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That was supposed to be a one shot but several reviews wanted a second chapter so here we are .. second and last chapter , hope u like it .
Lisbon walked inside the cold warehouse and saw Jane on the ground Cho kneeling beside him and she knelt opposite to Cho .
Cho called her name and she looked up to him her mind trying to make sense of all of this " Look at me , Jane needs you " .
She looked down Jane's eyes were closed his body lifeless " Cho what's wrong " she cried and he shook his head ' We were too late " .
Then Wiley put a hand on her shoulder ' I am sorry for your loss ' and she shook her head ' No , he will survive ' she yelled .this couldn't be happening .he's not dead people .she yelled and another voice came from behind ' She is having another fit ' she heard Tork saying .
' No ' she screamed and in a blink of an eye they weren't in the store anymore , she looked down she was wrapped in a white gown locked in a padded cell ' No ' she cried then a hand on her shoulder grabbed her gently ' Wake up madam ..you just fell asleep , you should really go and get some rest ' said the young nurse .
She breathed heavily and looked around she was in Jane's hospital room by his bed side still in her chair ..it was just a nightmare she realized and sighed in relief put a hand on her face and said a quick prayer to thank god .
She looked at Jane , he had opened his eyes for her one time that she was thankful for then slipped back into oblivious and been sleeping for hours ..they tried to get her to leave but failed but the thought of a bed was very enticing at the moment since her back was killing her and her feet were swelling ..and she desperately needed to use the bathroom and have a shower .
The nurse checked his vitals "He is doing great .. believe me he won't wake up before the afternoon , you should really go and rest for the baby's sake ..you don't look good ".
Lisbon surrendered and got up to her feet " If anything happened " the nurse interrupted ' of course I will call you".
She kissed his cheek ' I love you ' she whispered in his ear before she left .
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It was just that morning that he was cleared from the hospital , he was asleep while she was in the kitchen putting pretty much every thing she learned from him into the food she was cooking .. she was pretty satisfied with her work ..it's the love she put into it that matters .she thought .
She turned around and flinched at the sight of him leaning on the door watching her ' Oh god . what are you doing here .. you descended the stairs on your own .. you are supposed to be in bed '.
She went by his side and took his arm supporting him as they walked slowly ' It's alright Teresa i am fine , just got bored ' he said as she led him to the couch .
' why are you doing this , do you want to get hurt ' she shouted at him and he looked a little hurt taken back by her out burst .
He shook his head slowly and sighed heavily pain taking over him ' No , sorry '.
She took a deep breathe ' I will bring you your pain medication , just stay here ' she ordered him .
As soon as she made it to the bed room she fell on the bed and started crying .. she felt like suffocating ..fear was a feeling she had never been able to cope with she preferred anger .. even if it was misplaced and it only made her feel more guilty .
Two days later she was screaming and Jane woke her up ' oh , you alright ?' she asked a little out of breath and lifted his shirt to check on his wound .
' I am fine , it was just a nightmare ' he said voice calm soothing her as he ran a hand through her hair ..it was the most he could do without hurting himself .
' Talk to me Teresa ' he said and she shook her head ' I don't want to '.
He looked her in the eyes ' You need to , I can recognize the look in your eyes so well .. I have seen it in the mirror every day for twelve years .. you shouldn't feel guilty Teresa .you know that right ? '.
Tears started falling on her cheeks ' I am so sorry ' she cried ' you were right , I shouldn't have pushed you '.
He shook his head ' It wasn't your fault .. things happen and you didn't know '.
She snorted ' now you're being a hypocrite Jane '.
Jane smiled ' but it is the truth , I am here now and I am fine ..not going anywhere '.
She put her hand on his cheek ' I am so scared .. I don't know what to do ..what should I do ?'it was all out in the open and she was getting it all out .
He smiled sadly ' I wish I knew ' .
' Me dying doesn't hurt me '.it was what he said before but she never really understood the true meaning behind his words .. he didn't know what to do too but for her he learnt to live with the fear ..in constant fear and smile and pretend every thing was alright ..she knew now she was just so clueless .
She was the one being a hypocrite .
It wasn't the right way to live ..you could never be completely happy when you're always afraid some thing will happen .. the problem was that Jane had already gone through that before .
It only made it worse for him to know he could live it all again .
Or not live it at all . she expected was his plan .
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Two weeks later she was in Cho's office ' you can start next month ' he said .
' Thank you Cho ..i will miss the team though ' she said and he smiled 'We would miss you too but i expect a weekly dinner at your house ..Jane's cooking of course ' he said and she laughed ' Of course , duties of the god father .. just hope Jane doesn't bribe you with food to go on with his craziness and spoil my children '.
' The training until is lucky to have you .. I am glad you would be able to help young agents and teach them leadership .. team work and to love their Job ..just like you taught me 'he said sincerely and it touched her ..he really was a great friend .
she blushed a little ' Thank you , I will do my best '.
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A week later she and Jane were having breakfast at Maries ' God I missed this place ' she said as she took another bite .
' Um .. so many memories , It feels like ages ago ' he said wistfully and she took his hand ' Are you sure you don't want me to come with you ?' she asked and he shook his head ' It's a long drive to Malibu and your bladder wouldn't last that long .. it won't take much time anyway '.
They were back in California for a few days ,he was meeting with an agent , he had decided to sell the house .. it was the next big and logical step after his taking off his ring , she wanted to help but he said he needed to do this on his own and she gave him his space .
' you will be alright on your own for a couple of hours ?' he asked worried about leaving his heavily pregnant wife on her won .
she chuckled ' Of course I will be alright .. I will just take a nap then get ready for our dinner so don't be too late or Rigsby will start dinner without us and eat all the food ' .. she was very happy they would all have dinner together at the Rigsby's house later .. just like old times though they would be missing Cho .
He grinned ' Grace would never allow him , my dear .but don't worry I will pick you up in time ' he gave her a soft kiss then left .
She left Maries and rode the cap but instead of giving their hotel's address , she had other plans .
She stood in front of Angela and Charlotte's graves and slowly knelt down to put the bouquet of flowers between them ' I should have done this a while ago , I am sorry .. ' .
She wiped a few tears ' I just wanted you to know .. I love him so much , I will take good care of him for you .. I promise ' .
