AUTHOR'S NOTE: I just realized that with the way I have written this story, each chapter will be short. So be prepared for some shorties.

Krazy: the only capitals you should have seen were for CAT scan. I only capitalized it because it stands for something. Good to know someone is paying attention.

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all i wanted to do is be alone, but every five minutes, someone calls about how i am doing or what the doctors have said about greg.

even though they all told me to go home, they know i stopped by to visit greg.

grissom calls around four in the morning, and tells me to sleep. to not sit by the phone for some news on greg.

how can he tell me not to be worried about my boyfriend?

nick calls shortly after i hang up with my boss and offers to come over and keep me company.

but him sleeping on greg's side of the bed, his arms wrapped around me tight like greg does, won't make up for the emptiness i feel right now.

catherine comes to stay with me instead.

just last night, while we were lying in bed before we got the call that we were needed, he kissed me and told me that he would never leave me or wouldn't die until it was his time to go.

i don't think i'd ever seen greg that serious before.

we laughed and he kissed me again. i was almost asleep, wrapped in his arms, when the phone rang.

i don't think that greg will die because there is no way it is his time to go yet. i haven't talked with god for a while, but i know he wouldn't do this to me.

god, i miss him.