Sirius' POV – November 1981

I felt like I'd forgotten something as I drove high in the air. I looked at my jacket and felt it slightly, damn, I remembered what I had forgotten. The bottle of Wolfsbane potion for Remus. I turned around in the air and headed back towards Godric's hollow. It took me ten minutes and when I got close I saw a fire start in the house. Holy shit! I made the bike go faster and didn't even bother to land it properly as I jumped off the bike. I crashed through the door of the house and was met by an inferno. I got out my wand and put out the fire as water was emitted from the end of my wand. It took me a while but I managed to put out the fire. It seemed to be downstairs, and only downstairs. I looked around the now burnt out house. I looked towards the stairs and saw a body lying on the stairs. I felt panic starting to rise in me. What had happened? No one could find this house, it was protected, no muggle or wizard. I ran to the body, it was slightly burnt but I could tell instantly who it was.

"James." I gasped. I felt a lump in my throat. His eyes were open in a sort of shocked look that I'd seen before. I felt some tears rolling down my face when I realised that there was the sound of a baby crying. I looked up and ran up the stairs. Harry! I stumbled up the stairs and followed Harry's crying. Nothing was burnt up here, it was as if I had literally just left it. I pushed open Harry's door and nearly fell to my knees. There was a cloak lying on the floor, one that didn't belong to anyone that we knew, well yes, we knew him but how could he get in here. I shifted my gaze and my mouth dropped. Lily was lying spread out on the floor, she had the same expression as James and Harry was lying next to her crying.

"Mummy!" He cried.

"Harry." I said gently, I didn't want to see Lily. I picked up Harry carefully and using all my will power reached out to touch her face. I slowly began to close her eyes. Her body was warm like she had just decided to sleep on the floor. I felt Harry hug me tightly and I stood up. I was trying not to cry. They weren't dead, they weren't dead. They couldn't be dead, I'd only left them twenty-five minutes ago, they couldn't be dead! I looked at Harry and he looked at me with watery eyes. My eyes immediately went to a cut on his forehead. It was in the shape of a lightning bolt and was bleeding slightly. I swallowed the lump in my throat and I wanted to leave the house but I couldn't leave Lily or James here. I slowly pulled bit of my Jacket fre and wiped up the blood on Harry's head.

"It's ok Harry."

"Want Mummy." Harry said turning to look at Lily. "Mummy seeping, wake mummy."

"I'm sorry Harry, I can't." I said, that was it. I couldn't hold in the tears for any longer.

"WANT MUMMY!" Harry screamed as he began to struggle.

"Harry. Please." I tried to calm him when the door opened. April stood in the doorway looking wide eyed. She would have looked quite funny if the situation wasn't so serious.

"Sirius, what happened? I felt something, I can't explain it but I had a really bad feeling that-" Her voice trailed off as she saw Lily lying on the floor.

"It was him." I said, "Voldemort, he killed them."

"Where is he?" April asked. I nodded to the cloak on the floor. April frowned then looked at me. I could see he was battling the urge to run to Lily's side and anger.

"How did Voldemort know where they were living!" April shouted. "Give Harry to me now you traitor. You were the secret keeper!!" She held her wand out dangerously and reached for Harry.

"No, April, I didn't do anything. James and Lily didn't make me their secret keeper." I said, standing my ground. I wiped some tears away from my face. "They made Peter-" I stopped. "April get Dumbledore now!" April started in surprise and looked at me with narrowed eyes. "You can search my mind all you want, you'll see I'm telling the truth get Dumbledore." I said. I put Harry in his cot quickly then left the room. I heard April apparating away. I went to James, on the stairs and looked at him. It was Peter! Peter, the lying rat. We trusted him, we thought he was as innocent as any of us. The stupid, lying little...no. I had to stay calm. I closed James' eyes and picked up his wand. My heart felt like it was being torn apart. Lily and James were dead. I couldn't believe it. James was like my brother and Lily, she was more then just a friend, she seemed to have been becoming my sister, she was so nice to me. But James, he was...he always...I would get my revenge on them, I had to, I was going to kill the little rat.

I had to get to Harry, I could hear him screaming for Lily. No doubt he was feeling confused but I didn't really want to leave James. He'd always been there for me, he'd helped me when I fell out with my parents, he let me live with him when I moved out. I owed him for so much. I think that the least I could do right now was to go and try to look after Harry but I couldn't leave James just lying here. Slowly I moved James to the living room and then began to go to go upstairs but when I got to the door I had to look at James again. He didn't look dead, he just looked like James. But he wasn't alive anymore. I closed my eyes and ran to Harry's room to where Lily lay on the floor and Harry stood screaming in his cot.

"Harry please, don't make me silence you." I begged the one year old. Harry calmed slightly and looked at me. I knelt on the floor and lifted Lily slightly. Her body was completely limp in my arms.

"Mummy." Harry said with a trembling lip. There was a crack and I turned around. April was standing in the room. She looked at me holding Lily then ran to my side.

"Is she, she's alive isn't she?" April asked, sounding incredibly panicked. She pushed me out of the way and held Lily up slightly. "Lily." She said shaking Lily slightly. I put a hand on April's shoulder. Her body began shaking and she curled over Lily slightly. I could see her crying.

"How did he get in?" April asked. "Lily can't be, she's my sister, she can't be...is James alright?" April looked at me. I shook my head darkly and April's crying got heavier. I held her tightly and she held Lily. "Lily can't be, they can't-" she seemed unable to finish her sentence.

"Mummy." Harry demanded. "Wake Mummy." Harry shouted. I got up, leaving April with lily and picked up Harry.

"Harry, your mummy can't wake up, we've tried. She wont." I said. Harry looked over my shoulder at Lily.

"Mummy no wake?" He asked confused. April turned and gently put Lily back down on the floor. She stood up and came to me and took Harry. She looked at him, obviously looking for any hurts.

"Harry." She said worriedly. Her eyes went to the lightning shaped cut on his forehead. She got out her wand and muttered a simple healing spell but nothing happened.

"Why is Harry alive and where-" April muttered. She looked at me but I shrugged.

"What did Dumbledore say?"

"He's sending Hagrid to collect Harry."

"What?" I asked. "I'm his godfather!"

"Yes but Dumbledore thinks-"

"No, I'm going to look after Harry, it's what Lily and James-"

"Sirius. Dumbledore doesn't think you're..." She stopped for a moment, "He thinks you're why Lily and James is dead. He's sending Harry to live with Petunia."

"What?! That bitch!" I asked, "there's no way I'm letting them look after-"

"I don't want Harry to go either Sirius but if Dumbledore thinks it's best then I guess we'll have to follow. He thinks that you are the one who told Voldemort what happened. If you keep saying that it wasn't you that was the secret keeper who was!" April retorted. I looked at her angrily. I wanted to tell her but she wouldn't believe me.

"Fine, as soon as Hagrid gets here we'll give Harry to him" I said. April looked at me worriedly.

"What are you going to do?" She asked.

"I'm going to get revenge." I said.

"Tell me who it is and I'll help you." She said.

"No. I'm not letting you lose your Auror status" I said sternly.

"But I'm not even working yet, I'm on pregnancy-" April protested, I put my finger on her mouth.

"Please, April. Let me do this for Lily and James." April bit her lip and nodded.

"'Ello!" I heard Hagrid's familiar voice. April and I left the room. She gave Lily a glance and wiped the tears from her face. We went outside the house and saw Hagrid looking around the house, not knowing where it was.

"Hagrid." I called. He turned and saw me, April and Harry.

"What happened?" He asked. He towered over me and April.

"L-Lily and James are dead." April said weakly.

"How?" Hagrid asked with wide eyes.

"Voldemort." I said. "Take Harry, you can use my bike, I'm off." I said throwing him my keys. I looked at April and she reluctantly handed Harry to Hagrid.

"Look after him." She said. "And if he cries make sure you rock him to sleep and before you-"

"April, he's not yours." I said gently as I gave her a hug.

"I know but now that Lily's-" She broke out crying and I held her tightly and kissed the top of her head. Harry was staring at Hagrid in wonder and put his hands to his beard. I saw Hagrid's eyes glistening and he nodded.

"I'll take good care of him April." He said. April looked at him and went to Harry.

"Behave yourself for Hagrid." She whispered to Harry and kissed Harry's forehead.

"Aypril" He muttered. April was crying as she turned back to me and I held her tightly. We watched as Hagrid flew off on my motorbike. April's crying became heavier.

"Tell me this is a nightmare." She whispered into my shoulder. I started crying as well. She looked at me.

"Who's responsible?" April asked, "Please Sirius, tell me, who was the secret keeper?"

"Sorry, I can't." I said sadly. I put my stomach on her stomach and sighed. "If I don't return, take good care of Jenny alright! I want you to make sure that she's alright and safe and that she doesn't grow up like me." April looked at me for a few moments before nodding and wiping her eyes with the palm of her hands. I looked at her and gave her a kiss. She returned it for a few moments then looked at me as I disapparated away. I went to Peter's flat.

"Peter!" I shouted. There was no reply, it sounded as though there was no one in the flat. I looked around and found no one. Where could he be the stupid bastard.


"Peter!" I shouted as I caught sight of him down the road. He turned in fear.

"Sirius." He said anxiously. "Hi."

"Come here." I said. He stayed where he was so I walked to him. "You haven't heard what's happened to Lily and James have you?" Peter laughed nervously.

"No, what's happened?" he squeaked. I could almost smell the nervousness and fear. Being a dog animagus was useful sometimes.

"They're dead Peter. Voldemort went to their house and killed him." I said. I whipped out my wand and Peter squealed in fear.

"Sirius, no, you don't want to kill me."

"That didn't stop you from handing Lily and James to Voldemort on a silver platter? What scared of hearing your master's name. We trusted you with their lives you rat and you betrayed us all."

"You don't know the kinds of things that he's-" Peter stopped. He was looking at someone over my shoulder. I turned quickly and saw Jenny and April standing nearby.

"Sirius, we've been looking for you everywhere-" Jenny said running towards us, April couldn't run very well but I knew she wanted to.

"It was him. HE KILLED LILY AND JAMES!" Peter squealed.

"You bastard!" I shouted. I was about to shout a curse when there was a huge explosion that knocked me off my feet. When I looked up Peter was gone and I saw a rat scamper through a sewage drain.

"Oh my god, Sirius, you killed him." April gasped. I stood up and looked at her and I couldn't control it. I started laughing. Jenny and April looked uncertainly at me. April got out her wand and pointed it at me.

"Sirius Black, I'm afraid I'll have to arrest you for the murder of P-" She looked at me like she didn't know me. Aurors apparated all around me and I couldn't help laughing. That was an amazing trick that Peter had pulled off. One worthy of a Marauder but Peter wasn't a marauder anymore, not in my eyes.

"Sirius Black you're under arrest. April, we'll take it from here." Said an Auror. April was looking at me with tears falling out of the corners of her eyes. I would have stopped laughing but I couldn't. As the Aurors dragged me away April turned to Jenny, who held her tightly and looked at me in disbelief.


"Sirius Black, you have been charged for the murder of Peter Pettigrew and the death of thirteen Muggles. You have been sentenced to a life time in Azkaban" Said the man in front of me. I'd spent a few nights in this...Holding cell I reckon it was. I'd realised exactly what had happened and in how much trouble I was in. What should I do? No one believed me when I said I didn't do it, that Wormtail wasn't dead. Jenny, April as well as an entire street of Muggles had seen me pull out my wand moments before Peter had played his trick. I didn't want to go to Azkaban. I was innocent, yes but I didn't want to go there, it was like hell on earth but what choice did I have? According to everyone I was guilty regardless of what I told them. April wouldn't believe me if I told her I wasn't guilty, I doubted that Jenny would either, she still held a minor grudge against me. I took a deep steady breath. If I ever saw Peter again he would be dead, he was going to die for what he had done to me and my friends. I closed my eyes, wait a minute! I've been charged I haven't even had a trial yet!

"What? Don't I get a trial?" I asked outraged. "Why don't I get a trial!"

"An order by Barty Crouch, you are to be straight to Azkaban" said the man,

"But I'm innocent!" I shouted at him. I couldn't see him properly. I wanted to get out. I needed to check that Harry was ok but I was stuck here. I was going to kill Peter.

"I didn't kill him! I swear, I didn't. He killed himself because he's too much of a wimp to-"

"Be quiet Black, you're all the same, you and your family, all Death Eaters."

"Don't you dare call me a-"

"Be quiet Black, you can't do anything now, you will be sent to Azkaban and you'll be left to rot there." The man said harshly.

"WHAT! No, don't send me there." I said struggling against the bonds that they had tied me with so that I wouldn't attack anyone. The bonds just seemed to get tighter and stopped me from moving. "I didn't kill Peter!" I tried to struggle even more. I tried to get free but I knew it was useless. I'd be taken to Azkaban, I couldn't go back there. It seemed to suck the life away from you, or was that the Dementors? I couldn't tell but I didn't want to go back there.

"No!" I shouted. The man left and the bonds went slack. I got out and went to the door, "I'm innocent! You can't send me to Azkaban! And what about a trial!" I shouted at the door. There was no answer so I leant against another wall and sank to the floor defeated. I sat there for a few moments when the door opened. I looked up and saw an auror standing in the doorway

"Close the door" came a female voice.

"Yes miss. Marsden." The door slammed shut. I scrambled to my feet.

"April. I thought you had been put on leave."

"Tell me whether you killed Peter or not." She demanded coldly. I couldn't see her face because her auror cloak kept it hidden.

"I didn't. I swear I didn't." I said going to her. She held her wand out.

"Don't come near me." She said. She shook her head and her hood fell down and her blond hair tumbled over her shoulder. Her face was a mixture of different emotions but she looked mostly angry and hurt and she looked like she'd been crying.

"You believe me don't you?" I asked her hopefully.

"I saw you kill him." April said. "How can I-" She stopped. I knew she'd just read my mind and saw what I had seen. "He was the secret keeper wasn't he?"

"Yes." I said.

"That meant it was-"

"Yes, it was him that handed Lily and James over. April you have to get me out. I'm innocent."

"Then why isn't anyone doing anything about it. They should be giving you a trial, tell me you're getting a trial"

"I'm not, I'm going to Azkaban for life, I'm not even getting a trial because of Barty Crouch" I said looking at the floor. "I meant to kill Peter but I didn't-"

"All they found of him was a finger." April said cutting me off. "Jenny and Remus don't want to believe it, they hate you and they won't believe me if I tell them. No one will. He's also been awarded the Order of Merlin" I looked at her wide eyed.

"What? Why?"

"I don't know. I thought you should know. They're going to take you to Azkaban soon and even though I didn't know the truth earlier I thought you should know what happened." April said. I nodded gratefully and stepped forwards to give her a kiss when she turned as the door opened.

"Ah, Miss. Marsden, fraternising with the enemy again?" asked a man I knew to be called Barty Crouch.

"No, I was just updating him on his current situation." April said. "Are you here to take him away?"

"Yes, I came to inform him that the Aurors are here to take him back to Azkaban where people like him belong." Barty Crouch looked at me sharply. I glared back at him. April turned to look at me and gave me a rather upset look. I saw Barty Crouch glancing April over quickly. "Shouldn't you be resting at home?"

"I've been granted permission to see Sirius, he is my child's father after all" April said coldly.

"Yes, the bastard child, well, I hope you have fun raising it." Barty Crouch said sarcastically. I saw April shoot him a look of utter contempt. April looked at me again.

"I'll see you around." She mouthed before looking away. I thought I saw some tears in her eyes but she left before I could be sure.

"If you fight against us Black it'll just make your situation even worse so I suggest you come quietly." Barty Crouch said. I glared at him.

"Why don't I get a trial?" I asked him dangerously.

"Because people like you should just be thrown into prison, we have a lot of people who said they saw you killing poor Peter Pettigrew now seize him and take him to Azkaban." Barty crouch ordered.


I sat in my cell in Azkaban, thoroughly bored. I couldn't sleep because every time I closed my eyes I saw Lily and James' dead faces, the wailing of the other prisoners kept me awake. For some reason they were all going mad. I'd heard that Dementors made you relive your worst fears and memories but there was nothing they could do. I was living it, not reliving it. I was innocent and that's all I needed to know to keep me sane in here though I could feel my morale sapping away slowly, my life leeching into oblivion. Azkaban did that to you. There were some footsteps and one of the guards came to my cell and looked at me. He was flanked by some Dementors.

"You have a visitor." He grumbled. I frowned and nodded. I wasn't supposed to have visitors.

"Who is it?"

"Someone who's here on ministry business. An Auror." He said darkly. He opened the cell and let me out. He held his wand out and I saw a few other guards nearby pointing their wands at me. I followed them to a grimy stone door and they opened it slowly and pushed me in. An auror?

"You have fifteen minutes miss." One of the guards said. The door slammed shut and I was trapped in this windowless room. There was no way out except by that door and it seemed to have merged into the wall.

"Sirius." Came an all too familiar voice. I turned and saw April standing behind me. I felt my heart leap with joy. I smiled and went to her. She held me tightly and then leant up to kiss me. I didn't want to break the kiss. After everything that had happened I just wanted it to go away.

"April what are you doing? This can't be good for the baby, you have to go home." I said.

"I know but I had to see you." April said. "I still have my auror privileges, I just can't work." She said

"April." I said exasperated.

"Tell me everything you can about when Lily and James made Peter their secret keeper, or everything that Peter did in the past week," April said urgently. "I have to try and find something to prove you're innocent."

"I don't know April. I had to play along like I was the secret keeper."

"I know. A reason why Jenny and Remus aren't talking to me right now. They don't believe me. Dumbledore won't believe me, he thinks that I've been turned slightly. He's stopped telling me when the Order meetings are."

"But you're telling the truth."

"I know I'm telling the truth!" April said sounding frustrated, "I'm telling your truth, you're innocent but I need your help if I'm going to get you out."

"There's nothing you can do April."

"No dammit! I'll get you out, I can't let you stay here." She said, she looked like she was going to cry. "I've lost Lily, James and Harry, Jenny and Remus aren't speaking to me I don't want to lose you either." She said weakly.

"Don't worry about me. Work on trying to find Wormtail." I said.

"Wormtail?" She asked slightly confused

"Peter." I said, his name was like poison now. April licked her lips nervously and nodded.

"I'll try."

"And look over Harry."

"I'm not allowed to go near him. No one is." She said quietly. I looked at her curiously. She looked at her watch. "It's nearly time to leave." She said. "I'm not supposed to be here"

"I'm glad you came" I said. I don't know why but suddenly everything seemed so civil, I felt nervous and April looked shy, like we were meeting, at Hogwarts again when she was running back to her dormitory with the masks for the masked ball. The peacock feather one for Lily, a red Dragon like mask for Jenny and an exotic blue mask for herself. I looked at her and put a hand on her face.

"I love you April. You know that. Nothing will make me change my feelings. I don't want you losing your job as Auror over this but please, try your best to get revenge." I said.

"Of course. Anything." April said. "For James and Lily right." She said with a slight smile. I smiled back.

"For James and Lily." I said, April wiped her eyes and looked at me. We heard footsteps and we both looked at the door. April took my hand and tugged at it so that I looked at her.

"Don't worry Sirius, I'll get you out" April said urgently. She glanced at the door, no one was coming to get her yet. I looked at her, right in the eyes. Again I couldn't help asking that question, April's promise seemed impossible to me.

"How?" I asked her, "Everyone thinks I killed Wormtail and those muggles, I didn't April."

"I know, you're innocent I know that." April said. She came closer to me almost hesitantly and kissed me. Even in this disgusting predicament I found some comfort in her kiss, even if it was desperate and urgent. We didn't have much time. When she pulled away I slowly opened my eyes.

"Don't lose your job over me though, promise me. Do whatever you can but don't lose your job. It's better that you don't prove I'm innocent and help others then lose your job" I said urgently. She nodded and gave me one last kiss before she pulled away. She looked at me sadly as the door opened.

"I'll do everything I can to get you out, I know you're innocent." April said quietly as she stepped away from me. A few other Aurors came into the room followed by the dementors that haunted the corridors of this place. I felt a shiver going through me, like someone had just poured liquid nitrogen down my back. April straightened her robes and gave me one last look before the Aurors escorted her out so I was left with the dementors.

"Don't Worry Sirius, I'll get you out" April had said. Well twelve years later and I'm still stuck in this hell hole of a prison. The dementors have no effect on me, I know I'm innocent and no one can tell me otherwise. Thirteen years, that's a long time of being wrongly put into Azkaban and knowing that the real murderer of Lily and James is still out there.

I've waited twelve years, twelve long years of not knowing what's happened, where Peter is, whether Harry is safe, if April, Jenny, Remus and Bo are ok. Most of my mind was preoocupied with what Jenny might look like. I never heard from anyone and I desperately wanted to know what she looked like, well no that's a lie. I had been told she was deffinaitely a girl and that she was called Lily Jennifer Marsden. That was about all that I was allowed to know. Apparently even if you are a father you're not allowed to know about your young, too dangerous, even if you are locked behind bars!

Well, all that waiting and thinking changed when the new Minister of Magic Cornelius Fudge decided to look around Azkaban. He was with some aurors that I vaguely recognised from when I used to visit April when she was at work. I took in the Minister's appearance and noticed that he had a newspaper tucked under his arm. Ah, a newspaper, the perfect way of finding out what's happening. I stood up and walked to the grimy bars of my cell. They hadn't been cleaned for years. I cleared my throat.

"Excuse me Minister." I said. Fudge looked at me rather surprised. I knew I looked very rough, my hair had grown long over the years and I now had a beard!

"Er, Black" He muttered as an acknowledgment. I gave him a polite smile.

"Would you mind if I borrowed your newspaper. I'd like to see what's going on in the world and I rather miss doing the crosswords. It gets very boring sitting here day in and day out. If it is in fact day, of course" I said to him with a polite smile. No, I didn't miss the crosswords but it might help Fudge decide to give me the newspaper. I mean what harm can it do to let me see what's happening in the world. Fudge fumbled around a bit, he was obviously surprised by my reaction. Bellatrix, my dear cousin and fellow high priority prisoner was a complete wreck in the cell opposite, she sat there mumbling away and screaming occasionally.

"Of course, you may keep it. I can always get another one and I have no use for it." Fudge said handing me the paper through the bars. I noticed he was very careful not to touch the bars or my skin. I smiled gratefully and waited until after he'd gone before reading the paper. As I looked at the front page and looked at the photo that covered it I saw him! The photo was of a rather large family of witches and wizards, the Weasleys, according to the prophet. Right there on the shoulder of the smallest boy was a rat! A rat with one toe missing, a rat that I would recognise anywhere. Well Wormtail, there you are, we meet again. I read the article underneath.

"-Returning for the start of the new school year at Hogwats, which five of the Weasley children currently attend." I read. Hogwarts! Trust Peter to hide away under the safe gaze of Dumbledore! Well not any longer Peter, I've waited thirteen long years and I will get my revenge. Nowhere is safe for you anymore, not even under the watchful gaze of Dumbledore. I'll get you, you lying rat!


A/N:-Ok, back from Espanol! It was brilliant. I Had the MOST fun ever and my band was the first ever non-professional band to perform in parc Guell. MAinly coz we perform in Wimbledon Tennis championships every year. Anyway, i had quite a bit of fun writing this chapter. Can you imagine a big fat April walking around Azkaban, not good for her child at all! NExt chappie will be up soon. I finished posting the other chappie, big thanks to JessieFlower there. Also, had fuin Writing Barty Crouch. He don't like April coz she asscociated herself with a death eater and she's having a death Eater's child (in his eyes, we all know better now don't we?)....you guys like where it leads to? I beleive the next installment of this story came out in cinemas a few months ago, lol. Anyway, I have decided i will put up the next Chapter called.....The Memorial, where it's Harry's summer after 5th year and though it may seem like it's a sequel, IT IS NOT A SEQUEL! THERE IS NO SEQUEL FOR THIS STORY!! Though you will all be introduced to Bo as a 17 year old charmer, cheeky young Rhia Marsden and the golden trio....you already know them tho....next chapter is from HArry's POV and will be the last chapter!