Hi again; thank you for the reviews I love to read them. So Leapyearbaby29, I'll not answer all the questions because I don't like to spoiler the story. About how Alison knows about Elliot, I'll not get into details, she just knew he wasn't sincere and she found out his real identity. And why Emily asked her to leave, because she blamed her for what happened, I mean, Ali kissed her and all the drama happened and Emily's just putting all her anger on her... concerning your other questions, you'll get your answers in this chapter but also you'll get more questions I guess that's the fun on this ^^... Anyway, thank you for reading this and I appreciate if you've the time to leave a review, thanks ^^

NOTE 1: Everything in bold italics, it will be the character's narrative, I mean, like an internal dialogue, their thoughts.

NOTE 2: The "X" it's to mark the beginning of a new scene, I mean, a change of scenario and everything between parentheses () it's to describe the scene.

NOTE 3: About the picture, it's the same picture of 4x18...


Chapter 2

(In the Hospital)

Alison knocks the door and she slowly gets inside the room where the only sound was a constant 'bip'...

Alison. – "Have you eaten something?"

Pam shakes her head. – "No... I'm not hungry..."

Alison. – "You need to eat Pam, you can't get sick too..."

Pam looks at her unconscious husband and says. – "I don't want to leave him alone..."

Alison. – "I'll stay with him as you eat something in the cafeteria..."

Pam. – "Are you sure?"

Alison nods

Pam. – "Ok..." (She kisses Wayne's front' head and says to him) "I'll be back soon honey..."

The old woman was walking towards the door but she stops as Alison hugs her.

Alison says with a broken voice and tears. – "I'm sorry... I'm really sorry... It's all my fault..."

Pam pats Alison's back. – "It's not your fault, don't blame yourself..."

Pam's words were a real relief for Alison and the blonde continued hugging her as she says from the heart...

Alison mumbles. – "Thank you for these past 2 years..."

The blonde lets her go and she stays alone with Wayne; she sits beside him and holds his hand. She was caressing his hand when she receives a text from Elliot...

Elliot text: It's confirmed... you're a match...

Alison chuckles with sadness, she wasn't sure if she was happy or sad... maybe both. She puts her phone on her purse, she wipes her tears and then she starts talking from the heart as she hold his hand...

Alison. – "I haven't seen my father in years; I never felt his absence thanks to you..." (Shy smile) "Our little talks... you, enjoying all my cakes... you, teaching me how to change a wheel... you're more like a father to me than my real Dad and I couldn't be more grateful with you for that..."

The blonde stands up from her chair and she curls in the bed beside him. She cries as she grips on him...

Alison cries. – "Please don't hate me..."

She eventually falls asleep at his side and she just wakes up when she senses someone touching her shoulder. The blonde stands up and she looks down, don't able to see the girl into the eyes...

Emily. – "Have you been crying? Why?"

Alison chuckles with sadness... Why?!...

Alison doesn't reply Emily's question she just takes her purse and says. –"You're mom is in the cafeteria, I was making him company but since you're here, I'll leave..."

Emily. – "You don't have to leave if you don't want to..."

Alison. –"I... I need to..."

The blonde starts walking away and a photo drops from her purse, she leans to take it but Emily is faster and she takes the photo. The brunette shows a tiny smile as she's staring at an old picture of her with the girls... Alison takes it back without asking...

Emily. – "You keep it in your purse...?"

Alison nods. – "I had it in a frame..." (She looks at the picture and says with a smile) "This photo has been my rock during my darkest moments and that's why I took it out of the frame... because I need it with me right now..."

Emily. – "Are you in troubles?"

Alison doesn't reply, she just puts the picture on her purse and she looks at Wayne as she says...

Alison. – "Take care of him... his like a father to me..."

Emily doesn't know what to say, she just nods. The blonde starts walking towards the door and she turns towards Emily when she's under the frame door...

Alison. – "Em..."

The brunette looks at her and they lock their leyes in each other...

Alison pleads. –"Please don't hate me..."

Emily gulps, she turns her head towards her Dad and says...

Emily. – "If he dies, I can't promise you anything..."

Alison nods. – "I understand but no matter what... If I can ask you one last thing... it's just that... don't hate me... please..." (She mutters in a low voice) "I love you..."

It was like a whisper but Emily heard it, the 'I love you'... she quickly turns her head in direction of the door but the blonde was already gone.


*X*

Driving around the town she never left, in a snow day like today. She drops by her favorite restaurant and she orders everything she wanted. Today, it didn't matter how many calories she was eating, she just wanted to enjoy and taste every flavor of every dish she always wanted to eat but she never dared to do it. With a happy stomach, the blonde gets back into her car; she puts her favorite song on speakers; she sings it over and over like a teenage girl. She drives around Rosewood's school and she feels the impulse to call the girls. She parks outside the school and calls them; it wasn't a shock for her than neither of them took her call. After all, the day they left, they never contacted her ever again. She sighs with a little of sadness and then a call from an unknown number appears in her phone...

Alison.- "Hello?"

Jason.-"Ali?"

Alison smiles. – "Jason!"

Jason. –"Hi, sorry I tried to call you for Christmas but here in Africa, I don't get good reception..."

Alison chuckles. –"It's okay... you're calling now and that's the only that matters..."

Jason. – "How are you? Did you spend a nice Christmas?"

Alison starts talking and for a moment, the blonde didn't feel alone in the world...

Jason. – "I'm happy you weren't alone in Christmas... I hope Mr. Wayne gets better soon..."

Alison. – "He will... he'll receive a new heart very soon..."

Jason. – "Really?! Well, that's great! I'm happy for him... he's a good man... he deserves a second chance..."

Alison nods. –"Yeah... he does..."

The blonde takes out from her purse the picture she has been holding with her for so long... she looks at it and she maps Emily's face with her fingers. She gets entranced in her thought, and tears starts falling from her blue eyes...

Jason. – "Ali...? Are you still there?"

Alison wipes her tears. – "Yeah..."

Jason. – "Well, I have to go... I'll try to call you for New Year 's Eve but I can't guarantee I will be able to do it..."

Alison chuckles with sadness.- "Don't worry Jason, I'll not be able to take your call anyway..."

Jason. – "Why, are you going to be very busy? Are you going somewhere for New Year 's Eve?"

The blonde doesn't reply, she just leans her head against the steering wheel...

Jason. – "Ali...? Are you still there?"

Alison takes a deep breath and says. – "I love you Jason... sorry for being a horrible sister... but just know: I love you and I just wish you happiness..."

Jason asks. – "Ali... I love you too and I'm not either the perfect brother... you don't sound good, it's everything ok?"

The blonde smiles... hearing 'I love you too' from her brother, it was all she wanted to hear from him...

Jason. – "Ali...?"

Alison. - "I've to go... take care Jason... be happy..."

The blonde ends the call and then she resumes her driving.


*X*

In the hospital, Emily was getting angry with the coffee machine, she was over the edge and it just got worse when she saw a lot of doctors and nurses getting inside her father's room...

Emily. – "What's happening?!"

A nurse. – "You can't be here!"

Pam and Emily were guided to stay in the waiting room; Emily was having a panic attack and her mother just hugged her, trying to make her feel better. After a long wait, a doctor finally approaches to them...

Pam gulps. – "It's his heart, isn't?"

The doctor nods. – "Yes, he needs a transplant, now..."

Emily cries. – "OMG!"

The brunette burst into tears and her mother becomes her only support to stand up...

The doctor. – "You need to stay calm... because I've good news, we just have the perfect match..."

Pam. – "Really?"

Emily smiles. - "That's great!"

The doctor nods. – "Yes... a young girl just suffered an accident and she's brain dead. She signed to be a transplant donor and right now, her emergency contact is signing the documents for it..."

The news was a Christmas' miracle for Emily; it was what she thought at that moment...

The doctor. – "We're going to do the surgery today, don't worry, once he gets the new heart, he'll be ok..."

Pam. – "I would like to say 'thank you' to the family of the girl..."

The doctor sighs. – "Ma'am, donors are anonyms... " (He couldn't say no to the deer eyes of the old woman) "I don't know about her family but like I said, her emergency contact is signing the documents for the transplant donation right now so, if you go to the ER, you might be able to find him... Dr. Rollins... it's his name..."

Pam. – "I know him... he's Cece's doctor..."

Emily. – "How do you know that?"

Pam. – "Ali told me..."

Emily. – "Oh..."

The doctor leaves and Pam almost passed out but Emily wraps her arms around her and sits her on a chair...

Emily. – "Are you ok?!"

Pam chuckles. – "Yeah... It's just a lot to take in one day... you know..."

Emily nods. The old woman tries to get up but her daughter stops her; Pam really wanted to say something to Dr. Rollins, thinking it was a family member of the girl who was going to save her husband's life, Pam thought it was the last thing she could do. Emily saw Pam very weak and she offers to be the one to say 'thank you' to the Doctor.

Walking through the hospital, Emily was going to ask some nurses if they knew where Dr. Rollins were but she didn't have the need to do it as the doctor found her...

Elliot. – "Emily..."

Emily. – "Do you know me?"

Elliot stretches his hand. – "I'm Elliot Rollins... you don't know me but I know you..."

Emily holds his hand, with a confused look since she wasn't sure what to think about him...

Emily. – "Are you Dr. Rollins?"

Elliot nods

Emily. – "I... My mom and I... we're very grateful with you for the heart's donation, I'm sorry for your lost but really thank you..."

Elliot smirks. – "Don't thank me..." (He points out towards a room and says) "You should thank her..."

The guy leaves and Emily stands there, alon, looking confused; curious to know what he wanted to say, she hesitates to get inside the room, she's too slow to find the courage to get in and before she could make a step, nurses gets in...

Nurses. – "Ok, we need to get her ready for surgery..."

The nurses with some interns moves the patient and Emily gasps, tears falls from her eyes as she recognizes the blonde girl who's lying there...

Emily mutters. – "Ali?!"

The brunette can't believe what she's seeing; she just sees the litter with Alison in it and her heart breaks in pieces. She grips on the handrail of the litter; stopping every movement...

An intern. – "Miss... we need to go..."

Emily says with a broken voice as she stares at the blonde. – "What... how... why... where... where are you taking her?"

The intern. – "Dr. Rollins just signed the papers, there is a patient who needs a heart's transplant and she's his perfect match..."

Emily grips harder in the handrail; her Christmas' miracle just became her worse nightmare...

The intern. – "Miss... there's not time to waste... please keep at side..."

Emily cries. – "Is... is... is she... is she really dead?!"

The staff of the hospital nods and Emily just fades.


* X *

At Welby... looking at the snow through her window; she could see the silhouette of the person standing behind her...

Cece. – "Americano... what bring you here...?"

Emily hesitates; she doesn't know how to give her the news or even if the blonde cares...

Emily says with a broken voice. – "I need to tell you something... It's... it's about Ali... she... she..."

Tears don't let her finish her speech and Cece turns towards her and she chuckles with sadness when she sees the broken tanned girl who's standing in front of her...

Cece mutters. – "So, she really did it..."

Emily. – "What did you say?!"

Cece smirks. – "Do you really want to know?"

Emily takes a deep breath, not sure if she wants to hear anything from Cece but in the end she just nods...

Cece. – "Ok, so she came to visit me and..."

**** Flashback ****

Cece. – "Do you know already how are you gonna do it?"

Alison. – "I've some ideas..."

Cece. – "I'm supposed to be the crazy one in the family, you know..."

Alison smirks. – "Well, I guess 'sanity' is not in us..."

Cece turns her head and looks at her into the eyes as she says. - "Why you're telling me this?"

Alison. – "Well... it's your money after all... I guess you deserved to know... just that... mmm... are you mad because I'm giving your money to Archer?"

Cece laughs. – "Please... I never cared about the money... everything was about the game..."

Alison. – "Ok... well... then... I guess this is the goodbye Charlotte... take care"

The blonde starts walking away but she stops when the other girl says something...

Cece. – "She'll not love you because of this... you know... she stopped loving you a long time ago, Ali..."

Alison gulps. – "I know... I know she doesn't love me but I don't care... I'll do it anyway..."

Cece smirks. – "Are you really going to die for her? You love her that much? You believe in God... in hell and heaven... you do this... where do you thing you'll go?! Please... You'll go directly to hell!"

Alison. – "Over the years, I've been praying for a chance to do something good for her... I can't erase the pain I have cost her neither erase her scars but if I can give her more time with her Dad so... it's settled... I'll happily go to hell for her..."

The blonde resumes her walking but she stops when the other girl asks something...

Cece. – "Can I ask you one last thing?"

Alison turns towards her and nods as she looks at her into the eyes...

Cece. – "You have known all this time, I weren't sincere... you knew about Archer... about everything and even then... you kept coming to visit me... pretending to be a good sister... why?"

Alison. – "I never pretended to be a 'good sister' Charlotte..."

Cece. – "So, what, you just cared about me?!"

Alison. – "It's hard to believe it but yes..."

Cece doesn't know what to say, she just presses her lips together...

Alison. – "Is there something else you wanna say...? I'll not come here ever again..."

Cece. – "You're crazy!"

Alison nods

Cece. –"Your're stupid by doing this! She will not love you because of this! She'll hate you!"

Alison nods; Cece stands up and she hugs her and whispers something into her ear...

Cece says with tears in her eyes. – "See you in hell, Ali..."

Alison chuckles with sadness. – "Yeah... see you in hell, Cece..."

**** End of the flashback ****

Emily shakes her head, refusing to believe what she just heard from Cece...

Emily says with tears. – "No... it can't be... It was an accident... You're a LIAR! LIAR!"

Cece smirks. – "Don't believe me... I don't care..."

Emily. – "So, why are you telling me this...?"

Cece chuckles with sadness and she takes from a book an old photo of her with Alison...

Cece says as she stares at the picture. – "Because... this dummy gave you her heart... all of it..." (She looks at Emily and says) "And you should appreciate it... you should cherish it... and you should know how much she loved you..."

Emily doesn't know what to say or what to believe, she just leaves with tears on her eyes. Cece turns her look at the old picture and tears fall her eyes and drop into the pictures...

Cece mutters. – "You dummy... in my own way, I cared about you too..."


*X*

Emily is a complete mess, like a crazy, she looks for Dr. Rollins but for her bad lock, the supposed doctor already vanished. No one knows where he go; days pass by and the police finds out his true identity. With this revelation, Cece's story gets more credible, but Emily can't accept it. The brunette breaks into the house of the blonde and she's not sure of what she's looking for; but when she finds a beautiful notebook, all her doubts just vanish when she starts reading Ali's diary...

***Alison's Diary***

Do you know how much I love you? Do you know how much I miss you? Do you know I spend my days thinking about you? Do you know I'm willing to give my life for you? Do you know my love for you is it really that big?

I know you won't... I know you can't see how much I've changed, how much I love you... but even if I know that... even if I know I have zero chances to be with you... I just love you... I can't stop loving you...

The other day, you asked me to give you more time with your Dad and I found a way to grant you that wish... I guess my praying has been finally answered, I guess this is the day I've been waiting for...

Maybe someday, you'll find out the truth... but even if you do... please don't hate me... I love you... I'll always love you and my heart will keep beating for you... only you...

My heart will stay around you so, that's enough for me... take care of your Dad, Em, take care of my heart...

Emily reads the entire diary and then she closes it with tears in her eyes; she wraps her arms around the book and she presses the book against her chest as she curls in the bed of the blonde; because, right now, all she can do is crying for her... for the girl who was her heart...