"Hey babe." Ezra said when he answered the phone.

"Hey can I come over?" I say in a calm voice.

"Yeah sure. " He said. I could tell he was smiling.

"Okay see you in 5.L Love you."

"Love you too."

I needed someone to keep me distracted before I cut or binge then purge again. I haven't done it in a week. But my wounds still haven't healed. So I'm scared Ezra will see or feel them. I put on a baggy sweat shirt, sweatpants no makeup and put my hair up in a messy bun. Then I got in my car and left. When I got there my nerves were everywhere. I was nervous, scared, happy, upset, depressed. But hopefully he won't notice. I reached his apartment door and before I could knock he opened his door and grabbed my wrist (thank god not the one with cuts on it.) and spun me into a hug and dipped me down and kissed me on the lips. As were laughing through the kiss.

"What was that for?" I asked still laughing and heart still pounding.

"Just because I love you and your gorgeous even without makeup." He smiled. "Do you want some tea?"

"Yeah. Sure" Green Tea does help you lose weight right? All well. 5 minutes later Ezra brought me tea and sat down while I snuggled into his side.

"How are you this week babe?" He asked. Ever since I told him exactly 7 months ago he asked me every time I came over if I was okay. It was nice to know someone can pretend to care.

"Okay?" I said more in a question. I got scared because of the way I said could make him worry.

"Okay? What does that mean? Aria you can tell me anything. I won't be mad. I just want to help." He said.

"I'm fine. Really Ezra. I said while kissing him lightly on the lips. He took my wrist and pressed on it. The one with cuts. Not knowing what lied underneath. I winced. Ezra noticed.

"Aria?" He asked. "Lift up your sleeve." He said.

"No." I said bluntly.

"Aria. NOW!" Ezra yelled.

"YOU CANT MAKE ME!" I screamed tears running down my face.

"ARIA!" He yelled a little louder.

"Ezra please don't make me." I cried.

"Aria please." He said almost starting to cry.

"You don't have to act like you care. I know you don't. I know your only staying with me cause you feel bad for me." I said calmly.

"Is that what you think?" He replied.

"It's not what I think it's what I know."

"Aria! I love you so much! I would take a bullet for you." He said sadly.

"I would take a bullet for you too. " I said. Slowly lifting up my sleeve.

He gasped and we both broke down. He was sobbing at how deep the cuts were. I fell into his arms.

"I just want to die Ezra! My life is falling apart again. My parent divorce. Picking houses. Worrying about you and Maggie. Alison. I miss her every day. I miss her more than the girls do. She helped me more than anything." I sobbed.

"Aria you know you could have just talked to me. You didn't have to do this again." He replied.

"I know I'm sorry. I really am. I didn't want you to find out." I said. But inside my head I was still thinking at least he won't find out about me purging again. That'll be my secret. No one else will know. Only me. I don't care if it kills me. I wouldn't mind if it killed me.

"I love you so much Aria." He said.

"I love you so much too Ezra." And that's how we fell asleep. With my thought of suicide and harming myself. And Ezra worried if he could trust her when she was alone.

HEY GUYS! It's me again! Okay I know Ezra found out a little too early. But don't worry. It will be a lot more dramatic. And a lot sadder. But I love Ezria so much! I started bawling when she broke up with him and the had the reenactment of season 1. That broke my heart.