Deep Inside: A Harry Potter Journal Story

Chapter 2: There's Something About Her

((I got some reviews and some good advice I am feeling loved. Well now onward to chapter 2 when the little green book and Harry face some more shitty moments and maybe a little love. winks BUT! I shall not say from who... laughs evilly But I will say, cause most people like me have perverted minds...smiles sheepishly Anyways... It is a girl not a guy giving Harry the love he needs. Ok I cleared things up and off we go! Oh yes one more thing… I sadly do not own anything but Ellie Scarlett and Ashton Hart and if I did I wouldn't be writing this sad excuse for a story… Oh and a verrrry special Thanks to Perfect by Nature for Beta-ing my story!))


There's Something About Her

For a long time Harry and Ellie talked by the lake about everything they could think of. School, Quidditch, teachers, books and even how annoying Slytherins are or how. 'Fucked up' they are, as Ellie put it. But what got Harry interested was when Ellie talked about her life out of school...

"I was born in Ireland..." Ellie began looking out at the sunset with a warm smile. "But my father was a military man, so we then moved to States when I was five and a half... Don't get me wrong, it was great... but..." she paused looking down at her hands. "It wasn't the same... Ireland was so beautiful and green, and-and lush you know? Anyways, then 'bout…five years later we moved all the way to England... That very summer i received my acceptance letter to Hogwarts. i was actually Sorted right after you were, Harry..." she cooed looking back at him with a bright smile. "I've been in many of your classes as well but I never said a word to you...'Ey I was very shy though... but this year is-..." she beamed turning back to him. "Different..."

Harry gulped and nodded not trusting his voice.

"Yup I've gotten very confident in myself… I even have a boyfriend now…" Ellie explained cocking her head the side with a little smirk-ish smile. "It's great to know someone cares for you… You know?"

"Oh?" Harry squeaked with a tiny forced smile then turned away from her glance. Boyfriend… he should have known. Elle was too… unique not-to have one. 'But who is it?' he thought 'We there's only one way to find out…' he pondered taking a deep breath then turned towards her again. "So..." he began searching desperately for the correct words. "Who's the lucky guy?" Harry asked trying to sound casual and surprisingly it worked cause Ellie laughed.

"Well…" Ellie started. "You probably don't know him but his name is Ashton Hart... He's a Ravenclaw 7th year…" she explained looking at him with her mischievous smile and big round eyes.

Harry shook his head. "Nope I don't know him sorry." Sighing he stood up. "I better be going… I'll see you tomorrow though." He said absentmindedly running his hand through his hedgehog hair.

"Alright, see ya…" Ellie said to him then took out her sketchbook and a pencil and began to sketch a group of boys at the edge of the lake. Harry smiled slightly at her drawing. She was so focused despite the pieces of her punky blonde hair falling across her face. He wished more than anything he could just stay there and watch her draw forever but he shook himself out of it and made his way back up the slope towards the castle.

As soon as Harry stepped into the Great Hall, Hermione pulled him over to sit with her and Ginny at the end of the long wooden table. Strangely when Harry looked at Ginny he didn't know who she was. She was so much taller now, and she'd grown older, her face no longer looked like she was eleven years old.Then her hair was a much deeper red and her eyes a nice greenish hazel that caused you to stop and stare. Ginny looked nothing like Ron but in the weirdest way she did. She seemed about a hundred times more confident than what she used to be as well 'There's something about Ginny…' he thought sitting down next to Hermione and smiled at Ginny across the table. 'Wait…' he thought again then looked away from her. 'This is GINNY I'm thinking about!'

"Hi Harry…" Ginny purred softly blinking her gorgeous greenish hazel eyes at him, trying to meet his eyes.

"Hi Ginny… How are you?" Harry replied looking around the table but stopped when Ron, Semus, Dean and Neville came into view. As he looked at their faces he knew they could all see him but they didn't say a thing. He sighed then looked back at Ginny forcing himself to smile at her.

"I'm fine… Oh and just so you know Ron is really sorry he acted like an asshole today." Ginny explained buttering her roll of bread. "Oh so are Semus and Dean…" she added then took a bite of the roll.

"Wait… What did they do?" Hermione asked looking at Ginny then back to Harry seeing he was turning slightly pink.

"Well..." Ginny began, then looked up at Harry. "I think that Harry should tell you." she finished lamely

"Um…" Harry began looking right into his pumpkin juice as if it would give him the right answer deep inside it's orange solution. 'Damned juice…' he thought the looked back at Hermione 'I can't tell her about Ellie…' he thought" They were just… being really annoying…and- and I was tired so I just over reacted." He lied then looked straight at Ginny who nodded to cover Harry. He smiled gratefully at her and she winked at him when Hermione wasn't looking.

Not too long afterwards Hermione left to go do her homework and Harry was left alone with Ginny. For what seemed like hours they talked about their summers and how shitty school is and then about just off the wall things.

"Hey we better get back to the Common Room." Ginny commented getting out off the bench then walked around the edge to Harry's side and grabbed his arm. "Come on Harry let's go…" she teasing pulling his sleeve like a little kid but cracked up with her warm and gentle laughter.

"Ok let's go…" Harry replied standing up and walking out of the Great Hall with her at his side.

As they wandered back towards the Common Room it was strangely silent… but yet so right. It seemed they were just enjoying other's company other than their words. "So…" Harry began breaking the almost eerie silence." You worried about O.W.L.s this year?" He asked putting his hands in his pockets.

"Yes sort of…" Ginny replied looking down at her feet with a soft smile. "But I've got you, Hermione and Ron to help me study so I'm sure I'll do just fine." She added elbowing him gently with her's blinking her thick eyelashes at him again.

"Yes that's right I'd be glad to help you…" Harry replied smiling at her. "And… Ginny."

"Yes?" She asked cocking her head towards him slightly.

"Thanks for covering for me at dinner… I didn't really want Hermione to know… about-" he paused thinking of the right word. "About that…"

"No problem… I'm right by your side Harry…" Ginny said intensely. "Not matter what…" she added very softly almost as if it was to herself. "Ellie's a lucky girl…" she murmured looking deep into Harry's eyes keeping the strong gaze.

'Is she toying with me?' Harry thought looking deep into her eyes seeing a very faint touch of yearning inside the multi colored orbs… it frightened him slightly. But yet… he stopped walking but still kept his deep gaze. Ginny stopped and turned around.

"Harry?" Ginny asked looking back at him very confused. "What's wrong?" she asked again then looked around the corridor finally realizing how quiet it was. They were all alone. She blinked again then met his gaze, she wasn't afraid to look at him. Then very slowly Ginny stepped closer to Harry in the darkness, step by step she got a little closer until her could see the very faint freckles on her nose. Harry looked down at her lips then blinked looking back at her eyes again. Then before he knew it Harry felt her lips against his… Feelings flushed throughout his body, emotions whirled in his head as he pulled her closer to him. Ginny had always been here why didn't he seen it? Harry then moved his hand behind her neck and supported her head then pulled away for breath.

"Ginny…" Harry whispered into her ear then widened his eyes and backed away. 'GINNY!' He screamed in his head. "I- I… I have to go…" he stuttered walking backward down the hallway then turned the corner and broke into a dead run leaving Ginny alone and confused. He ran for a very long time until his legs couldn't carry him any longer. He sighed heavily, dropped down on the ground and leaned his back against the cold stonewall behind him. "Am I fucking crazy?" He asked himself. "She's Ron's sister for fucking sake!" He exclaimed throwing his book bag across the hall in his anger causing parchment and books flew everywhere. Sighing again he leaned his head back and closed his eyes to think. "I need help…" he murmured softly. "That's it…" he mumbled opening his eyes then scanning the books in the hallway until he found the right one. Harry shot across the hallway and grabbed the little green book and scrounged out a quill.

"I am being torn in two… My mind wants one thing and my heart the other. I know Ginny is more than Ron's sister, she's funny beautiful and so, so brave. But as she may be those things Ginny will still, and always remain Ron's little and only sister." He scribbled on a clear page just feeling the pain and emotion flow out of his fingertips. "Do I only feel this way for her because I cannot have what I really want? Or is she what I really want? Or is she what I need? Or do I need the excitement of Ellie although I cannot have her? I have so many questions that I want answers to but I know I cannot have them." He concluded closing the book and leaning his head against the wall again feeling much better.

After a few minutes had passed Harry remembered that he had much more to do than sit in the hallway, so he sat up and collected his cluttered books and papers and shoved them into his bag. Then he got onto his feet and slung his backpack over his shoulder.

"I see I'm not the only late evening walker then…" Called a voice from behind Harry and he froze in his steps and slowly turned around to see a face he hadn't seen before. "Ey you're Potter!" he exclaimed stepping out of his shadowy corner to reveal himself. He was a tall lean guy who looked around the age of 17. His skateboarder hair was a dark almost blue black and his eyes were an abnormal icy gray blue. Harry nodded at the stranger and gulped slightly hoping he hadn't been there that long.

"That I am but… who are you?" Harry asked putting his hands into his pockets with a soft smile.

"Oh yes how rude of me…" The young man began with a very joking pure white sparkling smile. "The name's Ashton Hart…" he cooed in a tone that made Harry's skin crawl.

"Oh so you're Ashton…" Harry murmured looking down at the ground then back up to Ashton's bittersweet stare.

"And I see you've heard of me then…" Ashton replied crossing his arms and leaning against the stonewall.

"Yah that I have…" Harry explained. "I'm friends with Ellie." He added feeling completely awkward. "And she mentioned you…" he mumbled nodding to himself.

"Ah yes I see…" He purred in his almost Italian accent. "Ellie's great…" he added looking down at the floor with the same warm smile Ellie wore when she was thinking about Ashton.

"Oh yeah she's very talented." Harry commented wanting more than anything to run back down the hallway away from Ellie's 'boyfriend', the only reason she didn't want to be with Harry. "Her drawings are very good…"

"She sings too." Ashton remarked looking at Harry with an almost proud smile. "But it takes a lot to get her to sing at all with all she's been through." He explained looking back at the ground. "It takes a lot." He emphasized.

"What do you mean?" Harry asked giving Ashton a very confused look.

"You don't know?" Ashton asked and Harry simply shook his head.

"Truth be told I just met her today so I don't know much about her really…" Harry replied with a soft fake laugh but Ashton didn't seem to notice.

"Oh well, Her father was a military man…" Ashton began but then paused. "No she would have told you that…" he murmured to himself. "Well you know about her past then but you don't know about her present…" he started looking up at the ceiling as if the story he was telling was up there somewhere. "You see… Ellie and her dad were very close…" Harry knew where this was going he could feel it. "But he was in his car and well there was a drunk driver on the road… they collided head on, they say he died immediately." Ashton murmured solemnly. "But the worst part was he was on his way to Ellie's 16th birthday party… We waited for hours then finally the cops showed up to the door…" he paused again. "Ellie-… she didn't eat, sleep, talk… I watched her slip away. We all thought she'd die but then one day, she got up as if nothing happened but that guitar… It was her birthday present that was from her father. She still hasn't touched it… It just sits in her dorm with the card and the ribbon on it."

Harry didn't say anything for a long time… he just stood on his two feet looking at the floor. "Wow…" he murmured softly then looked up at Ashton to thinking him as Ellie's boyfriend anymore but as a regular student in this school.

"Yah… it was hard on all of us… Rem was a big part of everyone's hearts…" Ashton replied. "Hey… I better be off…" he said leaning off the wall then walking off the other way. "See yah Potter!" he called back

"Bye…" Harry mumbled watching Ashton walk away, then only when he couldn't see him anymore did he walk back into the Gryffendor Tower feeling more than just his pain now.

((Well that's it! The 2nd, more heart rendering chapter! And it gets better! Smiles review and such.))