I'm in a nightmare, he thought. Sound asleep and Erwin has me close. I'll be fine. I'll wake up soon. Levi's mind was racing a thousand miles an hour. She beamed at them for some reason. Was this really something to smile about? What did she just say? Nightmare. Imagination running wild. He would do anything for Erwin but never bear a child. Destruction.
"Captain Levi, you're pregnant," Hange beamed. "About four weeks along. Congratulations Commander on your new family."
Nightmare. The word flashed between the two lovers like a lightning bolt. Hange left, figuring they needed time alone. Surely she would keep it secret until Erwin and Levi came to some kind of concrete stance on the matter. But Levi had yet to speak.
"Talk to me. We need to discuss this," tried Erwin. "I believe we should get rid of it as soon as possible. We are in no position to handle a baby and you cannot be out of commission for that long."
Levi looked up at him. He rose slowly from the floor and went to rinse his mouth out. For now he was granted some relief. Might as well take advantage of it. "I don't want this, Erwin. You are too careless with me. I didn't think…"
Erwin's chest was tight. "Come on," he grabbed his hand and led Levi back to what was basically their room. Since neither of them slept alone much anymore. Levi shook himself free though and stormed in the other direction, to his own quarters.
He couldn't help it. Erwin fell on his bed and screamed into the pillow. This was entirely out of character for him but getting Levi pregnant was not a common event. Levi, humanity's champion. A mother. They never speculated on this chance in hell since their bodies were constantly under stress. Levi fought more than he ate and was nothing but pure muscle. Keeping a baby in his belly for nine months with no fluff on his bones. He needed to abort the baby. Now, before it got any later. Pregnancy had not been a problem in the Survey Corps, not once since sex was usually off the radar. Nobody had time for relentless kisses, love, caresses. A knock hit Erwin's door. "Yes?" he breathed.
"Commander Erwin? I'm sorry to bother you, ah. Just. Wondering if Captain Levi is okay and if you found his injury. I saw, um. Smiles. I was confused!" Sasha was outside. What Erwin didn't know is she had Eren (alas), Mikasa, and Armin with her. All of them were worried.
Swinging it open, he looked at none of the kids. Just the ground. "Levi will be fine." In nine months if not longer. "Thank you for your concern, Braus." Not a single one moved. He ignored them though and went back inside. What was he doing?"
The four walked away at a sluggish pace and Armin murmured, "Commander was worried. Did you see those eyes? He, it was like someone shot him."
"He has much on his shoulders," Mikasa reasoned. "He said not to worry." Eren's mouth was set in a firm line with those teal bulbs about to pop from his face. There was no reason for leaders to keep secrets. That pissed him off royally and he knew Erwin held some intense thing he wanted to hide from the rest of them. For the moment. But even a moment was too long in the life of Eren Jeager.
