A/N: New character here - well old character, but undeveloped in the series.

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John walked swiftly through the growing dark, threading his way through the crowds. He had opted to walk, even though it was damp and getting colder. He pulled up his collar around his neck as the wind whipped between the buildings. Something, rather someone, caught his eye across the street.

He slowed down a bit to look, walked another block, crossed the street and walked back. The closer he got, the more sure he was.

"Change? Spare some change?"

People shook their heads, avoided her eyes, ignored her or pushed on by her as if she wasn't there. She was holding a cup in her hand with a few bits of change in it, shaking it once in a while as she repeated her question.

"Change, can you spare some change?"

Periodically she switched hands, tucking the other inside a pocket to warm it up. Her dark blonde hair was pulled back into a messy bun at the back of her head. She wore a large khaki army coat over her hoodie and other layers of clothes. A well worn rucksack lay on the ground by her feet.

Just seeing her took John back to Waterloo Bridge with Sherlock. He shook off the memories for the moment, and as he walked by her, she asked her question one more time.

"Can you spare some change, sir?"

He looked directly into her deep blue eyes. "What for?"

"Tea, of course."

His mouth curved in a faint smile. It was the same answer she had given before. He dug in his pocket and pulled out some bills and said, "Here, this should help. It's going to be cold tonight. Get yourself somewhere warm."

He disappeared down the road before she could say anything. She looked after him, wondering where she had seen him before. Then she looked down into her cup with astonishment. He had given her enough money for several days if she was really careful. If she could have found him… but then she wouldn't know what to say.


John headed back to his flat to change out of his work clothes. He washed up and as he looked into the mirror, asked himself why in the world he had given her that money. It wasn't like he had a lot himself.

As he turned from the sink, he knew deep inside it was because she was part of his Homeless Network.

He headed out the door again, his time with his trainers on. Mrs. Hudson would shake her head at him when she saw him, but he couldn't help it. He had to run.

It was something he loved to do when he was a kid. He was good at it. It was a way of escaping the atmosphere of the house. Though he was popular, he didn't have any close friends. He spent a lot of time alone. Running was something he could do alone. He liked pushing himself to his limit and then going beyond it. He liked the pounding of his feet on the ground, the need to conserve his energy, increase his stamina. It became a game to see how far he could run, and then the next time to try to beat it by just a little bit.

When he knew he wanted to be a doctor and entered medical school, running was a way he could release steam and the stress of classes, tests, papers, mid-terms and arguments with Harry. It became more than a game of testing his body to the limit; it became a way of emptying his mind and renewing himself.

Entering the army, he was already physically fit, but the training there increased his strength and distance ability. He was one of the few who, from the start, could do the long drills in full battle gear without collapsing halfway through. It stood him in good stead in Afghanistan. The running behind the lines, treating the wounded, moving ahead with his unit, he was able to tune into his body, stop thinking and do what he was trained to do.

He smiled grimly to himself as he thought of all the running he did with Sherlock. Usually running for his life or running to save someone else's. He was starting to learn to live with the huge gap in his life. He was learning how to carry the grief. It wasn't easy, but he at least was able to carry it now. Most of the time anyway.

He took up running again, at least as often as his leg would let him. The weather affected his mobility. When it was cold and wet, not only did his shoulder ache, but his leg acted up. It was compounded by the sharper psychosomatic pain depending on his emotional mindset.

On good days he could run as long as he wanted. On bad days, sometimes he could run a little bit before he had to walk. On the worst days, he still forced himself through the pain to limp down the street, sometimes leaning heavily on his cane. He didn't like using his cane at all, and avoided it at all costs, but it was necessary at times when his leg decided to give out on him.

Then there were the days he could barely move, even to get out of the bed, or off a chair. But those only happened when he was in the blackest of moods.


John stopped at the corner and tightened one of his trainers, thinking back to that night Greg and Mrs. Hudson had come to his flat.

He didn't know how long they stayed with him, but when he woke up, they were gone. It was mid-afternoon. He lay still for a bit, trying to gather his thoughts, when reality came crashing in. He got up, dressed and slammed out of the flat. As soon as he hit the street he started to run. When he returned exhausted, he looked around his flat, and saw it as Greg and Mrs. Hudson must have seen it. He grabbed a garbage bin and went through the flat collecting all the bottles, empty or not and threw the whole lot out.

The next day after work, he purchased a new pair of trainers, and every time the grief came crashing in, every time he wanted a drink, every time he wanted to escape, every time he had nightmares that kept him from sleeping, he hit the streets.


Running through the cold, all the way to Baker Street, he knocked on the door. Mrs. Hudson opened it immediately. She had been waiting for him. As he thought she would, she smiled and shook her head at him when she saw his trainers.

Offering his arm to her, John raised a hand and hailed a cab to meet Greg and Molly for their weekly dinner together.

As they ate together that night, the three of them surprised John by handing him a package.

"What's this? It's not my birthday." John looked at them quizzically.

"We know it isn't," replied Greg. "Molly pointed these out to Mrs. Hudson and me, and we thought of you immediately."

John opened the package and saw a narrow soft leather case. Taking in the slight apprehension on Molly's face, he slowly unzipped it, and saw the handle of a cane. Frowning, he pulled the whole thing out of the case and found a lightweight, collapsible cane in his hand. It had a black shaft that folded into four pieces, quick and easy to assemble. It had an adjustable height and a dark mahogany handle.

Greg cleared his throat, as John inspected it. "We remembered you telling us of the night you were running and your leg cramped up. You didn't have your cane with you, making it difficult for you to get home. We thought this might be compact enough that you could keep it on you when you're out, so you don't get stuck like that again."

"I hope you don't… I know you hate using your other cane. Please, don't be upset… I just wanted… I thought…" Molly stumbled to a halt as John caught her eyes and stood, walking around to her side of the table.

Pulling her to his feet, John folded her into a warm embrace. She relaxed and hugged him back.

Placing his hands on her shoulders, giving her a smile, but addressing all of them, John said, "Thank you. You're right, I don't like using that cane. It makes me feel so useless. However, that one was hospital issued, when I returned from Afghanistan. It reminds me of what I've lost. This one will always remind me of what I've gained."

Feeling himself choke up a bit, he dropped his hands from Molly's shoulders and returned to his seat. As he assembled the cane, familiarizing himself with it, he saw a rectangular plaque attached to the shaft, just below the handle.

His initials were engraved at the top in scrolling letters. Underneath a message was inscribed.

Dr. John H. Watson

Faithful, honorable and true.

With Love,

Molly Hooper

Mrs. Hudson

Greg Lestrade

Smiling, John traced the plaque with his thumb. He looked up at his friends, his eyes bright with tears. For the first time in a long time, they weren't ones of sorrow.


About a week later, John saw the girl, panhandling for change again. He knew the next few nights were going to be unseasonably cold, and they were forecasting snow. He slowed down his pace and attached himself to a crowd of people. He slipped his hand through the crowd and dropped a few bills in her cup, hoping it would hold her over for a couple of days. He continued on until he was around the corner, stopping to look back around at her.

She glanced down into her cup and John smiled slightly at her bemused look as she pocketed the money and searched for who could have dropped it in.

He moved off and started running again. Pretty soon he got into a rhythm and felt like he could have kept going for hours. For once his leg cooperated with him, for the most part. When he had pushed himself as far as he could, he circled back around to his flat and headed upstairs only limping a little, mostly from the cold.

Freshly showered, he sat on the edge of his bed with his head in his hands, wishing….

He stayed in the same position for a long time. Finally, he gave in to his physical exhaustion and lay down with his back to the room, unaware of the tears that dampened his pillow as he fell asleep.


John forced himself to keep going that winter. He worked, picking up more hours and longer shifts to keep himself occupied. When his emotions threatened to choke him, instead of picking up a bottle, he picked up his trainers.

Weekly, he had dinner out with Greg, Molly and Mrs. Hudson. They had grown quite close through the tragedy. Greg called him every few days and they got together, just the two of them, almost weekly. John grabbed a cup of coffee once in a while with Molly, let Mike Stamford drag him out to a pub every so often, and visited Mrs. Hudson, though he never went up to their old flat. He talked to his friend Bill Murray as well, though they didn't see each other often, as Bill and his family lived on the outskirts of the city.

He visited Sherlock's grave every week. Sometimes he just stood and stared at the ground, unable to think straight. Sometimes he was able to talk a little.

Other days were like today. Today, he'd needed his cane. He'd started at work without it, but walking out the door, his leg had seized up again, and he was thankful he'd carried it in his jacket pocket.

The cemetery was peaceful. Fog swirled around him, muting the sound of traffic, and a light mist fell. He ignored the damp chill in the air and walked up to tentatively touch the headstone, looking at the name engraved there. Waves of guilt, anger and grief washed over him. It felt like his heart was being torn to shreds, again. John dropped his head, supporting himself against the stone. He tried to stop it, but a sob caught in his throat.

"Oh, Sher – Sherlock. I wish… I want to wake up and find this is all a bad dream." John's breath caught in his throat as he whispered, "I need that miracle I asked for. Please…"

Another muffled sob escaped and his cane clattered against the stone, unheeded as it fell to the ground. Sherlock's name carved into the headstone blurred through his tears.

"Please. Please…"

John leaned against the stone as his legs started shaking, then slid down into a crouch. Burying his face in his hands, he felt lost as overwhelming pain caused the sobs wracking his body. Only allowing himself the luxury of a few moments, he struggled for control and concentrated on slowing his breathing.

Shakily he stood, picking his cane up off the wet grass to aid him. A trembling hand rubbed his forehead, willing away the headache that was settling behind his eyes.

"I know. I know you would want me to…" His voice trailed off and he took another shuddering breath.

"I'll try, Sherlock. I'll try to keep moving, but days like today, I wish I could follow you. But you've gone where I… I can't follow. But what I wouldn't give to hear your voice..." He stopped as the tears threatened to overtake him again.

He swallowed hard and dragged in one deep breath, then another, forcing down his emotions once again.

John straightened, ignoring the rain as it picked up and trickled down the back of his neck, inside his jacket. Then he turned and slowly walked away, the hitch in his gate more pronounced than ever. Clutching his cane in one hand, he dashed the tears away with the other. He lifted his chin and forced the stoic, military mask to fall into place.


That military mask was what kept him safe in public. He used it to get past the press that followed him right after Sherlock's death. He let it put distance between himself and those he ran into who speculated and asked inappropriate questions. John was very careful about what he said about Sherlock, if anything at all, in public. He learned the hard way, in a fit of anger and frustration, that the press would take anything he said and twist it to mean something completely different.

It still didn't sit right with him that Sherlock hadn't yet been cleared of blame, that people still thought of him as a fraud.

Then he started seeing spray painted signs pop up around the city, all variations of his last post on his blog. "I believe in Sherlock," and "Moriarty was real" in bright yellow spray paint, were showing up in the tube stations, walls in alleyways, anywhere there was other graffiti.

When he saw them, he realized that some people did believe. He didn't know how big the movement was getting until one day he saw someone walking ahead of him with an "I believe in Sherlock" pin on their bag.

John was grateful, and it warmed his heart a little every time he saw that brilliant yellow paint. But he still felt the real culprit was the media. That he didn't know how to fix. The press had hounded him for so long after Sherlock's death, he worked diligently to stay out of the spot light.

It wasn't too difficult to start hiding in plain sight again. He learned at home as a young boy how to fade into the background to try to avoid triggering the terrifying anger that filled his house. It didn't always work but he survived.

So John closed the comments and kept off his blog, forcing himself to step back into the shadows. It was far worse than coming back from Afghanistan, because he knew what his life could have been, if Sherlock was still alive and at his side. There would have been excitement, cases and chases mixing with quiet comfortable nights at home. He'd never imagined that life ending. Now everything felt dark and gray with very few bits of color to brighten this plodding existence he was forced into.


As it got closer to the year anniversary, his nightmares increased again. Somehow Afghanistan and Sherlock's death mixed together in his mind. He woke at all hours of the night, overwhelmed by terror.

One evening, having dinner with Greg, Molly and Mrs. Hudson, his mind kept wandering and he had to force himself to focus on the conversation flowing around him. Greg finally looked at John and asked point blank how much he'd been sleeping.

John frowned and shook his head slightly, looking down at his plate, not even pretending to eat anymore. The silence stretched out around the table as the others exchanged glances. He knew that he hadn't been forthcoming about how he'd been handling getting closer to the one year mark. He felt their concerned eyes on him, and finally let out a sigh.

"Not much. I have trouble getting to sleep, and once I do the nightmares start. When I am able to wake myself out of one, it's nearly impossible to relax enough to fall asleep again."

"Oh my dear, every night?" questioned Mrs. Hudson with a worried frown.

"Not every, but almost. If I take a long run or walk before bed, it seems to exhaust me enough that I can sleep for a bit longer, and if I have a dream, it isn't as bad as some." The creases in John's forehead deepened as he looked down at his plate without seeing it.

He wasn't going to tell them how he often got up after one of those dreams, hurried down the stairs from his flat onto the street, and wandered through the city for the rest of the night. Or the nights he spent at Sherlock's grave, sitting with his back against the stone, so numb with cold in the morning he could barely get to his feet.


After that conversation, they started talking to John about letting his flat go and moving back into Baker Street. Greg was particularly insistent, bringing up the idea every time they saw each other or talked. He knew John was miserable in his current flat. Even Mike Stamford could see his misery and mentioned to him that he should move back "home."

John refused to entertain the idea of returning. He felt he was barely clinging on as it was. He didn't know if moving back would push him over the edge or help him. All of his friends seemed to think that he needed to go back to Baker Street, but he admitted (if only to himself) that he was afraid.

Even so, deep down he started to wonder if they were right. John didn't know if he should or if he could move back. He knew that Mrs. Hudson was pining away for "her boys" and having one back at least would comfort her. But he didn't know what walking back into Baker Street with all the memories and old ghosts of the past would do, or how he would react.


Greg and Molly walked to meet John outside the clinic where he worked, just as he was lacing up his shoes. They noted that though it was quite cold and foggy, he was only wearing a light jacket for running. They exchanged a concerned glace as they approached him.

John looked up as the feet of two people stopped in front of him. He had heard them coming, as aware of his surroundings as he had been as a youth and in the war.

He could see in their eyes they were on a mission. He knew he was going to be out-gunned. But he still smiled when he saw them together. He was happy for them. Molly was more confident than ever and Greg was happier than he had seen him in a long time.

Greg's wife had divorced him not to long after… Sherlock. She used his hurting career as a convenient excuse. Between the divorce and the black-balling at the Yard, Greg had gone through his own private hell. Yet he had still taken the time needed to be there when John felt like he was losing his sanity.

Molly had kept her head down and stayed out of the way during the fallout. Though she had tried to stay in touch with John it had been too painful at the beginning. Painful to see how he was trying to cope, how he was living, and painful to see him without Sherlock.

But, being in the morgue she heard things, she was quiet, mousy, and many times went unnoticed. She heard what was happening to Greg, and approached him, just to talk. As they got to know each other, Greg found he could talk to her about everything and she listened. Their friendship blossomed and they spent more and more time together. Through Greg, she reconnected with John and they renewed their friendship.

With Molly's encouragement, Greg hung in there and stuck out the suspension, then the time he was stationed at a desk. Though he still wasn't getting many cases yet, the administration was starting to put him to work again, especially since the new Superintendent started.


They watched John finish tightening his laces as Greg said, "Please don't start running right now. Because that means we're going to have to run to keep up, and frankly neither of us are dressed for it!"

John smiled, "Ok, where do you want to go?" Seeing Greg's look of surprise he said, "What? I can see you have something to talk to me about, so we might as well sit down somewhere warm."

After settling in at a café at the end of the street, Molly broke the silence.

"John, we're worried about Mrs. Hudson. You know she was sick earlier this month. She just doesn't seem like she is getting her strength back as quickly as she should."

John silently picked up his coffee cup and looked at her through the steam. Inwardly he sighed, because though he was wary of moving back to Baker Street, he had been worrying about Mrs. Hudson too.

Greg pitched in. "I know you don't want to, aren't sure if you can handle… being there again. We aren't trying to corner you into doing it. Mrs. Hudson will not leave Baker Street. She has made that perfectly clear to us." He squirmed a little in his seat as he remembered that conversation.

John hid a smile. He knew how those conversations could be all too well himself.

"Besides," said Molly, "I don't think you, either of you, well… any of us should be alone when, well... I just... it's going to be tough, and… yeah, ok." She stuttered to a halt.

There was a pause in the conversation, and Molly gratefully occupied herself with her food so she wouldn't have to look at anyone. Why did it always seem that she couldn't say anything right when it was really important? She felt so small for a moment, but then Greg reached for her hand under the table and gave it a squeeze. She hung onto his hand for courage and took a deep breath to try again.

"John, I don't know how to say this right. I don't want to be alone that day, and I don't think you should be either." She looked worriedly at his face as she talked, unsure of how he was taking it. His face was a blank mask.

"I don't know… I don't know what the papers will do, if they will dredge it all up again, or if they will leave us alone. Maybe that day will be fine, but the week or month will be harder. Just being around, near someone else who understands…" Her voice trailed off.

"Do you know what I mean?" Her eyes pleaded with him to get it.

Greg watched John as stared out the window. He could see something going on behind his eyes. More than that, he could see how the grief still marked his friend. The lines on his face weren't ones of laughter. Even real, honest smiles were rare now. He was thin, thinner than Greg thought he should be. He never stopped walking or running, and didn't seem to sleep or eat much either.

John sighed and turned back to his plate. He knew Greg had been watching him. He picked at his food and pushed it around before putting his fork down. He wasn't really that hungry. He looked out the window again, and something caught his eye.

He saw her again. Panhandling. He wondered how she was doing.

John gave himself a mental shake and concentrated on the present conversation. He would deal with that later.

John fiddled with his napkin, trying to figure out what to say.

"Thanks for your concern." John held up his hand, stopping them before they could speak.

"I know you are trying to help, and I appreciate it. I have been worried about Mrs. Hudson too, and have tried to talk her into going to her sister's. Yes, she probably said the very same words to me that she said to you." His face softened momentarily as he thought about her.

Then a look of determination returned.

"I am going to go out and let you have dinner together, as you were obviously planning. Considering your choice of clothes and shoes, this café wasn't your original destination. Therefore, talking about me and Mrs. Hudson clearly led you to walk out of your way to find me at the clinic."

Greg and Molly exchanged glances, realizing John had no idea how much he sounded like Sherlock.

"I am going for a run, like I planned, and will think about it again. That's all I can promise you." He sighed and said quietly, "I'm not looking forward to the next couple of months, to another year… and I honestly don't know how walking back into that flat will affect me. It's so heavy to carry sometimes, I can't stand it. But I have to keep moving. That's what walking and running does for me. Do you see? It keeps me moving. I can escape, without drinking, and still manage to keep going somehow."

"But John," Greg started.

John interrupted him, "No, Greg. I need to think about it some more. I'll talk to you tomorrow. I'll try to have a decision by the time we go out with Mrs. Hudson for dinner."

Greg leaned back in his seat, letting it go for the time being. He was thankful to know that John would seriously consider it and they might have an answer soon. He could only pray that it would be the right one.

John signaled the waiter, asking for a take away box. He boxed up his food, put on his jacket, bid them good night.

They watched him as he crossed the street and approached someone. He touched her shoulder and she turned. Greg could see it was a girl, a homeless girl. He thought she looked familiar, when he looked more closely, but he didn't know where he might have seen her before. John spoke with her for a few minutes, handed her the take away box, and then headed down the street, breaking from a walk into a jog.

Greg wondered about the interchange, but dismissed it for now, turning all his attention to Molly. She smiled at him as he reached for her hand, and leaned against him slightly as they finished their meal, quietly talking.


That night it took John a long time to get back to the flat from his run. When he walked in the door, he was drained. He looked around him, realizing it wouldn't take much to move out and go back to Baker Street. He hadn't made much of a personal mark on this place.

He turned on the small lamp by his bed and sat down. His stomach knotted just thinking about moving back. He sighed, wondering how he was going to be able to be in that flat again, seeing Sherlock's things.

He had been managing to survive day to day, but it was hard to live in a world that seemed to have moved on without his best friend, completely forgetting him. He didn't know what it would be like living in a flat that was dedicated to him.

John walked over to the window, looking out to the street below. The hole he managed to ignore most of the time, threatened to swallow him up again. The pain grew as he stood there. He was too tired to go out running again. There was nothing he could do to escape it. He pressed his hands against the cold glass, trying to will away the grief that was building up.

He pushed away from the window, wishing for a moment that he had some whiskey. John mentally shook himself and started blindly pacing the floor. Eventually he threw himself on the bed and stared at the ceiling. He absentmindedly rubbed his left shoulder. The damp, cold weather was causing it to ache again. He tried not to think, tried to empty his mind, but no matter what he did, he could see Sherlock in his mind's eye as he fell, see his grave stone again, and the emptiness pulled at his insides.

John rolled over and curled up around a pillow. Desperately, he hoped for the pain to ease with the tears that slipped down his face.

When sleep finally claimed him in the early morning hours, the pain bled through to his dreams, and he woke with the echo of Sherlock's name ringing through his flat.


Greg, Molly and Mrs. Hudson waited for John to arrive at the restaurant they picked to meet at. It was foggy and had started to rain late in the afternoon. They made small talk, but they each worried about how he was doing and if he would actually show up. There were a few times he had missed meeting them weekly, and when he did, it was a bit Not Good.

Just as Greg was going to try calling him again, hoping for something other than the voicemail that he'd gotten with the last call, John turned the corner across the street and limped to the café, using his cane. He came in, slipped out of his soaked jacket and hung it over the back of his chair.

Mrs. Hudson reached over to touch his arm and exclaimed, "John, you are soaked through! Why don't you ever use an umbrella? You are going to get sick!"

"Mrs. Hudson, I know I seem to have a thing against umbrellas, however it is really hard to carry one when you are moving things." He glanced across at Greg and Molly, and gave them a slight nod, then turned his attention back to Mrs. Hudson.

As John's words sank in, Mrs. Hudson's eyes lit up. "Moving things? Really, dear?" she breathed as she grabbed onto his hand. "Are you… did you… are you really coming back – home?"

John smiled kindly at her, and though his face softened as he talked with her, Molly could see that his smile never quite reached his eyes, which were red and had deep circles under them. She knew those sure signs of sleepless nights. She had many of them herself.

Greg was able to read John's condition as well, and noted that his hands were trembling as he picked up his coffee and took a sip. He knew the stress John placed on himself by moving back into Baker Street, and worried that maybe they had asked too much of him, too soon.

After their food arrived, John shared how he had found someone to take the flat, with the furnishings included. All he had to do was get his personal belongings out of the place. By the time he was done signing over the flat and getting his things to Baker Street, it was faster to walk to meet them than try to flag a cab in the bad weather.

Molly just smiled and shook her head at him as Mrs. Hudson chattered on, her mood considerably brightened, now that she knew she would have John back in Baker Street. He noticed and gave her a faint smile back.

As they neared the end of their meal, Greg leaned back from the table. He cleared his throat, suddenly nervous.

"This isn't typically how things are done. But, Molly and I, well, we wanted to share this time with you both." He smiled as he looked across the table. Mrs. Hudson looked a little confused for a moment, but he saw understanding dawn in John's eyes, almost immediately.

He reached into his pocket with one hand and reached for Molly's hand with his other. He turned all his attention to her.

"Molly Hooper. The past year has been one of the hardest, for all of us. But you have stood by me through it all. You have encouraged me, listened to me, and… well, have given me that kick I have needed sometimes. You have my heart. Will you have my hand in marriage?" He opened a small box, containing a small but beautiful engagement ring.

Molly breathed in sharply. Even though she knew Greg was going to ask her with John and Mrs. Hudson present, she hadn't known when. Her eyes misted, she looked him and a little breathlessly said, "Yes, oh yes!"

Greg slipped the ring on her finger, and then cupped her face in his hands and said, "I love you, Molly Hooper."

She blushed and reached up, covering his hands with her own, and whispered, "I love you too," her face glowing.

John grinned at Greg, truly happy for the two of them. He glanced over at Mrs. Hudson who dabbed at her eyes with a tissue, while laughing happily at this turn of events. Still smiling, he shook his head at the thought that his friends, finding each other through this tragedy, could end up being so happy together.

Greg and Molly were delighted with how their surprise had gone over. They explained they wanted a small wedding just for their family and a few friends.

John and Mrs. Hudson toasted the happy couple. The four of them spent time discussing ideas and plans for the wedding and their future. Relaxing and enjoying the celebration, even John was able to forget his sorrow for a little while.


A/N: If you want a better idea of who this homeless girl is, take a look at The Great Game. Sherlock approaches her under Waterloo Bridge. She does become an integral part of this story as it goes along, though you won't see that for another couple of chapters.

Next chapter should be up soon. In the next couple of days, as I continue to edit. Read and review! All comments and concrit are more than welcome! :)