Disclaimer: i do not own the characters in this story they belong to Jay Asher.

Chapter two -

From looking at his face I can tell he is serious and this makes my heart swell with so much emotion that I burst into tears, clay being the nice guy he is just holds me to his chest while I cry and rubs small circles along my back which I find really comforting especially since its My clay doing it. I can't put this off much longer I need to tell him how I feel about him. I can feel him take in a deep breath like he is nervous and feel that his heart beat has started to beat fast than it was just moments ago. I hear him mumble something but it's not clear with my head in his chest.

"What" I ask.

"Nothing don't worry Hannah" he says in a sad tone.

"No clay please tell me what you said" I pleaded.

He shuffled on the bed nervously still holding me before he started.

"You know I'm not good with words Han but I...I love you Hannah I have for a while I just didn't know how to tell you. I just realised that I could of lost you today and it made me want to tell you because I would have regretted it if you never knew. I don't even know if you feel that same this could all just be...". I cut him off by pushing my lips onto his gently. He seems a little surprised but after a second he returns the kiss and I can feel myself smile. I pull away from him and hold his hand.

"Clay I love you too, I think I've felt it for a while but didn't think you felt the same. I believe that you could never deserve to be with someone like me, someone who w..was..." I take a breath and can see in his face that he is regerstering what I am saying and I continue. "It makes me feel like is am used and dir...". This time he cuts me off by crashing his lips to mine and holding my face in his hands. I return the kiss thankfully as a tear rolls down my cheek. He pulls away and wipes the tear from my face and looks at me.

"You are none of those things Hannah ok. They were not your fault none of it, don't ever think that again, your so much more than what you think you are".

I nod not really knowing what to say and I put my head back into clay's chest and hold onto him with all that I could.

I realise I must have fallen asleep for a while as I slowly open my eyes to clay softly poking my arm to try and wake me.

"Hannah. Hannah you fell asleep" he says in a soft voice.

I slowly lift my head and realise clay has moved himself backwards so his back is against his wall with me still in his arms. I blush slightly at him being so considerate to still keep me in his arms.

"Sorry I didn't mean to fall asleep".

"No worries Hannah I didn't mind it was kinda nice to hold you while you slept and to see you relaxed". He admits nervously with a blush on his cheeks.

I check my phone I've been asleep for about an hour, with two missed calls from my mom, she's probably just checking up on me.

"I should probably go now clay, my mom's called me a few times" I say sadly. He quickly gets off the bed and grabs my hand.

"It's ok Hannah let me walk you home". Before I can ever protest he shakes his head. "I'm not taking no for an answer I'm walking you home" he says strongly. All I can do is nod. We leave his house and start to walk to mine still hand in hand which makes me smile, clay notices this and smiles too. I like seeing clay smile, he doesn't do it to often unless he's with me or tony so it's nice to see. I like having my hand in clay's it feels like it was meant to be there, meant to fit my hand in his perfectly.

When we get to my house I see that my parents car is there so I know they are both in. I turn to clay and thank him for walking me home, he nods and I hug him tightly. I love the feeling of being in his arms, I can hear clay let out a content sigh which makes me smile a little. I lean back and kiss him on the cheek before letting him go and walking up to my door. I turn around as I reach the door and see him watching me walk to the door.

"Good night helmet" I sigh with a smile

"Night Han" he replied and turned to walk away.

"Helmet, let me know when you get home ok". I shouted.

He turned and nodded adding a little smile and wave which I happily return as I enter the house.

As I enter I can see mom leaving the kitchen and spotting me she asks if I want dinner. I nod and follow her to the table ready to eat. I don't eat all of it as I'm not exactly really hungry but it's enough for now. I hug and kiss my parents cheeks before leaving to go to my room.

I sit down on my bed and check my phone for the first time in an hour or so. I find that I have two messages off clay and one off tony. I quickly look at Tony's, he's just checking up on me so I reply back to him letting him know that I'm ok and that I've talked to clay also that I'm now home. He replies to this accepting my reply and wishing me a good night so I do the same back. I read clay's messages one wrote 'im home', the other wrote 'I really did mean what I said earlier'. At first I'm a little confused but then I remember his words and reply back 'i did to'. I put my phone on the bed side table and get changed ready to go to bed. I've brushed my teeth, put on my clothes for bed and got into bed when I hear my phone go off. It's clay. He wants to spend the day with me tomorrow which I immediately agree to and tell him I'll see him in the morning. He replies again and his message makes my heart beat with happiness. 'I'm so glad your still in my life Hannah baker'.

'So am I helmet sweet dreams' I wrote back and then fell into a deep sleep filled with dreams revolving around clay.