After many hours of acting lessons, along with many Skype conversations, Dan was finally ready for what we had planned. After thinking through it we agreed that recording the event of him coming out to his mother would be an easy way to tell everyone.

"You seem very… metrosexual, so telling Babz you're gay she might say something like 'I think I knew.'" I explained to him one night on Skype. I wanted to prepare him for anything that might happen, but he assured me he was fine with it and Babz would be too. Today, on February, 23 he texted me and said he was finally doing it. Later I watched his video and I could tell he was honestly nervous, but unlike everyone else, I knew the real reason behind his nerves; he was lying to his mom and everyone else. After watching the video I texted him and asked him to get on Skype so we could video chat.

"It was a really good video," I say as soon as he answers my Skype call. "I really liked what Babz had to say."

"Have you seen what everyone else is saying? So many of the comments say they already knew, and I'm not even gay! But even more say it gave them the courage to come out, so it's worth it. So when are we hanging out? I'll need some footage of our 'dates.'"

"You'll want to give it some time. Give this video a few weeks to gain some popularity. Besides, you wouldn't get a boyfriend right after coming out. I was thinking give it a month or two and then we'd make a video of meeting each other for the first time. Followed by videos of us just hanging out, let your viewers put the pieces together. Usually if I a guy just came out he's not quick to tell everyone he has a boyfriend. And would you characteristically automatically share your love life online?"

"Good point. I guess we'll have to take things slow," Dan responded. We continued to chat into the night, but eventually we were too tired to talk. Neither of us expected to get the kind of attention his coming out video received. After a few weeks it had over one million views. Dan was getting a lot of attention for it; he even got interviewed by a couple different people. We discussed the kind of things he should say but he seemed like he would do fine without my help. Between the time he posted that and the next time we got together he told me he gained 5000 plus subscribers. After his coming out video we kept texting and Skyping, but we didn't hang out for over a month. Part of that being I was busy with some auditions and our schedules just wouldn't allow it. Finally in May we got together and went shopping at the Nordstrom mall. As we shopped around we came up with a story as to how we met to use in the video later. I tell him I don't plan on saying much, that he should talk to his subscribers. Later when we're walking around outside the mall Dan pulls his camera out.

"Hey guys, so it is… what day is it today? Monday? It's freaking Monday, it's amazing, it's…" we were walking kind of close so I gently brush my hand against his, as if I was trying to hold his hand. "Oh don't, you're touching me!" Dan reacts.

"Sorry," I say quietly, not wanting to talk over him as he continues. When he finishes recording two minutes later I start laughing.

"What?" He asks me.

"You're reaction was funny when our hands accidently touched!"

"As soon as I said that I felt like I shouldn't have."

"It's fine, it was cute. Your viewers will think I was trying to hold your hand and think I'm into you. All relationships have to start with a crush."

"You have clearly put much more thought into this than I have."

"If you want to make people believe your story you have to do it right," I respond. After that day we start hanging out a lot more, I was even able to get a day off each week so I could go hangout with him.

We went on hikes, to the movies, played miniature golf, walked around New York City. We actually had a lot of fun hanging out. He even asked me to be in a live show. Dan wanted to try out Google plus hangouts one night when I came over. He said he wanted to do it then because of the thunderstorm that was supposedly coming, but it never did. He continued gaining subscribers and comments were filled with "Who's Brian," "I think they're dating," and in our first video together, "He tried to hold your hand!" A lot of times I would stay the night at his house and read comments together. He reads every comment but sometimes he would have me read them to him. Everyone already knew we were together by December, but we never actually told them. The way I acted in each video people picked up on it very easily by what we weren't saying. Some comments would say "he looks like he wants to throw his arms around you" or "Brian clearly wants to kiss you, let him!" Middle of December, when we were hanging out at my house, Dan asked me to do the boyfriend tag with him. Obviously I said yes, even though I didn't know what it was.

"Let's wing it," he said setting up his camera equipment in my basement. "Everyone wants to see it, and I'm sure we've hung out enough to answer the questions. I'll explain it in the beginning of the video as well." So apparently we just had to answer questions about each other. It's good that he wants it to be spontaneous, but we'll probably run into a question or two that we'll have to make something up, I'm sure. A few questions in he had to say what his first impression of me was. I'm definitely interested in what he has to say. Dan described me as "very chatty, very talkative, and descriptive." It made me laugh because it reminded me of that hour long conversation we had when we first met.

"And I noticed your eyes," he adds. "Cause they're gorgeously blue," I never realized how close he actually pays attention to me. "They're really blue, they're like extremely blue," hearing this compliment from him got me a little flustered, but it fit with the video. I don't know why his compliment affected me like that. He did have to edit out us deciding on a date we "started dating." I had suggested sometime after he uploaded "Welcome To My World Of Truth," to show that things got better when he started dating.

"Are you staying over tonight?" I ask him once we finish recording.

"I can't I have to work tomorrow. I can stay a little longer, but you'll have to drive me to the train station in a couple hours." For those two hours we decide to watch Mean Girls, but eventually I drop him off at the train station.

"I guess it's my turn to go to Connecticut. When do you want to hang out next?" I ask before he gets on his train.

"It'll have to be a couple weeks. I'll text you." I say goodbye and wrap my arms around him, giving him a goodbye hug. I wait for him to end the hug, not wanting to end it myself. I watch Dan as he boards his Train, and for some reason I stay and watch him through the window until his train leaves. Damn it. I'm into him. We're great friends I wouldn't mess that up, besides, he's straight. I might as well move on; of course that's easier said than done. Throughout the rest of December and January I can't help but love all of the time we spend together. At this point he's not even paying me to act, I'm just being myself. I feel bad about taking his money and tell him he doesn't have to pay me anymore, but he insists.

It's actually been a year since I met Dan, and it's been the best year of my life. We've become so close, but even when he refers to me as his best friend I can't help but feel sad that that's all we'll ever be. I know I need to move on, and I've tried. I've been on dates but no one seems good enough. My brother was at a sleepover, and my parents went out for a date night telling me not to expect them to come home tonight, so I'm left home alone with my thoughts. Since I'm home alone I'll probably just watch some TV. I go down to the basement and flick the TV on to HGTV to find an episode of House Hunters playing. Just a few minutes into the show I hear the doorbell ring. Not expecting anyone I walk upstairs confused as to who would be here this late.

I open the door and see Dan standing there. Before I can even ask him why he's here he leans forward and presses his lips to mine. For months I've been imagining what his lips would feel like against mine. His soft lips seem so ready, so eager. I don't question it, I just go with it. I kiss him back and Dan's hands run against the top of my belt. He grabs the bottom of my shirt and swiftly pulls it off my body, tossing it to the ground. Pressing his lips into mine even harder he slips his jacket off and it joins my shirt on the floor. Keeping his lips against mine he walks me to the stairs and we continue to make out as we travel up the stairs and into my bedroom. He gets my belt off with one tug and tosses it across the room. Falling into my bed I look him in the eyes and see his gorgeous blue eyes filled with lust. I pull him closer to me and gently close my lips on to his bottom lip. I slide my hands under his shirt and run them across his skin. His skin is so soft. I pin him down and roll on top of him, my left leg fitting right between his. I give him a tender kiss as my hands begin to undo the buttons on his shirt. Once I have his shirt off his pants are next. Watching his face I undo his button and slowly unzip his jeans. He looks like he has been aching for this. Grabbing his briefs along with his pants I pull them down his body and let them fall to the floor. I lie down on top of him and press my lips to his. Dan opens his mouth just enough to let me slip my tongue in. As our tongues collide I can hear the soft sounds our mouths make as we kiss, along with each breath we take. Dan's tongue retreats as he refocuses his lips on my neck. He kisses me so softly, so soft it's as if he's worried he'll break me. The soft kisses are followed by biting. As Dan's teeth begin to pleasure my neck I bury my face into his neck. I bite him back, rougher than he's doing to me. I can feel him moan into my skin as I leave bite marks all over his neck. I roll over, letting him climb on top of me. He lies on top of me straddling my right leg, but I grab him by the ass and position him so my whole body is between his legs. His lips return to mine and I open my mouth to deepen the kiss. I start to move my hips like the motion of a wave as we exchange kisses. Dan follows my lead and moves his body back and forth, gently rubbing his naked body against mine. Even with my pants still on, Dan rubbing up against me feels amazing.

"Are we going to…?" Dan asks as he slides his fingers down my pants. His touch on my inner thigh woke up every part of me. I gave him a smirk and pushed him off of me. I took my pants off faster than I thought possible and lay my naked body on top of his. I give him the most sensual kiss and continue down his torso, making my way to what I've been craving for months now.

After a while we both find ourselves out of breath. I grab him by the waist and pull him close, spooning him. I drape my arm over his body and intertwine our fingers together, holding his hand. Our hands are held by his chest, so I can feel his heartbeat. Dan's body is so warm and comfortable as we snuggle together and slowly drift into sleep. Part of me wonders why Dan came here in the middle of the night, but the other part just wants to enjoy this moment and make it last. I do make a note to myself to ask Dan in the morning why he came over, but when I wake up he's nowhere to be found.