This is a big house. Those were my first thoughts. The house was huge. In a way it reminded me of the Cullen house, of my one-time home. But I had to remind myself it was my home no longer.

'But they still want you there' my mind fought back.

'I don't belong there.' I chided myself, knowing that no matter how many times I told myself that, I'd still want to go back.

'Yes you do. You have a Cullen with you.' It said a little mockingly.

'No, it's a Swan!' I snapped.

'Whatever, you know the truth. It's Edwards. There's nothing you can do about that.' my mind told me smugly.

I sighed in defeat. It was right. I had tried to get an abortion, but I couldn't. Even if it was Edwards, that was cruel. It felt wrong to have this baby, like I was having my brothers baby. Even though said brother was as rotten to me as a tomato that was in the sun to long. I couldn't do that to him.

I still wasn't sure about one thing- would I keep the baby, or put it up for adoption?

It's been 1 week since that nightmare, and every time I think about it, it sends shivers down my spine. How could I have even thought about an abortion?

Luck was finally on my side for once. My friend Maddie found me when I was leaving the hospital in tears, and brought me to her house. I'd been here 6 1/2 days.

Of course when she'd asked me what I was doing, I'd had to tell her. But she's the only one knows.

I met Maddie 13 years ago. We were both 5, and it was my first day of kindergarten. This was back when my parents still existed. Of course I visited their grave every year. But regardless, all the kids were calling me names like "crayon head" "pickle breath" and "cootie girl". Well hey, you can't expect much else from 5 year olds can you? But Maddie stood up for me, and we'd been friends since.

Only in 6th grade she had to move to California, and we'd lost contact. Until 6 1/2 days ago.

We were now living in L.A. I don't know why I let her drag me to this really populated, dangerous, expensive place, but I did. Alice would love to go shopping here.

"Bella! You cell phone is ringing! It's Alice! Should I tell her anything?" Maddie yelled, coming into the room that was now mine. It's light blue walls taunting me. Reminding me of Edward's room. The reason I was here away from my family.

"No, I'll talk to her." I said in a resigned tone and sighed. Maddy gave me a pity look, which I shot down with a glare, and left the room.

"Alice." I said with a slight tone.

"Oh Bella! You're alright! I wasn't sure if you were going to answer your phone! You haven't answered any of the 100 times I called you. AND I COUNTED!" She shouted the last part loud, and I mean really loud.

"Alice! Why are you calling me! I just want peace."

"Your family misses you Bella." she went back to her sweet, soft tone.

"My family's dead." I told her stubbornly.

"You know which family I mean. We're as good as. Besides, they weren't your family. I don't even know why you go to their graves." she said, stressing the words that meant my old family. We both knew she was right. My old family was full of drunkards and fear, of dead beat parents and hiding.

"Alice, I know that they could be a bit rough and abusive with me, but I go out of respect. Is that all you wanted?" I was getting frustrated with her.

"Yeah." I breathed a sigh of relief. "But Edward wants to talk to you." Upon hearing his name I immediately tensed up.

"Alice no! I'm happy here. You know what happened, I don't want to talk to him, and he wants nothing to do with me." I almost yelled at her.

"But I want my niece or nephew. I know you, and I know you didn't go through with it. Or you would be here."

"No, I would not be there regardless, and just because it's Edwards doesn't mean that we're necessarily going to be a family. Especially when your fling hates you, never speaks to you, wants nothing to do with your child, and the list goes on. Do you want me to go on?" I bit at her.

"He does to want the kid! Just talk to him now!" She screamed at me. I knew there was no arguing. I'd have to talk to Edward because she was already running to get him.

"Edward! It's the love of your life!" Alice yelled to the door. I could have sworn I heard someone running, as if he was eager to talk to me. That's weird.

"Alice! Give me the phone!" To me he sounded mad, especially since he shouted it at her.

"Bella." He said, a rough to in his voice.

"Edward." I rolled my eyes when saying his name. I didn't want to talk to him at all, but I knew there was NO persuading Alice.

"Are you okay?"

"Okay? Yes, I'm fine. I've been fine. Or are you asking if I'm still pregnant? The answer is still yes!" I don't know why I was being so rude to him.

"All I asked is if you were doing alright! I was worried about you. You just ran off like that! Do you know what you did to Alice? Esme? Carlisle? YOU HAD THEM SO WORRIED THEY COULDN'T THINK STRAIGHT!" I had pulled the phone a foot away and I could still hear the last part clearly.

"Sounds like you weren't worried about me, you were worried about them."

"I was also worried about you! If something happened to you, think about what it would do to our family! You're just like a daughter to Carlisle and Esme. In fact you are. They adopted you, remember?"

"No, they fostered me, and asked to keep me until I was 18. And what do you want? Was the whole point to shout at me for keeping the baby?"

"You know what I want." His voice didn't sound rude. It sounded pain and tortured.

"I'm not going to do that! Anything else?" I screamed at him, sure the whole neighborhood could hear me.

"Yeah, stay out of my life for good."

"News FA-LASH! Your the one who wanted to talk to me. I'm fine without you!" And I pushed the red button ending the call.

"Hey Bella," I jumped. I hadn't known Maddie had been there the whole time. "You need to lay off the shouting. Stress isn't good for you."

"Hump! That's also what they say about caffeine." I growled.

"Good advice. Only risk everything if you want a miscarriage."

"Maybe a miscarriage wouldn't be so bad." I dropped onto my bed, which I had been standing around.

Maddie shot me a death glare.

"Kidding. Take a joke!" I said, holding up my hands like I would for the cops.

"Well, I was just here to give you your food." She said, still sort of glaring, and putting a tray on my lap.

I sighed. "I can join you at the table you know."

"Yes, I know, but I just assumed after the call you'd want to be alone."

"How'd you guess." I mumbled.

"Cause I know you. You keep forgetting we were close." And she she went out the door, shutting it, and leaving me to think in the light of the noon-high sun.

"Hey! No fair! Your cheating Edward!" I called to him. We were in the forest trying to catch up with him. He was so fast, he naturally left me in the dust. We were racing to his house, or OUR house now.

"It's not my fault your slow! Stop being the tortoise, and try being the rabbit!" He laughed at me looking back. Somehow, he had managed to never hit a tree.

"They say the rabbit tired out and the tortoise won!" I panted, still trying to shout loud enough for him to hear me.

"They're just fairy tales!" He called, turned around, and sped up.

My parents had just died two months ago, but I already felt more at home with the Cullens then I did in my own home.

I spent all my time with Edward now. We mostly were outside playing. I was in fifth grade, and he was in sixth. He always teased me that I was 11 and he was 12 and that he was so much better than me because of it. Show off.

With that anger burning in my heart, I sped up enough to finally be neck and neck with him.

He saw me and laughed. "Sorry Bells, not today. Maybe in a few years." And as the sky hit Twilight he hit the fence of our house, jumped over it, and went through the door.

I hoped the fence, and ran through the door, and to the kitchen, panting and lungs burning, to find him reclining on a chair, drinking water.

"What took you so long?" He said grinning.

I just took a sip of my water and spit it at him.

"Hey Alice!" I said, passing her to go up the stairs to my room.

"Hey Bella! Careful with my brother! You guys are so cute together!" Alice winked.

I just laughed and nodded my head, shaking off her warning.

Now that I thought about it, her warnings came a lot. I should have listened to her.

I realized the phone was still by me, because it rang again. I shook my head making a mental note to change my number.

"Hey Bella! I'm SO sorry about my stupid brother." Alice cried. I wished I could hug her, she sounded like she was crying.

"It's alright. I guess I should have listened to your warning." I sighed.

"What warning?" She asked confused.

"The one where you told me to be careful about him."

"Oh! That one! I was just playing with you, you know." She explained. Silly Alice.

"You were still right." I pointed out.

"I know. And I wasn't really playing with you that much. You guys were cute together, but...." she hesitated, unsure of how to go on.

"But then he turned into a jerk." I finished for her.

"Bella-" something rustled in the background.

"Listen Bella, I know you don't like him. Just don't do anything stupid. Remember, you're pregnant. I WANT THAT CHILD! So I can spoil them and take em shopping!" Alice sqeualed.

"I'd love to see that." The smile reached my tone. It was my kid, not me. I could bend the rules for my kid. Edwards kid. Cringe.

"Look, Edward is beating himself up about it."

"Alice I-"

"Alice! WHO ARE YOU TALKING TO!" Edwards voice roared.

"Whoops, have to go Bella! Don't want to get you in trouble. Just remember, he wants that kid Bella. Don't, I repeat DON'T do anything stupid Bella."

"Promise." I told her, and heard the line die.

I sighed and started eating my now cold food.