Chapter 1: Pain

Bella Pov

He left me. He doesn't want me anymore. I knew this had to happen sometime. After all, I am only human. I wandered around the forest humbly. I didn't know how long I wandered. Hours? Minutes? It didn't matter. When I tripped on the roots of a nearby tree and fell to my knees, I didn't even bother to get up. I just kept lying there. Soon, it turned cold and I knew Charlie would be looking for me. But I couldn't move at all; it was like my joints were frozen where they stood.

The sun began to disappear and I could feel raindrops falling through the thick canopy of trees. I was so absent minded that I hardly noticed that a man appeared in front of me. He was so pale, his eyes were gold and he was gorgeous. Another veggie vamp, just what I needed to help me get over him. He had blood running down his chin which was staining his clothes. He had a lifeless bloody bunny in his hand. Uh-oh I thought. He was in the middle of hunting; something told me that this wasn't good. He sniffed the air and a pained expression crossed his face. He wanted my blood, but he knew he had to resist. He walked towards me, eager.

"I'm Sorry." He told me as he ran over and plunged his razor sharp teeth into my neck. I screamed out. This was it. This was how I would die. Edward I thought. Edward…I love you I thought again as the fire started to course through my body burning everything. He kept sucking until I lost consciousness. The last thing I saw was the vampire being pulled off me and snarls coming from my saviors.

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Pain, Pain is all I felt. The pain was all I could think about. It consumed me. Edward I thought again as I winced under the pain of the change wasn't joking when he said changing was painful. It felt like fire licking the inside of my veins. I was completely consumed by the burning. It made my body crumble to the floor.

"Ahhh." I screamed at the top of my lungs. The pain wasn't going away. Tears leaked through my eyes, the pain was too much. My body ached twice as much. It felt like my body was going to explode into fire. It made it that much worse that wasn't there by my side helping me through this.

Flashback

We were laying in our meadow together. I was lying on his chest. He had his arm wrapped around me.

"Edward." I whispered to him tracing his face with my eyes.

"Yes." He breathed.

"I want to stay like this forever." I said to him. He laughed.

"Me too."

"Edward I want you to change me." I said to him. His smile turned into a thin line. "Edward." Repeating his name.

"Bella, we talked about this-"

"Edward please…" I whined.

"I don't know….Bella I don't want you to become like this…like me."He whispered in my ear.

"Edward I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Why won't you change me?" I asked him in a stern voice.

"Bella, you want to become a monster like me?" He questioned me.

"You're not a monster Edward. I love you because your sweet and you smell nice." I said to him trying not to laugh.

"Really now, only because I smell nice." He joked.

"Edward please stop fighting with me on this. Why won't you change me?"

"Bella, please just drop it. I won't change you and that's final." He said getting a little irritated

"Please" I whined again.

"Bella." He said. His voice was getting more stern. I turned away and crossed my hands over my chest. "Bella, don't be mad. I just don't want you to be like this. Please understand." I gave in and nodded. He might have won this battle but he hasn't won the war.

End Flashback

The memories were coming back to me more powerful than before. I missed him so much. I wanted him to make this pain stop. I swear I could see him here watching me. I tried to get him he was moving farther and farther away.

"Bella, Bella." I could hear his voice whisper to me. Every time I tried to move closer he would move back. He would move back until I couldn't see him anywhere. He was gone like before leaving me in a dark hole to be by myself. I turned around and found the rest of the family around me. They were disappearing too. One by one leaving me just like he did. Tears fell down my face.

Flashback

"Hey Bella!" Emmett screamed from across the room. I walked into the game room and found Emmett playing video games. "Bella!" He screamed again giving me a hug.

"Emmett-I-can't-breathe." I said to him trying not to lose consciousness.

"Oh sorry." He said letting me go. I fell to the ground. I put my hand to my chest to make sure my heart was still beating. "I forget you're human sometimes." I smiled at him.

"So, what were you doing?" I asked.

"Playing video games. Want to play?"

"No, No, No! I'm not playing video games."

"Please Bella, Jasper's being mean. He won't play with me. He's too busy with Alice." He whined. "Please." He said again with his best puppy dog face. Who could resist Emmett's puppy face.

"Fine."

"Yay! Bella!" He screamed jumping up and down. He knocked over Esme's favorite vase. It was about to fall when Emmett and I looked at each other. He ran over and slid over to it barely missing it. Crash. The pieces went everywhere.

"EMMETT MCCARTHY CULLEN!" Esme screamed from the kitchen. "YOU DID NOT JUST BREAK MY FAVORITE VASE?"

"NO!" He screamed. "IT WAS ALL BELLA'S FAULT." I gasped.

"No….No…" I said shaking my head.

"EMMETT CULLEN YOU GET YOUR BUTT OVER HERE AND STOP BLAMING BELLA." She yelled. I held back a laugh as he hung his head down and walked into the kitchen. I could hear Esme. She was anything but happy. He came out of the kitchen and was silent.

"It's all your fault." He whispered to me as he walked up the stairs. "Thanks Bella." He said sarcastically. That did it I fell to the floor and laughed so hard. I could barely stop. "Ha-ha very funny." He stuck his tongue out at me.

End Flashback

Another memory about my family or so called family. The pain was killing me on the inside. It was filling my body with pain. I screamed louder and louder. The pain was so hard to suppress. I was losing control of my body. My body was thrashing everywhere. My arms were going up and down. My legs were kicking all over the place. I hardly noticed it when I was picked up from the dirt and leaves. I felt the wind blow in my face as someone carried me and placed me on a couch. The coach was smooth and cold against my heated and painful body. The cold hands that held me soothed the pain but, only for a minute. It was only day one of my transformation, and I already wanted to die. I couldn't stop screaming and thrashing. I felt another pair of cold hands on my forehead trying to calm down. Soon, the pain went from dull pressures to pure agony, I didn't know how much longer I could take this.

Allegra Pov

We were coming to Forks from Canada. We wanted to meet the Cullen's. We've heard so much about them from the Denali Coven. They were also vegetarian vampires just like us. We wanted to meet them and talk about Adam. He doesn't have enough control over himself to abstain from biting humans. Blood called to him everywhere he went. He tried to resist but once in a while the urge to kill over took him and he couldn't stop. So we were going to Forks in search of their family.

We took a plane from Toronto, Canada to Forks, Washington. The plane ride was short but sweet. We went first class to make sure Adam didn't commit a massacre on the plane. He was trying not to breathe and think about the other humans aboard the plane. We landed in Seattle. We took our luggage and went to our new house. We decided to rent a house. Our stay here wasn't permanent. The house was enormous. The house was white and old but still beautiful. It had nine bedrooms and seven and a half bathrooms which we would use anyway.

We stopped in front of our house. The boys were already fighting over whose room was whose.

"I get the biggest room." Oliver announced.

"Why do you get the bigger room?" Adam asked.

"Because Olivia and I are married. Duh!" he said. I laughed. Adam rolled him eyes.

"First one there gets the room." Adam said challenging Oliver. Adam was already halfway up the stairs when Oliver noticed what was happening.

"That's not fair you cheated!" Oliver screamed running after him. I heard a Crash.

"ADAM AND OLIVER THOMPSON WHAT DID YOU DO KNOW?" Gabriel yelled.

"He did it." They said at the same time which was very unconvincing. Adam rolled his eyes as he came down the stairs. "I'm going hunting." He muttered as he passed me.

"I'll so with you son." My husband said following him in the forest. The rest of us made our way into the house and started to unpack.

Adam Pov

Good hunting I needed this. I needed to quench my thirst before going out to where humans were. Gabriel was following me. We went deeper and deeper into the woods. I took a deep breath and let my senses take over...

I let myself go no conscience no nothing. Just a hunter and its prey. I smelled something sweet and little, it was a family of bunnies. They heard me and quickly scattered. I ran to catch the one that was going the slowest. I pounced and sunk my teeth into its flesh. I sucked and sucked on the bunny. I could feel blood going down my chin and staining my clothes. Allegra was going to have a fit.

A sudden breeze carried a delectable sent to my nose. It was mouthwatering, it was human. I Sniffed and sniffed the air letting it draw me closer. I would never forgive myself for what I was about to do, as I saw a frail human lying in a ball on the floor crying. I walked toward her.

"I'm Sorry." I told her as I darted to her ready for the kill.

Gabriel Pov

I heard a bloody curdling scream coming from the woods. I quickly dropped my deer and ran toward the scream. I picked up my pace trying to find Adam. He wouldn't forgive himself after what he had done. I came to a stop as I saw Adam sucking on an almost lifeless girl. I sprinted toward him and threw him off of her I snarled at him. He had a pained expression on his face.

"I'm sorry….I'm so…sorry." He said putting his head in his hands. He left so ashamed. He went up against a tree and sunk down and cried tearless sobs. I looked back at the girl as she writhed in pain.

"Adam, we need to take her back to the house." I picked her up and went straight for the house. Adam slowly followed at human pace. I pushed the door open and carefully set the girl down on the couch. Adam was behind me. I cautiously watched as he traced her face with his hand. He looked at her with such regret and pain. This was the first time a human he had bitten survived. The family arrived quickly as the scent of her blood filled the house.

"What the hell were you thinking? How could be so irresponsible?" Oliver yelled at him.

"It was an accident. I didn't mean too. I…I… couldn't resist. She smelt unbelievably good." Adam said back to Oliver.

"We've taught you better than this." Oliver responded back to him.

"What did Adam do this time?" Olivia asked.

"Yeah, what did you do this time?" Evelyn said in a nasty voice. Evelyn followed Adam's eyes to a girl on the couch. They all gasped.

"You didn't." Everyone said at the same time. He didn't respond he just stared at the girl. Dillon moved to the girl on the couch and kneeled by her head.

"Awww, that poor girl." Dillon said in a pouty face.

"Ahhh…" Her voice filled the house as she screamed one last time before the change was over.

Bella Pov

One last jolt of pain steered through me. I screamed on last time. The pain was dulling. My heart starting to beat slower and slower until I heard nothing. My senses becoming stronger. When the last jolt of pain was finished, I slowly opened my eyes. Everything was different; so much clearer. I saw seven vampires with golden eyes in a circle in the middle of the room staring at me.

"Hello Dear, My names Allegra and this is my husband Gabriel." She said.

"Hi I'm Olivia." A beautiful blonde haired girl said to me. She seemed really sweet unlike Rosalie. "This is Oliver my husband." He had short brown hair and a semi muscular body.

"Hi I'm Bella." I said to her extending my hand. She shook it and smiled.

"This is Evelyn." She pointed to the girl with long flowy brown hair. "This is Dillon." She pointed to a cute boy in the corner. He had blonde hair and the cutest face. "Last but not least is Adam." She sneered. He was very attractive. He had toned body, strong jaw, and was drop dead gorgeous.

"This might come as a shock to you but you're a-" Gabriel started to say.

"Vampire." I said interrupting Gabriel. "I already know." They all gasped.

"What do you mean you already know?" Olivia asked.

"I had a boyfriend who was a vampire. He left me in the forest two days ago. Then you came across me." I said looking at Adam. Everyone sent him a glare.

"Oh, I'm sorry…Wait how did he resist your blood. It smelt so good." He asked.

"They were just like you. They only drank animal blood. They were very careful around me." I responded to Adam. Adam lowered his head in shame.

"It's alright…Really." I said to Adam.

"NO it's not alright. I'm not supposed to lose control like that. I almost killed you…"He paused. "You could have died." He whispered softly. If I hadn't been a vampire I wouldn't have heard him. He reminded me so much of Edward always blaming himself for everything. He ran out the door letting it slam. I looked up at his family.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean-"

"It's fine…he's just sensitive right now. He's never had much control and when he bit you…it kind of set him off." Allegra said cutting me off. "Are you Thirsty dear?" I felt a little burning sensation in my throat. It was nothing big. I didn't have the urge to have blood.

"No, I'm fine." I said to reassuring her

"Are you sure?" Allegra said urging me on.

"I…" I started to say.

"Olivia and Evelyn will go with you."

"Allegra, I'm fine really."

"Bella, you're a new born vampire. Just as a precaution…please just go."

"Alright." I sighed. Evelyn and Olivia ran over to me and led me deep into the woods.

"Just let yourself go. Let your instincts take over and run." After she gave me instruction I took off running. I smelt a group of deer to the east. I let myself go and went toward the deer. I found myself in a familiar place. I was just here three days earlier. In our meadow, I laid down and let the memories take over.

Flashback

I woke up in the hospital. The heart monitor was beeping and I saw the IV in my arm. I was lucky that the Cullens showed up when they did. I would have been dead if they didn't. Edward came in the door and quickly rushed to my side as he saw that my eyes were open. I felt tears leak out of the corners of my eyes.

"Everything's going to be okay…you're okay. I'll always be here with you. I'll never leave you." He kissed my forehead.

End Flashback

What a lie. I was so stupid to believe him. But I still wanted to hear him say that it would all be okay. I wanted to hear him whisper in my ear that he loved me and that he needed me. That he was always going to be there for me. That he was never going to leave me. I wanted him to be there so badly. I wanted him to kiss away the pain and make it stop. I wanted him to soothe it all away. But he wasn't here.