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"Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love." -Charlie Brown
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RIN'S POV
It has been 2 weeks since that incident with Hyogamaru... Since I realized that I loved Lord Sesshomaru. Every second I would look at him, but he would realize it and I would look away. I was more embarrassed to look at him because I knew that a human like me wouldn't be together with him.. But somehow I didn't care and I just kept staring.
I walked and then saw Lord Sesshomaru's castle in front of us. It was huge because Lord Sesshomaru expanded his empire during the years. We walked into the entrance of the castle where everyone bowed to him. I knew they didn't bow for me because everyone said that I was his "Personal Servant". I don't know if I was a servant because I never did anything to serve Lord Sesshomaru.
"Rin." Sesshomaru said and stopped walking.
"Yes Lord Sesshomaru?"
"Come with me to my office." Lord Sesshomaru said walking into the hallway of his office.
I wondered why Lord Sesshomaru wanted to speak with me. Maybe I did something wrong or I said something that made him angry. I sighed and continued walking with Lord Sesshomaru. He opened the door and he stopped.
"Rin" Lord Sesshomaru said it sounded like a statement more than a question.
"Tomorrow we will be settting off again."
"So soon? Why?" I said.
"Because I have a business to attend, but you could stay here if you desire." Lord Sesshomaru said.
"No, of course I'll come with you." I said and smiled at him. I wondered why Lord Sesshomaru wanted to go off on a journey again. Maybe it had something to do with his empire..
"Rin why do you do that?"
"Huh? Do what?" I said confused.
"Why do you smile so much?" He said. I was surprised that Lord Sesshomaru would ask that.
"It's because I have something to smile about." I smiled again.
"Something?"
"Yup!" I turned around and walked out his office as quickly as I could.
I couldn't wait to get out of his office because I was so close of saying "Because I love you so much Lord Sesshomaru!" Good thing I didn't… I mean what if he doesn't love me back? Then I couldn't look at him again without crying. So, it's just better for me to keep my feelings in my heart. Even though that's not what I want...
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Sesshomaru's thoughts
Every time Rin looks at me I feel weak. I don't know how to describe its like all the troubles I have are lifted off my shoulders. It would be easy to take away her life, but somehow I can not do it. I get concerned every time she sets off to look for food on her own. I suppose it's just pity that I have for her.. I think.
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Rin's POV
I went outside to see Lord Sesshomaru waiting for me. I ran to him and we started walking along the forest route. I still wondered why we were setting on a journey again.
It started getting dark because we have been traveling since morning. Lord Sesshomaru decided to camp for the night. I looked at Lord Sesshomaru and saw that he was troubled of something. He stood up and walked away.
"Lord Sesshomaru? Where are you going?"
"I am going to walk for a little." He said without looking at me. When Lord Sesshomaru disappeared from my sight I decided to ask Master Jaken where we are heading for.
"Master Jaken?"
I saw that Jaken was sleeping and nudged him a little.
"Huh? … What do you want woman?" He said angrily
"Do you know where we are headed?" I said
Jaken sighed. "Don't you know anything? Lord Sesshomaru is planning to marry a woman in the Southern Empire to expand his empire!"
I gasped. I didn't know how to react. Lord Sesshomaru with another woman. I knew it was going to happen someday, but I didn't know it would hurt so bad… I don't know how to act should I be happy, angry or sad..? Why didn't Lord Sesshomaru tell me? I covered my face with my hands and thought about what was I going to do? What service do I have to offer him then?
"What's wrong with you woman? Are you sick? You humans are so weak!" He said as he turned around and slept again.
I didn't want to cry or anything because Lord Sesshomaru would ask what's wrong and I don't know how to answer him. And if he did I would have to lie to him. I never lied to him before and I don't want to start. I heard a rustle in the bushes. I saw Lord Sesshomaru come back and he caught a glance at me.
I looked away from him as he sat down. My eyes started to blur and soon as I knew it tears started to pour from my eyes. I saw Lord Sesshomaru stand up and come close to me.
"Rin. What is bothering you?" He said looking at me.
I sniffed and I looked away from him. I was heartbroken, angry and confused at the same time. Why didn't he tell me?
"N-Nothing." I said and I lied because it… it was something. That was the first time I ever lied to Lord Sesshomaru.
"Umm I-I am going for a walk. Don't worry about me, I am going to stay close." I said and I forced a smile in my face. I stood up, but Lord Sesshomaru pulled me down.
"Rin what's wrong? Don't lie." He said looking at me without any expression. I managed to get out of his clutches and ran. I just ran without looking back. This was a mistake thinking that Lord Sesshomaru would ever love a stupid human like me. I am so stupid!
I just ran and ran until I bumped into something really hard and fell into the ground. I looked up to see that it was no one other than Lord Sesshomaru. I was embarrassed to looked at him and ashamed. I stood up and rubbed my left arm.
"Rin why are you acting this way?" He said looking at me.
"I-I don't know. I just… I wanted you to be truthful with me." I said
"Truthful of what?"
"Of you marrying another woman! Why didn't youtell me!" I said yelling and sobbing at the same time.
"I didn't think it was important… Why are you so upset about it?"
"Of course it's important… and I am upset because… I-I You would abandon me." I wiped my tears. I thought that Lord Sesshomaru would never leave me because I was worth something to him, but I guess I was just asking for too much. I am sorry that I hoped for too much.
"Abandon you? I am not going to marry that woman. Her father requested me to marry her, but I am to refuse his offer to expand his empire. I don't share anything of what I have."
"Why didn't you tell me? I cried for nothing.." I said. "I am sorry for yelling at you. It was because I was really worried. I am sorry Lord Sesshomaru." I said
I saw Lord Sesshomaru approached and he embraced me. My heart started beating fast and I started to cry again. I wrapped my hands around his waist. He slowly let me go and walked away. I ran to catch up to him.
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As I slept leaning against a large tree. I saw Lord Sesshomaru standing and gazing into the forest. I remembered what happened yesterday and I felt that my eyes were puffy. I felt them and I was right. I also remembered that Lord Sesshomaru embraced me yesterday and I smiled to that. I stood up and stretched.
"Ohayo" I said to Lord Sesshomaru, but he didn't say anything.
He turned around and I blushed. What? Why was I blushing? I smiled at Lord Sesshomaru.
"We are going." Lord Sesshomaru said without saying anything and turned around then walked.
I ran and stood beside Lord Sesshomaru.
"Where are we going Lord Sesshomaru?" I said
"Southern empire." He said
"Why?"
"Child! Stop being a nuisance Lord Sesshomaru! He is busy thin-"
"Jaken."
"Oh Yes Lord Sesshomaru!" He said and bowed.
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As we reached the Southern empire. I saw a standard sized empire. Lord Sesshomaru's empire was twice as big as this. We approached the castle we came around a huge gate.
We entered and 2 demons came to welcome us. They were fox demons. One demon had a beard and he was very short. The other demon, it looked like it was his daughter, was beautiful she had a very expensive kimono and she had 3 peach markings on each cheek. She was as tall as me, up to Lord Sesshomaru's shoulder and she had pointy ears like Lord Sesshomaru's.
"Ah.. Lord Sesshomaru.. You decided to marry my young daughter I see.." The man said.
"I am very obliged Lord Sesshomaru.." She said adequately.
"No." Lord Sesshomaru said.
"No what?"
"I am not here to marry your daughter."
"What? So you're going to reject her?" The man said angrily.
I saw that the woman was starting to cry. I couldn't help, but to feel sad for her. Being rejected hurts.
"Why? Lord Sesshomaru?"
"Because I don't share my empire for the likes of you."
"Do you think our empire is appalling?"
"I don't share anything with anyone of what is mine."
"My daughter has been in love with you since you've met her 200 years ago! She hasnever been with anyone and she has been waiting for you! How dare you…"
I felt sad. She has known Lord Sesshomaru longer than I did and she was waiting for him. Two hundred years.. She must be really in love with him. I felt guilty for some reason too, because I loved Lord Sesshomaru. I looked away.
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Sesshomaru's POV
That fox demon loves me? That impudence.. I just came across her 200 years ago when I was slaying a demon. I looked at Rin.. My eyes widen of what I see. She looked away from me. Rin looked sad and hurt. My heart started to ache. I didn't know why I feel this way, but I didn't like it.
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Rin's POV
"Oh I see you're in love with a human! A mortal!" the old man said.
I looked at the Lord of the fox demon tribe when he said that. Then I looked at Lord Sesshomaru.
"Is she better than me father?" the female demon said.
"Of course not, dear.. Who would love a human? They are stupid and pathetic. A demon has no use for such mortals."
I listened to the words he said. He was right… because I didn't do anything for Lord Sesshomaru. I just followed him and cause difficulty for him. The only reason I follow him is because I love him so much and he's the reason I am living. I am so selfish I never thought about what Lord Sesshomaru wanted. I wanted to cry, but I just held it inside for now.
"Enough!" Lord Sesshomaru said.
I looked at him and he saw me. I think he knows that I was sad. Lord Sesshomaru walked out.
"I am sorry." I said to the daughter of the fox tribe.
"Yeah right human." The daughter said,
I turned around and followed Lord Sesshomaru beside him. Jaken and Ah-Un followed behind. I looked at Lord Sesshomaru and thought about what the lord said to me.. "..no use for such mortals.."
"Rin.."
"Yes Lord Sesshomaru?"
"Don't listen of what that demon said." He said and I stopped for a moment. Maybe I am worth something to him and maybe I am not, but I will follow him until I find out.
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That was my second chapter. I hope you liked it. If you didn't please say what should I do to improve. Thank you for reading and I will update the third chapter as soon as possible! Review please!
