More? This starts up right where we left off...chapter eight.

My stomach has been in knots ever since Jake told me about what he had planned for Edward.

He wanted to get him some action.

At a bar.

Where there are copious amounts of cheap alcohol and a bunch of drunk skanks looking to get laid.

I'm not sure I'll survive if he leaves with one of them.

*()*()*

Jake was laughing as he held my hair back while I gagged and yacked into the toilet.

His words echo in my head even now.

"You just can't hold your liquor, Bella."

Not why I was puking my guts out, you idiot.

He left with her.

While Jake's hands wandered across my belly, and his unimpressive erection pressed into my hip, I watched as Edward walked out hand in hand with…her.

"She's a sure thing," Jake had whispered in my ear.

It didn't take a rocket scientist to realize how he knew that.

His hands tightened around me when I tried to move toward the door.

"Come on, Bella. He's a big boy," he'd laughed.

But he's not.

He's my sweet Edward, and he's in over his head.

I had to force Jake out the door after I'd emptied the contents of my stomach.

And then I hid under the covers and cried.

*()*()*

It took all of my willpower not to ask about what he did with her.

For all he knows, I went home and had wild doggy sex with Jake.

Yuck.

I'm not giving him any clues about my feelings.

So how would he know how hurt I am?

*()*()*

Jake is changing right before my eyes.

I can see the way the drugs are affecting him, but every time I approach him about it, he changes the subject.

I'm scared.

He's not the guy who came in weighing 400 pounds, but could still laugh at himself.

Now he's different.

And I need to do something soon…before he hurts someone.

We're in the middle of chapter nine right now. Jake and Edward are heading to the bar and Bella is about to have 'the talk' with Jake.

Not sure when I'll get another one of these out…but you all seem to be enjoying it.

Bella did keep a journal while she was undergoing her own weight loss journey, and she will be sharing pieces of that with Edward during 'Fatty' in some upcoming chapters…but you will get to see the excerpts in their entirety here.

Thank you…

You have no idea how much you all mean to me.