Chapter Two: Three Months Later.
Exactly Three Months Later.
It's been three months since Cecilia ended our relationship. She never gave me an exact reason. I didn't understand. I loved her to the fullest and with everything that I am. Nothing seemed right with the world. After all she put me through I just couldn't fit it in my heart to hate her. I still loved her. I had no clue what or where she was. All I know is that Chloe talks to her.
The house was empty without her. My life was empty, nothing was considered worthwhile anymore. For the past three months I've replayed what happened and tried to figure out where I had gone wrong. Was everything that happened based on a lie or was I just rushing into things. Had I don't something wrong? Okay, Rob don't keep dwelling on the past. Try and pick yourself up from this. You did it before and you can do it again. No thoughts of suicide no thoughts of dying. Just pick yourself up and try again…if possible…as if I'd ever want to. I made a vow to her that I would never love another woman forever and ever. Was this all just a dream? A really long and bad dream.
Chloe was living with me only because my family was afraid I was going to commit suicide and I sometimes honestly thought that. I just couldn't put that blame on Cecilia to make her think that because of her I killed myself…well it would be because of her but still. Chloe tried to take so much off me but she knows that I still love her. I just could not tell if she still loved me.
"Rob? I…I am going out. Are you sure you will be okay for a few hours? Or do you want to go to Mom and Dad's?" Chloe yelled up the stairs.
"I think I'm going to Mom and Dad's. I really don't want to be alone…not today at least." I said walking down the stairs to see her.
"Okay sweetie let's get you there." We walked out the door with our spring coats and into the car. Chloe drove extremely fast and we made it there in record time. "Okay Rob. I will see you later." I nodded and before I shut the door Chloe stopped me. "Oh and Rob! Try and have some kind of fun. Please…For me?" I nodded and shut the door.
(Cecilia's POV; Present day time. April 14th)
"Cecilia…why the fuck are you so stupid? You really are…You left the PERFECT GUY! I really can't believe you. You went through so much to get me and mom to love him and it finally works and you leave him. What is going through that insane mind of yours? Could you please tell us what went wrong, where on earth he had messed up?" I was laying in bed when Haley came in and threw a pillow at me. "Look I'm tired of seeing you mope around. You know he loves you and I can't figure out for the life of me what on earth went wrong. Cecilia it's not every day you find the perfect guy. The guy that gave up everything for you. He loves you Cecilia what the fuck is wrong with that?"
"HALEY! I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT!!! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND."
"Understand what Cecilia. Your stupidity…yes you are right I don't understand that."
"No, you don't understand…just forget it you just don't understand." I got up angry and stomped into the bathroom. They didn't understand…no one did…but me. I understood why I left him. Well not really. Something just didn't feel right. I hoped in the shower and quickly washed my hair and body. Chloe and I were going shopping for the day. It would be the first time I've seen her since I left his house on February 15th at 2:27am.
I finished my shower quickly and got dressed into jeans and a light sweater. It was supposed to be warm out so I didn't want to wear a jacket. What Haley said was true in a way. I don't know why I left him. I felt that he deserved better. Someone that wasn't me. A girl that was amazing in every single way possible. But I just couldn't be her. I wanted to be. I just wasn't…Cecilia you are an idiot. Why did I let him go? For all I know he probably doesn't want me now. Not after I hurt him as badly as I did. Chloe was setting me up with an agent to get me in the West End today. I looked very nice and she said since it was her friend Kristina that I didn't have to look as professional as a normal client would.
My cell phone vibrated and it was Chloe. She texted my phone I'll be there in a few seconds. Come on out. Well here goes the rest of my life. I ran down the stairs and out the door before anyone could say anything. Chloe pulled up just as I ran down the front steps. "Hey stranger. I've missed you so much. Someone else has too but we won't talk about him if you do not want too."
"Hey Chloe. I've…missed you too. And thank you but we can if you want to know everything."
"Really? You'll talk about it? Wow I'm shocked. Okay well I don't know anything because HE doesn't know anything. What happened?" She was concentrated on the road.
"Chloe…you must swear to me that you will not repeat this. Please. I beg you if you want to know you cannot tell a single living soul on this earth ever."
"Okay, Cecilia. I promise you that." She glanced over at me and gave me a half smile.
"Remember the night I was stabbed?"
"Yes. How could any of us forget that? But continue." She slowed down to the traffic light.
"Well when my dad took you and Rob out for lunch/dinner or whatever it was I found out that I was…"
"That you were what Cecilia….????" She urged me to continue on.
"That I was pregnant." I got quieter as I said the word…pregnant.
"Are you…serious?"
"Yes. That night I was stabbed, Emmett hit the baby. That night I lost the baby." Chloe was stopped at the red light still and cars were beeping behind her. She continued to drive to the nearest parking lot.
"Sorry go ahead."
"When we got back home I had Charlie check just to make myself 100% positive. I didn't want my dad to know and I knew I could trust Charlie enough to not tell anyone. I had no plan on telling Rob. Than Charlie reiterated what my dad had said about I could not have kids and that just made me sort of upset." I was slightly crying and she put her hand on mine. "So I thought about the relationship me and Rob had and I had come up with that he deserved someone who could give him children. He deserved anyone but me. I decided that after he proposed. I just couldn't hurt him anymore Chloe. I really couldn't." I looked down at my hands and wiped the tears away.
"Cecilia…he needs you. I've never seen him so depressed. Even when Lily died he was not this depressed. He has had thoughts of suicide. I love you to death Cecilia but my brother needs you and you know you need him too. I understand more than you know about losing a child…I was pregnant and Jesse beat him up so bad that it the child was lost. I know Cecilia I know what it is like. But Rob and Jesse are to totally different people. You have to understand that you both will probably die without each other. Cecilia…please go back to him. He really believes you don't love him so he won't go back to you."
I took a few deep breathes and nodded. I did miss him. I loved him more than anything else in this world. I did realize that I was stupid for leaving him…for not telling him the truth. I'm sure when he finds out all this he WILL hate me. "Cecilia he could never ever hate you." I did not just say that out loud! I know I didn't.
"Chloe! How long were you able to….?"
"Oh. Um. Opps. Crap I gave it all away. What on earth was I thinking? I'm sorry Cecilia. Yes I can. I have been able to for my entire life." Chloe pulled back on the road and started toward her friend Kristina's agency. We got there in a few minutes. Chloe parked in the reserved parking space near the door and placed the sticker in the window. "Well…do you have a song prepared and stuff?"
"Yes I do. Will you go in with me?"
"Of course sweetie. I would not miss it for the world…unless you didn't want me there however my mind reading abilities are a lot stronger than Rob's are. I can actually read your mind the entire time while he can only read it at certain points. I guess you have like a mental block on him or something. The only day I could not hear you was well the last time I saw you actually."
"Ha-ha. Umm. Should we go now?" Chloe nodded and we walked into the building. We went into the elevator and went up to the top floor of the building. I was so nervous and I knew Chloe could tell. She smiled lightly at me and the door opened to the top floor.
