and Tig has got us into some shit. He murdered a really powerful guys daughter when we attacked the niners. He didn't mean to but he did. They burned Tig's daughter alive boys. There is a lot of dangerous people in this world that I need you to understand. I need you to have each others back. Grandma's new boyfriend has our back he gave us a place to hide because as I said pope is a powerful man. He had people say they witnessed us killing some people. Its going to get even worse boys just hold on.
Page 1
Well its going to be hard to write for a little while. We're going to jail. I hate to be separated from you guys I really do. You and your mother, one good thing about it is today I married her. She is now Mrs. Tara Teller, or doctor teller. She is wonderful boys, she is a great mother to you two. She loves you like no one else could you boys are her whole world. Her reason for living. I've promised her for so long that I would get out but I can't right now I need to be here for my club.
I am in jail, its not some where I wanted to be but its ok I am here with my brothers. And most of all I am here with Opie, Opie is a great friend. If you ever find someone like him keep them close he punched a cop today so we could come to jail with us. We have each others backs in here as much as possible. Chibs, Opie, Tig and I will be ok we will get through this
Fuck boys, I don't know what I am suppose to do. Pope had a conversation with me today, he wants Tig to stay here forever and he wants another son killed. I can't let this happen, this can't be happening. I don't know boys I don't know if I am going to be making it out of here. I will give up my life to save my brothers lives.
Page 2
Its very sad and depressing for me to right this but your uncle Opie wouldn't let me. He stepped in and had himself killed. I wont go into details but I hope you guys never have to see anything like that. He wasn't just my best friend boys he was my brother. We couldn't have been any closer. I also arranged for Tig to be left go for now. At least until I figure something else out, I told pope I would hand Tig over when I was done needing him. I am not actually going to do that, I just needed to buy some time.
You guys wont be seeing grandma for a little while. She has done something really bad. We stopped giving her so much control over our family but Nero talked us into letting her take you two for a little while and she got into a bad car accident so for the time being its just going to be us ok? We have to figure some stuff out because right now this club, this family, and even myself are falling apart. With the home invasions going on and now this we just need to put some space in between.
Its been a crazy couple of days we found out clay is behind the home invasions and got roosevelt's wife murdered. Nero and Lyla we held hostage, by one of the guys. I took care of it. And we also took care of the man who murdered Opie. Today we got some justice for him. He deserves it more than ever.
Page 3
I was going to read more until I heard the door shut. I quickly closed it and tried to hide it under the shoe box. I turned around to see who it was that came up to the roof. It was Chibs, he always knew where to find me. He said my dad use to sit up here a lot to when he was my age.
"hey, son. I needed to talk to you" he said
"about what?" I asked. I was acting nervous and he knew it
"well one why you're acting so weird?, two what were you doing up here? And three I was going to let you know how chapel went today since you missed it"
"shit Chibs I didn't even think to come back, mom asked me to do some stuff. I had to go up to storage for her, and I found some old pictures and stuff that I was just looking at. It got me feeling a little touched I guess"
"touched? Really Abel? Pictures of what?"
"i found some pictures of my dad. There was one of my dad , my mother Tara, and Opie. Ya know just some things I haven't seen in awhile. I actually found this one" I lied, I found this picture a long time ago but he didn't need to know that. I also kept it in my wallet. I pulled it out, looked at it for a second and showed Chibs
"well ill be damned" he muttered, the picture was of the old club members. Right after my father was President. Last picture besides a mug shot anyone got of Opie. It was a nice day and everyone was sitting on there bikes. My father wasn't looking at the camera, his attention was on my mother Tara who was in the corner of the picture. But it was the whole club, something they didn't have because people were dropping like flies apparently
"great picture right?" I asked
"its a nice one" he said not wanting to let it go when I grabbed it
"ya know what I have thousands of photos, why don't you keep this one Chibs. I don't need it"
"are you sure"
"i am positive Chibs" I paused "anyways what happen in church"
"next week we are going up to Indian hill they need some help with something and we voted on it today when you weren't there"
"something dangerous?" I asked. Normally I don't care but just reading those couple pages that my dad wrote it has making me wonder.
"that all depends if it goes smooth or not, we have their backs though so make sure you have what you need to go with cause we leave Monday night and will be there three or four days"
"got it Chibs"
"you know Abel, Jax and Tara would be proud of the man you become. Your dad tried to be like you. A man of the club but not a criminal at the same time. It wasn't easy to try to turn this place around. Than when he lost your mother he lost his way. He killed so many people, innocent people. We lost some great men over it. If he could see you damn I bet he is smiling and your mom. She never wanted you to be part of Samcro but if she saw what you have helped make it become she would be extremely proud of you also" he sat next to me and put his arm around me "i love you like you were my own son"
"i love you too man"
Abel pov
the next day
I fell sleep last night reading more letters from my mother Tara, and my father's manuscript. I barley got four hours of sleep. I also had to work in the garage today, thank god at least Kenny was working in there with me.
"hey man"- Kenny said as soon as I walked into the garage
"hi" I wasn't in the mood to really talk
"what the hell is wrong with you" he always knew when something was wrong. I couldn't lie I was hurt pretty bad by finding these letter and stuff. Then to actually read them and hear how much this would've helped me through life, I find it fucked up.
"nothing, I'm fine" I replied
"dude, don't pull this shit with me your my best friend I know when things aren't ok. I'm not going to force you to talk to me but just know when you wanna talk I am right here"
"I just found some stuff Kenny, some stuff that should've been showed to me when I was younger. I just don't understand why it was hidden"
"well what did you find" he asked. I looked him in the eyes, he just wanted to be there for me. I knew if I told him Kenny would take it to the grave with him if I didn't want people to know. I looked around the garage, nobody was there but him and I. I then quickly closed the front doors, I wasn't taking a chance.
"it just I found letters from my mother, Tara. My fathers manuscript, and Grandpa J.T.'s manuscript. My dad pretty much explains his whole life. From start to finish, trouble the club got him into, stuff I wasn't always told. And Tara's letters, then are hurt breaking. I guess she ran off with me and Thomas at one point and wrote us all these letters like for our wedding day, first day of high school, if we were sad , or even if we just wanted to talk to her."
"holy crap Abel what did Wendy and Chibs say about them?"
"nothing at all because I haven't told anyone but you that I found them"
"not even Thomas?" when Kenny asked that I knew I had to tell Thomas it wasn't fair I had them all to myself this is stuff he would want to know to. I was going to answer him but the garage door flew open tiny was standing there. Tiny's actual name was jimmy, I went to school with him a couple years back.
"Abel, you wont believe who is back" he shouted
"Tiny man, I am right here no reason to shout and who's back?"
"Jenna Harley" as the name rolled off his tongue I already started getting flash backs. Jennifer Anne Harley, I went to school with her. We were high school sweethearts, she was everything to me. No body could believe it when I got her to go with me to the freshmen dance. She was miss cheerleader captain, got good grades was never in trouble. One of the most popular girls, at charming high. Half was through senior year her parents got a divorce, her mom meet someone and at the end of the year Jennifer went all the way to Texas with her. Her father stayed in charming, he was a good man died of cancer. Found out about five years ago and was gone within the year. Jennifer came back when he got really sick, she took care of him and we reconnected. Then a couple days after he died she had the funeral and I never saw her again. She just took off, took off without saying a word to anyone. I called her a lot when she left, she ignored me most of the time. The last time I called her she told me she couldn't do this life, she couldn't live back here in charming and I needed to let her go.
"what when?"
"she's been in town about a week now"
"how do you know?"
"well she smashed her car, I had to go pick her up. I brought her back here and since you two have a past I figured you would want to handle this" tiny handed me the clipboard
"ten bucks says she comes crawling back to him" I heard Kenny say talking to Tiny, as I was walking out of the garage. At first all I saw was her hair from beyond, her short blonde hair. She use to have long dark Auburn color hair.
"Miss. Harley" I managed to say. She started to turn around, I made contact with her beautiful Blue eyes. I loved her blue eyes, they light up a room when she walks in. she was perfect, in every which way. She was far from plain and simple, she was star striking beautiful from head to toe.
"well Mr. Abel Teller" her voice, god did I miss her voice. She winked at me
"listen, I'm not doing this again, I refuse to do this again you destroyed me Jennifer. You got up and left without saying a word. Right here right now I am your mechanic, nothing else!" I missed her I did but I couldn't have her destroy me again.
"Abel I didn't mean to-" she went to continue but I cut her off
"Don't even because you know there are plenty of other car garages in this damn town, at least three other ones and you just had to call Teller&Teller. No you called her hoping I would be here, so I would know you are back. Well guess what I know and I don't care. Now can you tell me what happen with your car?"
"there was a bunny in the road, I swerved so I wouldn't hit it and well I hit the guard rail. Then the car behind me slammed into me."
"you would" I muttered
"i would what?"
"swerve for a bunny."
"i just have a heart unlike some people"
"well some people have hearts and then get them broken by the love of their life"
"you know what this was a mistake ill just take my damn car somewhere else Abel" she was about to storm off the lot. But of course my mother to the rescue, she must have saw Jennifer out the office window.
"well, it's strange seeing you in this town again. I thought you swore to never come back here." mom always had to but in.
"Wendy it's great to see you, you look amazing" Jennifer was like my mother's adopted daughter. Her mother and father never really played a role in her life even before the divorce. They were rarely home, so she always came over my house.
"Jenna, have we missed you. How long has it been?" she leaned in to hug her.
"about 4 years now, way to long if you ask me"
"what bring you here? And I don't mean here as in the garage I can see that you smashed your car up pretty bad"
"My mom got divorced again, and remarried. Her and Phillip wanted to go traveling around the world. I wanted to come back to charming I also got a residency at st thomas"
"charming is a great place, although the new people to town aren't the best" I laughed before trying to walk away
"Abel!" my mother wasn't happy with that comment
"it's fine Wendy I understand why he said it."
"well I don't care, there is no need. And residency whats your specialty.?" my mother said
"surgery"
"that's great Jenna, well why don't you hang out with the guys for a little bit ill run some numbers for your car, ill see how much of a deal I can get you. Then ill take you home" great mom just great offer for her to stay here longer. Like she didn't cause enough damage to your son. I shook my head and walked away, I couldn't stand there any longer.
Jenna Prov
"Don't even because you know there are plenty of other car garages in this damn town, at least three other ones and you just had to call Teller&Teller. No you called her hoping I would be here, so I would know you are back. Well guess what I know and I don't care. Now can you tell me what happen with your car?" those words killed me. Him saying he didn't care, felt like a knife stabbed me. I knew I hurt him in the past. It killed him when I left the first time with my mother, then I came back only to leave him again but worse, I had to worry about me back then. I saw what happen to my father, he was born here in charming, worked a dead and job all his life, and then died of cancer. He never saw anything but charming. I took off, I had to finish my college degree. I went back to Texas, and finished med school. I applied for a residency at st. Thomas when my mom said she wanted to leave with Phillip her "new husband".
"there was a bunny in the road, I swerved so I wouldn't hit it and well I hit the guard rail. Then the car behind me slammed into me."
"you would" he muttered under his breath thinking I couldn't hear him but I did
"i would what?"
"swerve for a bunny."
"i just have a heart unlike some people" I meant that towards him, he was just being so damn cold towards me. I just wish he understood
"well some people have hearts and then get them broken by the love of their life" that bastard, if he would just listen to me and give me a shot to talk to him and explain shit
"you know what this was a mistake ill just take my damn car somewhere else Abel" I snapped. I was ready to leave that is until I heard Wendy's voice.
"well, it's strange seeing you in this town again. I thought you swore to never come back here." Damn did I miss that woman she was always amazing to me, she was there when I parents weren't. Dad worked his dead end job as much as he could, and my mother saw that as a shot to go out and get drunk.
"Wendy it's great to see you, you look amazing" I said turning around to hug her
"Jenna, have we missed you. How long has it been?" she leaned in to hug me back
"about 4 years now, way to long if you ask me"
"what bring you here? And I don't mean here as in the garage I can see that you smashed your car up pretty bad"
"My mom got divorced again, and remarried. Her and Phillip wanted to go traveling around the world. I wanted to come back to charming I also got a residency at st Thomas"
"charming is a great place, although the new people to town aren't the best" I laughed before trying to walk away
"Abel!" my mother wasn't happy with that comment
"it's fine Wendy I understand why he said it."
"well I don't care, there is no need. And residency whats your specialty.?" my mother said
"surgery"
"that's great Jenna, well why don't you hang out with the guys for a little bit ill run some numbers for your car, ill see how much of a deal I can get you. Then ill take you home" I lived kind of far from the garage well to walk anyways. I lived by the hospital, I got a little apartment for rent there. So I took her up of her offer. I went over to the picnic table to hangout seeing that Abel walked away without saying a word. It didn't take long for someone to come over, I felt I hand placed on my shoulder. It was Jacklynn, she was always the little sister I never had. I was an only child so it sucked but going to Abel's when I was younger was nice. It was always so busy, and loving.
"it's nice to see you again"
"oh Jackie I missed you" I got up to hug her.
"Jenna you know I love you as an older sister, but you can't go for Abel again. It took him awhile to bounce back after you left the second time. He just started to slow down on the drinking and drugs. He was heartbroken for so long, I couldn't imagine him ever going through it again"
"I'm not here to hurt your brother Jackie, do I still care for him? Yes I do but i'm not here to hurt him, I just had to come home. I promise you"
"I trust you Jenna"
"I mean ya I brought my car here hoping to see him but I just wanted to check on him"
"I can understand you wanting to check on him. He was just as important to you as you were to him. You're just not good for each other any more. There is way to much pain between the two of you"
"I know Jackie! I freaking know" I couldn't have this conversation anymore.
"I'm sorry, ill let you alone" she said before leaving, I loved her but this right now wasn't what I needed, I started my residency tomorrow and this was all on necessary stress. I just sat there pretty much by myself until Wendy was done, some of the guys I didn't know yet or the prospects came over but that was because I was a pretty girl and they didn't know Abel was my ex boyfriend. Until I were to tell them and they would hurry away
"I'm ready when you are" Wendy called out the office
"ok" I went to the office
Abel pov
I tried going back to work,but my eyes just kept drifting my eyes over to the picnic table Jenna was sitting at. She was alone most of the time I looked, besides when my sister was there, and a couple of the guys. My sister seemed to hit a nerve with her. She got upset and started to cry, I wanted to rush over to help her. I told myself that wasn't my job anymore. Then when the guys came up to her I knew as soon as the found out I was her ex they wouldn't dare. She made sure to tell everyone of them too.
"i'm ready when you are" mom called
"ok" Jenna yelled back, she went to meet mom in the office. I must say part of me is relieved she is leaving and part of me hurts again. I felt better when she was around I guess I felt happiness a little bit.
"It cant feel to good to see her again" Chibs said walking into the garage
"It's a weird feeling, I hate to see her, but at the same time it feels nice"
"i know that feeling all to well she I would see my first wife. it killed me when I saw her or my daughter but I was also happy to see them. That pain didn't go away until I grew closer with Wendy. I found love all over again."
"so your saying I should find someone else?"
"no I just mean you will find love again"
"you're really bad at this" I laughed.
"not always"
"he's right man he does give good advice sometimes" Kenny was laughing I walked out of the garage on that note, I went to my room. I was laying there on the bed staring at the ceiling fan when I thought about my mother Tara. I knew she would've but something in there for heart break I flipped through the letters I found two.
One said When your heart is broken
and the other Just in case that person comes back I opened the first one, and set the second a side.
Dear boys,
if you ever get your heart broken it is one of the worse pains ever. You feel like you are never going to come back from it. You do though, some how some way you do pull through it. Until then it hurts like a bitch, you feel like you weren't good enough, you couldn't make them happy, or someone else is better than you. Well your wrong you are good enough, you probably did make them happy and there is no one better than you two boys. It is them who miss out not you, you tried the best you could. If they cant see that well then they missed out on an amazing man. Don't you worry one day one girl will see it. Or guy... you know I wouldn't be made if it was a guy. You do whatever makes you happy.
Love,
mom
I put the letter back and grabbed the second one.
Dear boys,
if that person who broke your heart comes back follow your heart but be guarded a little. I left your father took off to Chicago, came back here and well Abel you were born and I was your doctor. I grew love for you Abel. It brought me and your father back together. He was guarded but I understood why, I left him shattered. it'll take time but just let it try to work if that's what you want. Do not hold onto the past if you decide the relationship is what you want. And if you don't want them then ok be honest tell them you don't want this anymore. Just do whats best for you, you and only you
love,
mom
I was hoping for an answer, I was hoping for a yes or no. she could've said go for it or not to. Not follow your heart I knew what my heart was saying. It was saying both. I had no idea what I was suppose to do. I sat in my room for hours, thinking over and over again. When I finally decided to just let god choose. If she gave me a signal and it feels right ill go for it if she doesn't do anything,neither will I.
