I don't own pitch perfect. It is owned by whoever owns it!
Beca's POV
I look her in the eyes. The mood in the room have shifted. She is waiting.. Waiting for me to talk - to drop the bomb. She is looks uneasy (she should be)
And suddenly I'm angry. I don't know where it came from. I had been hiding - hiding for the past two weeks. Why the hell is it that I was the one hiding. I did nothing wrong! She is the one who broke my heart. She is the one who should be hiding. But then again I know exactly why I was hiding. I didn't want to face the reality. I was trying to outrun it. Maybe if I did, it would all go away, my heart would be full again. But I know that is not how things worked. The moment I see Chloe everything would be real. Everything and my shattered heart.
But more than anger it is pain. Pain that pierce my soul and make it hard to breathe.
It takes everything in me to not cry when I look at her. I had been exceptionally good at hiding my feelings but then again Chloe was an exception to that. (That was chloe - Beca's exception in everything.)
'Are you now competing with my books? '
I am half teasing and half angry (mostly angry, I guess)
'You seem too much in love with them to notice me these days.'
She tease me back (or tries to - it is a half hearted attempt)
I look her in the eyes again, I had never said the words, I never said I loved her. I always thought she knew( and words never seemed enough.) But apparently she didn't .
'I love you way too much for you to ever have a competition, you know...'
My voice broke at this and I tried to keep it steady again. Chloe looks stunned. And then a small smile began at her lips.
'But I, foolhardy, enters the competitions I could never win.' I add
And the smile dies. Good.
'Bec.. What are you talking about?'
She is worried. I don't care. I won't care.
I take a deep breath.
'You remember three weeks back on 12th we had a lunch date but you cancelled last minute saying you had to meet your friends. '
She paled at this. I was hoping against hope that all my fears were in vain. But one look at her face and I knew. I felt my heart breaking once again. (if that was possible at all) I laugh bitterly.
'I was planning to ask you to move-in with me? it had been an year now. You know. '
Chloe gasped audibly and I couldn't hold my tears anymore. Chloe was also tearing up.
'I was so excited Chloe.. I was finally taking a chance.. Making a commitment.. I was making plans in my mind on how to surprise you even when I was talking with my editor .. Jesse even joked that I was acting like I was about to propose.. And guess what? here I was planning the surprise of the year in my head at Kelly's Diners and you bested me dear - as always. Only this time, I wish you hadn't.'
I stopped, it hurt to speak. And then continued.
' You were there too, with her - and gave me the surprise of the year. '
I was straight out crying now.
'Bec...' Chloe started.
'You cancelled our lunch to go out with her! And you lied about it. What am I supposed to think chloe? Don't.. Just Don't say anything. I wouldn't just jump into conclusions. I wouldn't insult you like that. I called you that night. You didn't pick. The next day I dropped by the office hoping to take you for lunch and talk. And I would have. I trusted you. I knew you would clear things up. But then again you weren't there when I arrived were you?'
I shook my head. Maybe if I shake enough it would all go away.
'You were again having lunch with her. And I waited. I waited a whole fucking week chloe!! And you said nothing. I asked how was your lunch with friends and you lied. What was I supposed to think? What am I supposed to think? You ignored me the whole week. And now you are here. What do you want Chloe? '
Chloe closed her eyes.
'Beca...I' m sorry.. I'm so sorry! '
'Sorry isn't enough chloe. Apparently I wasn't either. Then again I should have known. I never stood a chance against posen did I? '
